forever waiting for disaster

Sunday, July 02, 2006 @ 2:28 AM

portugal suck balls. |

im super unhappy cos england lost to portugal, penalty round 3-1 ahhhhhhhhh. screw portugal, christiano ronaldo's the only good player lah wahlao. its not fair cos beckham rooney and michael owen are out man, 3 good players! lampard like sucked today and peter crouch was worrrsssttttt. super draggy match man but ahhh england lost :[ so i owe fangs 10 candy bars, double :[
jolyn said that ericksson sucks too so yes, england would make a come back in 4 years (lets hope they won't retire like what fangs said haha) and kick portugal's ass yeah baby. :] they should change coach man. peter crouch shouldn't play, he's too tall for his own good. okay im so mean i'd better shut up.

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so i slept at 0900am in the end and got up at 3plus i think. valerie came over and she fell asleep too that silly girl. bathed everything and left at arnd 7pm. off to town! where i was practicing my singing and i bought a damn pretty yellow hairband. :] yay walked arnd aaaalot then we cabbed down to millenia walk where i saw my sister (who is crying now for some damned reason, she wants me to leave her alone) singing and jenny pok pok pok! yayyyy oh and fangs AGAIN hahaha. so we all walked back and trained to serangoon. caught the england vs portugal match at white tangerine with fangs, L & T. hahaha fangs is like some crazy shit please, laughs at just abt anything and in the 7-11 omg, it was the funniest man. she's seriously crazy ooh and i bought a lollipop for her. :D (cos i expected portugal to lose) but rarrr damn irritating lah. and argentina lost to germany (:D) yea man! fangs's mum sent me home after the match.

guess who's my princess. :] (you're v pretty val, don't worry. wah if you turn into a lesbian, i'd def be the first to woo you heeheehee)

will upload more photos tmrw, my blogger sucks shit. im gonna change it soon anws. :] maybe even later, after i find food and drinks.

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i guess i've kinda cooled down but still mm. im really ~~surprised~~shocked to have come to know that i meant nothing to you. seriously, i mean, im sure i meant even a LITTLE to an aquaintance. okay maybe i thought too much of myself, perhaps i've overestimated the value of myself in your life (like you said) so i shall start thinking that i suck real bad and everyone hates me. and maybe again when i hear smthg like that coming from someone who mattered to me the way you did, it won't hurt so bad. its good to know how you feel anw, so i can forget abt everything you said and did cos you didn't mean it.

thank you jenny & valerie for listening the past 2 days. :]

oh gosh, its my turn for music marathon tmrw, im v excited. i've gotta be up early, msg shufen, get ready, meet shufen. YUP OKAY SET I CAN DO IT. bye world, continue to be good.

"roboboxx"

Saturday, July 01, 2006 @ 3:32 PM

told you school's great. :]

yes and so was necklace and bracelet making!

yay valerie rocks and shit i can't post up her baby photo (WHICH I WILL SOON)

"roboboxx"

loveeee/like/lust (?) |

hiii im home and its 0709am, im starving. prata now anyone? haha well i shall blog now! on thursday, i went to rachel's place with her and lou after a super slack day at school. we ate 2 tubs of B&Js, alot of durians and alot of mangosteens. watched saw 2 and rachel screams super loud, made necklaces and bracelets and lou made me one too! it spells a certain friend's name. :] hehe love them both man, mum and dad fecthed me home. in the night, i went to meet valerie seow wei li at city hall and we walked to millenia walk, had long john's, embarrassed her greatly lol and everything. anw thing is, we spent the whole night there with occasional walks to marina sqaure to get food, we bought a card for miss liang too! :D anw left the place at 0600am and we kinda slept walk to the station and her dad fetched us from tanah merah. fell asleep at her place, on the floor with tanny's sleeping bag. (thank you tanny wong!, i'll pass it to you soon w your nyjc shorts)

woke up @12pm cos her aunty was v noisy, ate home made currypuff and watched amelie, this french m-18 movie, me and val fell asleep 4563463 times during the movie haha. left her place w her arnd 4, thank you val! you're awesome company.
came home and off to swimmmming. :] mum took 54364363 years to get ready i tell you, then we cabbed down to braddell view's condo where i swam 20 laps. :] (and ate alot of sushi) but anw there was a fat society there and this damn disguting boy who kept staring at me so i ran away to swim somewhere else.
OMG AND GUESS WHAT HAPPENED, i cut my bloody hand in the pool. like what the hell man! my mum started screaming cos the whole chunk of meat came off and EVERYONE, I SWEAR EVERYONE stared at me and this aunty even started yelling for me to go get some plaster. oh my god so embarressing and not it hurts :[ i can't bathe properly, but yeahhh it hurt when i swam after that too ah.
cabbed home after that, i talked to mum alot. :] then um watch my CID show then left home again for millenia walk cos of that jenny pok lah! tsk but i had a great time with her last night. talked aaaaaaaaaa-lot, told her like my story or smth haha and she told me hers aww. i was super duper sleepy though cos i swam and i slept like EVERYWHERE.

on the chairs, on the floor, at pan pacific hotel my goodness. and that huifang took dunno how many photos of me sleeping, tsk. i had a great time though it was sooo sleepy, walked back to the station w jenny huifang eliza jasmine and sihui. :] they're nice company haha then um, slept all the way in the mrt back. (thanks ann na, yr pillow helped! :D) cabbed home with huifang and sihui and here i am. lotsa pictures to upload. :]

now jenny and i think that all butches are the same, as in the things they do after.. yeah, tsk tsk horrible. and i guess she agrees w me too that, the hardest part of letting go, is knowing she still cares. (not that i think you do or anything but whatever)

omg anw school on thursday was suuuuper fun! no lessons cept for A maths which was super duper slack hahah. i had the most wonderful time during lit with shufen. :] HAHAHA i laughed my head off man, seriously. it was soooo funny and her reaction is sooooo funny! sorry i can't go for wangleehom's clothes auction w you! called her at 0200am plus on friday morn and irritated the hell outta her hahahaha. oh well:

PHOTOS!

I WANT BACK MY FBTSSSSSSSSS, IM LIKE SHORT OF IT PLEASE AND ITS ANNOYING. EVIE PLEASE RETURN IT SOON AND LIZARD LIE ALSO THANK YOU V MUCH. OH EVIE RETURN MY BRAS TOO AND MY SHIRTS AND LIZARD LIE MY MEGALIFE SHIRT THANK YOU. BYE WORLD YOU'VE BEEN GOOD PEOPLE.

"roboboxx"

Friday, June 30, 2006 @ 5:54 PM

wai po |

yo im using my mum's laptop to blog and its super fast, unlike my shit ass computer. im just gonna give a quick entry cos i don't think im gonna have much time to blog. am gg swimming with mummy in 15mins at braddell heights. :] my whole body is aching like shit though cos i carried val from millenia walk to marina square on my back and i slept on the floor haaaa. i need to watch my CID show and i need to shit. val took a photo last night of a friend and i got a shock when i saw it on the bus this afternoon, anw i think i should go shit and swim yayyyy, i love swimming. i shall blog details when i get home like i dunno when cos im gg to millenia walk again tonight and i can't wait till mummy is free to bring me shopping. :] anw i love shufen! hahaha.

"i like her boxers."

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, June 28, 2006 @ 11:02 PM

urghhh |

i am so so so sooooooooooooo angry, i just read smthg that's totally not pleasing to me, coming from someone i never expected it to come from.
I AM SO ANGRY FOR A CERTAIN FRIEND THAT ITS ALWAYS SO UNFAIR THAT NO MATTER WHAT, YOU ALWAYS ALWAYS GET THE BLAME AND WHY'S THAT? ITS NOT AS THOUGH YOU WERE IN THE WRONG ANW ITS TOTALLY STUPID WHY YOU ALWAYS GET BLAMED FOR NOT BEING IN THE WRONG. ITS NOT EVEN THE 1ST TIME ALR, GOODNESS. the world is bloody unfair, this is so unjust! i hate the way you're always wronged.

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urgh i need to relax, i feel so unfair for this friend of mine. that aside, tmrw night will be spent with val girlfriend. :] smthg to look forward to yay i love spending time with valerie seow wei li. my skin is burnt and it hurts. i need to faster go change smthg so i've gotta go offline alr oh gosh me. byebye world, don't piss me off. :]

"roboboxx"

highhhhh |

the only joy that schl brings.

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heyyyyy school was dumb today and tiring. we took height and weight and i put on 2kg! O.O (?!?!?!?!?!) cool man hehehe i think the machine's spoilt. kay anw i was late for almost everything today. late for physics, late for e maths, late for chinese. i was yelled at during chinese and punished during e maths ahhhh, stayed back after schl to do e maths for 1.5 hours lol! cabbed home lonelyly, was unable to join clare and the rest for lunch, boohoohoo :( i've missed clare asking everyone to go for lunch after schl and now tt school has opened i can hear her whining abt it again yayyyy. :]

anw some people were pissers today and i started the day by listening to shufen's negative sayings and ended school by running arnd the school clutching a 100 dollar bill and have rachel lim chasing after me. damn exciting oh and valerie seow wei li dearest gf, gave me a muffin her mom baked today. it tastes realllyyyyy good. :] thank you gf, hope you've cooled down. don't me angry alr yea! tmrw's a brand new day. i got home, shufen called and i listened to her negative thoughts again haha (cool down too babe) then watched l word and here i am. omg val studied, i think im gonna fail everything! okay i don't know what to say alr but jay chou rocks and thanks for your cd valerie seow wei li (♥)

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If only you knew
Each night what I go through
While my heart is breaking you're out making
Someone elses dreams come true

ooh guy sebastian. :]

i love rachel lim yun shi, v much really. be strong.

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, June 27, 2006 @ 11:11 PM

周杰伦－　七里香 |

The sparrow outside the window
Has a big mouth on the wire pole
You said this sentence
Has very much the feeling of summer
The pencil in my hand
Moves back and forth on the paper
I use a few lines of words to describe who you are to me

The taste of sanma
The cat and you both want to understand
The fragrance of first love is retrieved by us just like this
That warm sunshine
Is like the just picked bright strawberry
You say you are not willing to eat this kind of feeling

Rain falls for the whole night
My love overflows like the rain
Leaves fall in the courtyard
With my thoughts one thick pile
A few words of gossip
There is no way it can cool off my passion
You appear in every page of my poem

Rain falls for the whole night
My love overflows like the rain
The butterfly on the windowsill
Is like the beautiful chapters fluttering about in the poem
Shortly after
I write I always love you into the end of the poem
You are the only understanding I want

That which is full of ears of the rice plant
Blessed this season
And your cheek is like the thoroughly ripe tomato in the field
You suddenly say to me
The name of the Common Jasmin Orange is very beautiful
Yet this moment I only wanted to kiss your stubborn lips

Rain falls for the whole night
My love overflows like the rain
Leaves fall in the courtyard
With my thoughts one thick pile
A few words of gossip
There is no way it can cool off my passion
You appear in every page of my poem

Rain falls for the whole night
My love overflows like the rain
Leaves fall in the courtyard
With my thoughts one thick pile
A few words of gossip
There is no way it can cool off my passion
You appear in every page of my poem

Rain falls for the whole night
My love overflows like the rain
The butterfly on the windowsill
Is like the beautiful chapters fluttering about in the poem
Shortly after
I write I always love you into the end of the poem
You are the only understanding I want

omg i love the song. and i love valerie (♥)

************************************************* star star star.

"roboboxx"

wrote me letters just to say she loves me |

oh my goodness im procrasinating again. i came home with the mindset of doing my english and everything but when val told me she didn't study her physics, i gave up (the thought) too lol i suck. school rocks socks eat forks suck dogs flip flops! okokok well see, i absolutely adore my classmates, realllllyyyyy do and with wonderful school mates, its really even better! :) rachel lim's the best man, she forgot to bring B&J's ice cream i want to punch her. maths was catch up lesson again, and dearest brought 45554392 smiles to my face as usual. i had a very distraught friend to and i really hope she's alright :( vicky reminded me of a monkey when she was waving her arms frantically outside my classroom hahaha!
well we had double a and e maths periods and god, it was a killer. a maths was easy cos new teacher who was a.. i dunno, not strict can alr. :D

after schl was music marathon practice and i took a gazillion photos w abby and rlim! i guess shiyun was super stressed and pissed off cos we didn't sing our best but oh well, practice again tmrw. heartland after that with abby rlim and lou. wahlao my new clique man, we went heartland tgt ytd and recess only the 4 of us hahhahaha. the rest gone, shufen and yx never come schl and val & candice were super busy. i missed shufen's jokes haha it was weird not having her arnd in class. heartland, eat eat eat and we bought B&J's chunky monkey which really wasn't worth our 12 bucks eeyer and pepper chicken. left for home at 1800hrs and boarded the bus w someone i didn't really know cept i know she was from my chinese class, we talked quite alot and i found out smthg hehehe, told val when i got home. valerie is the sweetest ever! she's one of my coolest friend too! :) and and and omg * msged me today! HAHAHA i was in the cab and i annouced it and lou abby and rlim went.. -.-"

the new clique HAHAHA kjust kidding, where's shufen yx candice & val :(

they make schl worth gg. :)

just, friends.

"roboboxx"

hei se |

guess who's eme's favourite girl? she's so adorable and very stressed up right now HAHAHA yay study session on thurs! :)

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yknw i don't believe crying for people who don't mean anything to you cos its just a waste of tears ain't it? but since you cried for her, so obviously she must have meant smthg. so don't act as though she didn't mean anything cos i'm sure she did, even if she's an asshole. am i right?

okay there's just been alot on my mind tonight i don't know why urg, some people just have to sleep so early. i bet rlim fell asleep replying my msg or smthg hahaha. but she's bring B&J's ice cream tmrw so heck everything bad abt her now yay so bye.
VALERIE JIAYOU! :) happy 5th month clare and yanyi hahahahahahhaahahaha i can't believe i actually remembered.

"roboboxx"

still holding on, to her |

hello i feel emo now, but nvm. i wanted to do a little smthg for a special someone, then i stood up and thought abt a couple of things then i decided that.. no i shan't do it. i feel an odd sense of jealousy now abt reading smthg, i know its jealousy is stupid but ah i can't do anything abt it. words are just words, so i don't think using words as reassurance would do much to me so i guess, you've wasted your breath on me cos i still feel indifferent towards the situation. kwhatever eme.

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eve is super duper sweeeeeet. :)
"but ltr, EMELINECHENYUEXIN cheered up my day:D haha, she's just so cute:D although, it was just a few mins spent with her, it was the happiest moment of this year:D"
she's like the epitome of sweetest! goodness yes i was so happy when she popped by my class after schl today with a big hug as greeting yay. walked her back and HAHAHA smthg funny happened. we saw someone and at the same time she said, "your favourite" and i said, "your best friend" omg we both burst into laughter after that, tsk. we're such asses. ;) love love love dearest.

i realised vicky's face is super huge on my blog lol. oh valerie's online and ive completed my lit, my lyrics, my eng project, my story book yay val roxzxz. :D

"Mistakes are something that happened by accident. You didn't walk out the door one morning and fall into some guy's bed. You thought about it, for a while. You made that choice."

i. want. to. be. there. for. you. so. let. me. please.

nights lovelies.

"roboboxx"

Monday, June 26, 2006 @ 7:37 PM

unsaid things |

school's in sexayes! what happened to me today?
i brought coke to school, i ate smarties jelly beans sweets chocolates mac's hasbrown mee tai mak barley in school, read my books caught up with gossip, had shufen sleep on me, talk to abby practice music marathon had 489375693 people laugh at my burnt face, had my shoulders smacked countless times and blahhhhh school's boring lah miss liang didn't make it any better and the timetable sucks.

SOOOOOOOOO after school, i hurt myself in the freaking pelvis when i freaking ran away cos it was my first freaking instinct and it resulted to hurting my pelvis badly and missing 3 cabs. HAHAHA im so sorry lou and abby! heartland with them plus rachel caught up a lil i guess and had lovely honeydew sago plus sushi and i bought tom yam noodles. i am soooo gonna get fat. >:) but anw PROPER LESSONS START TMRW! :( SO UPSETTING AND SHUFEN, GET WELL SOON (♥) music marathon is coming. ive got a bunch of homework to do and valerie is not online. its weird that shes not online cos i dont feel like doing my work w/o her arnd, someone tell me why.
valerie please come online soon! :)

you just let me down,
down,
down..

"roboboxx"

Sunday, June 25, 2006 @ 10:14 PM

when you're mad, i wanna kiss you |

(edit)

happy 15th birthday ann na, tmrw's yr birthday!

WOULD YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND?! (: says:
HELLOOOS!
WOULD YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND?! (: says:
i hate tmr!
tmrw is hell, yeehah. says:
im scared for tmrw rACHJELELELELEL
tmrw is hell, yeehah. says:
hahahaha
WOULD YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND?! (: says:
but when i think of you, I WILL LOVE TMR!

thank god for her, seriously, one of the reasons i go to school for. and yes there's valerie too aww! :) that ass is eating PIZZA now wth HAHA. yknw smthg happened last night that really reminded me of the last day of school last year hmmm, it was kinda scary. haha whatever lah huh. KISS AND MAKE UP, always the case lol. i shall go and force my sister to bathe now and read my book, pack junk food into my bag and sleeeeep w my sister. :)

"are you okay?"
"NO."

I'll pick up the pieces from what's gone and broke now
I'm sorry you're left with what I've become
We're lost in the moment, our chapters are finished
Regret every minute, I miss you so..

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hello my sunburn hurts like shit, everyone who's gonna see me tmrw confirm laugh at my ugly face cos valerie laughed at me yesterday :( but yeah whatever everyone else who saw me got taken aback, maybe i should wear shades and pretend my eyes can't look at too bright objects hmm. yes yesterday was wake up at 4pm day again, went down ta meet valerie for tea, coffee bean's muffin! :) then uh back to aunt vick's place then back ta my palce to do chinese essay. thank goodness i completed it man. my skin is peeling on my face EWWWWWWWWW. i find myself super ugly now haha today i spent the whole day sleeping till 4pm (again) then organizing my file then janice came over and we did our project in half freaking hour and now i shall attempt to type in chinese:
我的床现在很乱！我不要怎么早去sleep.
okay i give up typing in cheena hahaha i shall stop blogging like now and everything urg. i have two more things to add to my wishlist: all of jodi picoult's books as well as paperpeople notebooks! :)

things to do:
re do lit essay
english project, newspaper
read chinese storybook
practice music marathon (stop lou from taping yr mouth)
bring amandal's cd ta school
bring chem 5 year series
i dunno what i should do alr, im lost.
SLEEP EARLY!

"roboboxx"

Saturday, June 24, 2006 @ 2:45 AM

im looking for a cutie pie |

"change is a funny thing, we are not sure what we are becoming or even why. then one day we look at ourselves and wonder who we are and how we got that way. only one thing abt change remains constant..
it is always painful."

i can't it, i really loooove the book im reading. :) its such a great book haha and im bloody hungry now rar. rachel's fever came back lol and im getting it too, i feel so.. weak and raw HAHA.

yeah that back of mine now is red and rawwww and whoo the sky is beauuutiful man. :)

if shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine
if it had a home would it be my eyes
would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this
well here we go now one more time

I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to change this mind
you better believe that I have tried to beat this

so when will this end it goes on and on
over and over and over again
keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop
till I step down from this for good

well I never thought I'd end up here never
thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought that it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time

IM SO HUNGRY VALERIE BUY ME PRATA FROM SIMPANG BEDOKKKKKKK!
tanning (shit i typed tanny HAHAHA) rocks, me and rachel wants to go back there every week and oooh i picked up a new sport: SWIMMING! you can catch me at the swimming pool now cos i really love swimming yay its so fun and easy and wet. tryin to catch me ridin dirty

anw i took out the baby lotion just now for myself and i thought of the other time at vicky's place where we were using the lotion for all sorts of insect bites and everything omg it was hilarious. anw i hope you're happy celebrating gay pride over there in sarawak bbbeeeekooooo! :) byebye i feel like puking and everything urg, i want birthday presents lol.

"roboboxx"

Friday, June 23, 2006 @ 8:14 PM

your body |

~~i was just looking at certain photos just now and i realised that it kinda breaks my heart to see how happy we were and i.. photos are sometimes so, sad.~~

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okay anw today was siao day, seriously. lack of sleep, sun tanning & booze should never ever be combined into one day, seriously hahaha. i almost died and chng is down with fever now oh my gosh i have no mood for chinese compo anymore. shitz lah so the morning was rainy and freakingly coooolllldddddd, we huddled in the mrt with my SIA blanket haha gay siah, macdonalds breakfast at 9am at harbourfront then we merz cabbed to the beeeeaaaccchhhh where the weather was so damn lovely for sleeping, no sun plus so much damn wind. so we just poured booze and fell asleep till the sun came out and we tanned till 2pm. (my body's worsT than lobster now goodness) then took tram everything and got outta sentosa, headed to little indian and then back to vicko's condo where we swam a few laps. thank you tanny wong for your shorts and goggles, will pass it to you soon! :) took the slowest walk home then.

"hey, i missed you."
"i missed you too!"
"i was just kidding"
"but i meant it!"

haha okay i reaaalllyyyyy missed you lah and hope that i will see you tmrw. school's starting and we won't have time to spend w each other anymore realised that plus your stupid O xue zhun rarrr. my body has the grossest tanline :( hope chng's okay! i feel so bloody sleepy now i tell you, how to head to grapevine ah. plus english and chinese :( i shall play icy tower or smthg and im annoyed cos.. aiya whatever man.

could you really love somebody who was capable in falling in love with somebody else?

PHOTOS!

"roboboxx"

take my lead |

im sorry for ignoring those people online and my handphone's msges! hahaha was facing a crisis (see rachel i ignore everyone for you) but anw, i hope you're okay now and don't cry already, everything will be alright im sure.
so well called rachel cos she was so upset and didn't want to talk to anyone (BUT SHE ASKED ME TO CALL HER SO SHE WANTED TO TALK TO ME YAY!) and yeah, we talked for like the first time after 43839753 years and that silly girl broke down, tsk. i can't wait to see you again yknw :) missed you aaaa-lot, hope you're better now. oh yes, we gossiped too and i want to post abt - everything cos its so funny HAHAHA okay i shall stop being mean.

rar its so late and i've gotta be up in 3 hours, oh my goodness. i shall hit the sheets soon then :) ry baby, i know we've not been talking but i do hope you're alright too!

was just telling rlim abt love, and i think love is really being sacrificial and selfless. after hearing abt her story, i really think that she doesn't deserve J (no offence hor) but seriously, i think she deserves someone so much better after all that she's done. so bloody sacrificial but rlim really needs someone to give her security and its not been given to her at all and its sad to know how many times shes cried over the same thing and how people sometimes refuse to change no matter how bad things get and yeah, okay its just my piece of mind. and love, love is really painful sometimes especially when you're the only one loving and the other party doesn't feel the same way and she treats you as though like, you're just another friend only and that truly sucks. to me, i think when things turn out like this and love is being so one-sided, its always better to just give up and stop loving cos if so, the love given is so selfless that the other person actually seems very selfish. and its only gonna hurt more to just gg on loving someone who won't return it. no one said letting go was easy but still, it has to be done ONE DAY as nthg last forever so why not now, esp when the other party feels so different abt you its seriously not worth it to keep the candle burning to him/her, everyone knows that theres not only one fish in the ocean, not only one tree in the forest, the world is huge, you've yet to explore it how would you know that he/she is the One? so you can't think that way just cos you think you love that person soooo much and everything that he/she becomes the One, there are so many people out there that can definately give you what you really deserve other than this crap you've gotta put up with from the other party. so i guess, letting go is definately much easier though its gonna take a huge emotion toll but hey, everyone says the good part's always at the end like a marathon and after finishing it, you'll feel that exhilaration, i guess its kinda the same thing. letting go is a marathon, to each its own, some long, some short, but the same ol' exhilaration in the end and you're ready to start a new relationship and find someone new so it ain't that bad anymore ain't it? slow and easy wins the race, so no point pushing yourself to let go cos you're just gonna tire yourself out, take things slowly, it'll be okay :) you've still got your friends arnd you and though they can't make you happy the way he/she can but still, its better than nthg! letting go and falling in love is all part and parcel in life, everyone experiences it so you don't have to worry abt being alone. so just be happy yea, being a swinging single sometimes rock alot, it gives you the license to flirt ;) and rachel lim says i'd should really appreciate the people i have now cos they're really very wonderful and yeah i'd better think twice abt certain stuffs thats been on my mind alr and its really My life and My happiness and i really don't want to let anyone down in this way but still, better hold on before certain people disappear. if people promise to change, don't doubt them, i guess i'd better start trusting them and yeah maybe accept them? i don't know i really gotta start thinking abt alot of things and hit the nail on the head before those certain people slip past and i'll just live to regret it, seriously. i'd better stop making decisions without even thinking twice and end up hurting the other party/parties just cos of my stupid beliefs and caring so much abt.. yeah everything. happiness comes first, trust second and love third :)

that was for rachel lim but free for anyone to read it hahaha, not like anyone bothered but whatever and thanks for listening to me too rachel! i told her stuffs that i told no one actually HAHAHA. it was just a piece of my mind too so i guess im going to bed soon and i think i know valerie very well HAHAHA.
anw, this is a reminder for AMANDAL NEO (shit i spelt your surname as NEW HAHAHAHA!) to return the PHANTOM OF THE OPERA cd to valerie! you can pass it to chng to pass it to me and i'll pass it to valerie since you two don't like each other and so do i, yeah whatever. thanks amandal newo! (oops :/)

when does loving someone means letting go?

sigh, some things never change. im still as money face HAHAHA.

could it be the little wrinkle over your nose
when you make your angry face
that makes me wanna just take off all your clothes
and sex you all over the place, yeah
could it be the little way your storm around
that makes me wanna tear you down
baby i ain't sure, but one thing that i do know is

oh my god. somethings just hit me very hard, its so sudden, its smthg that should have hit me 5 months ago but now then it did, oh my god. how could i, how could i let you ruin my happiness like that? okay not ALL my happiness but a certain part. oh my god, i can't believe it, i can't believe i actually let you control MY life. ooooh my goooodnesssss, i need to talk to someone NOW. okay the stupid cranked up one is sleeping that ass, tsk ;) nighty nights.

"roboboxx"

everyday im hustlin' |

hairrrrr-looooo so i did some more chemistry just now plus one english compre, then i forgot what i did. ooooh i got a friend addicted to icy tower, super duper fun! :D then umm my sister came rushing in screaminggggggg for me to go town with her so okay lor and i dragged the cranky one along too. bought my book from kinokuniya, the tenth circle, one i saw in the newspapers today. im so proud of myself, spending money on books instead of clothes -smirks. (are you reading this, chng!) then then then i saw 50% mango sale!!! mum wanted me to go but i was a good girl and said, nvm lah another day. omg angel 0:) HAHAHAHA whatever man.

i heard its a reaaaaaal good book as books by jodi picoult are usually really good. :) an old fling from like 3 years ago dropped me a msg and gave me quite a bit of shock, and i thought abt what happened then haha. man, it was funny and up till today, i have friends still teasing me when i meet up with them LOL man.

HAWLALALALALALALALALLALA. i miss abby valerie shufen yuxuan candice rachel lim and louisa! :) and and and of course my dearest dearest dearest, goodness me. i wish she could come over soon again and we can catch up. :( dearest! your balloon is still floating arnd my room, constantly reminding me of you. i miss you sooooo much! and honey, i think we can forget abt our movie! HAHAHA and mary, abt our xbox day, you've still got sooo much homework hahaha. and whao i recived a msg from someone surprising too today hahaha.

♥ ♠ ♣

bye lovelies, i'll be having an early day tmrw. very early day & i hope rachel lim would be alright, my DPOG.

"roboboxx"

Thursday, June 22, 2006 @ 8:11 PM

too close for comfort |

I never meant the things I said
To make you cry
Can I say I'm sorry

It's hard to forget

And yes I regret
All these mistakes
I don't know why you're leaving Me
But I know you must have your reasons
There's tears in your eyes
I watch as you cry
But it's getting late

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know

Remember when we scratched our names into the sand
And told me you loved me
But now that I find
That you've changed your mind
I'm lost the words
And everything I feel for you
I wrote down on one piece of paper
The one in your hand
You won't understand
How much it hurts to let you go

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know

All this time you've been telling me lies
Hidden in bags that are under your eyes
And when I asked you I knew I was right

But if you turn your back on me now
When I need you most
But you just let me down, down, down

Would you think about what you're about to do to me
And back down...

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
(Yeh yeh yeh)

What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
I guess I'll never know

"roboboxx"

rompe |

hello i woke up at 1615pm today oh my goodness. so yesterday was candice's birthday celebration, i left my place for a morning walk at 0700am (yes i didn't sleep the entire night man) then i headed to kiddo's school which was in woodlands(?!) but yeah i saw sun haha who ain't thattttt pretty but still pretty! :) kiddo's school was very nice and it was nice seeing her finally, thanks for the package of food! haha then cabbed back to causeway point where i met the cranky one who didn't sleep for the entire night and we quarrelled at macs and created a hugggeee din and i laughed so much lol. walked arnd, stayed at the library then headed to marina square where i saw candy empire for the first time HAHA.

met up with part of the gang for candice's birthday celebration, bowled, had lunch at cartel, laugh laugh laugh then we went window shopping! then walked arnd till candice's dad sent all of us home. i finally saw abby! (♥) uhhh i came home and fell asleep immediately oh my god. the cranky one woke me at 2100hrs to watch the show, and i was sooooo bloody tired. then she cooked for me! :D and i felt better after that yay.

anw,

she is so stupid looking sometimes.

I AM BORED, i have a baaaaaaddddd headache. :( bye bye im going to do my english homework later! loveeeeeeeeesssssssssssssssss.

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, June 21, 2006 @ 3:37 AM

hi |

HI AMANDAL NEO, I KNOW YOU READ MY BLOG SO IF YOU'RE READING THIS CAN YOU PLEASE RETURN VALERIE'S PHANTOM OF THE OPERA THANK YOU.

you can like pass it to chng to pass it to me or smthg cos i know you don't like valerie.

"roboboxx"

wish i could be |

todayyyy i got outta bed at 1530pm yes omg, its like getting later everyday or smthg please ah. so uh i bathed and everything and started work at 4pm which i ended at 5pm to watch punk'd BUT i only did 3 or 4 maths ques, which i only got the answer for 1 of them. yes oh my god im a sucker. then uh i kept watching tv till i went online and then i watched more tv then i went online again, life is soooo boring. i saw smthg super shocking online just and which made me sad and jealous. :( but whatever anw thats like my boring day and candice ho is soooo cute, she makes me happy easily. we talked abt soccer oh yay i want brazil italy england argentina and alot of other countries to get the world cup, oh yeah plus portrugal. :) okay im like stupid and val is trying to call me tsk, happy birthday candice chai you pig! yayyyy. oh and did i mention, i cut my own hair today or rather, my sister cut it for me goodness, i look like her now (or so she claims)

kaka is like sooooo hot or smthg ♥

i love playing computer games and drinking milk makes me feel loved, it gives me this warm fuzzy feeling inside. :)

-

Only piano has been talking with me for the day
The sleeping cello; Silent; Old
I think you've make it well understood
I understand and I know too; There is no begrudge in you.
I don't believe that you are sad too.
Holding your hand. You being with me. It is all in the past now.
I hope he really loves you more than I am.
Then I'll leave you when it is true.
It is so confound for me to hear you want me to ask you.
I do not wish to break up with you.
Why do you want me to be smiling and pretend nothing has happened?
I don't have the talent to embrace you and him
Please don't worry too much, I'll continue to live well.
You are very far away from me and I will slowly walk away too.
Why do I let you choose how and when we break up?
I really have no such talent. I can't be this quickly silenced.
I'll learn to give you up. This is all because I love you too much.

jay chou sings such saaaaddddd songs.

-

anw im sorry i was so mean last night and this afternoon and whenever i made you upset. :) take care of yourself.

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, June 20, 2006 @ 3:24 AM

the adventure |

i did this just now cos i was so bored lol. i curretly smell really bad eeyer, i can't wait to study, seriously. i will i had smthg like a emotion relaxant spray, i'll take it a spray it over the world's population so everyone who is agitated right now would just.. relax. :) ciao!

"roboboxx"

shadows like statues |

(edit)
oh oh for those who hasn't got me my birthday present, ive got a wish list! :D

top shop's white or green slippers - $16
top shop's white bikini - $16
dorothy perkin's purple 'tease' underwear - $9
top shop's shorts - $16
handbands of different countries - $3.90, $8.90 at other places
a new wallet - $?
tops! - $?
patrick star from cine (beside hula&co) -$12.90
superman tee shirt from bugis - $9
a nice denim skirt - $?
brazil shirt ♥ - $? (depends where you buy it from)
a new diary from paperpeople - $16.90

wow i have a knack for prices and i think ALL are pretty reasonable man!
yeah thats abt it hahaha.
(/edit)

TODAY I WENT SHOPPING SO THAT MAKES ME A HAPPY GIRL HAHAHA. got 3 tops, a pair of shorts, a wallet, 2 bracelet thingy and very pretty beads! :) wah enough to make me so happy alr yaye so don't ruin it okay. thank you chng you were wonderful company, thursday and friday ah! so exciting i can't waaaaitttttt. omg we went to so many odd places today like haji lane, this weirdo shopping centre, this new place lol i dunno where lah. i saw this shop!

wah gay, what a name. burst out laughing when i saw it man hahaha. oh oh it was so funny when i left the place, i was hopping into a cab cos i was bloody late then i called rachel to find out that she too was hopping into a cab cos she too was bloody late haha. met at serangoon station then we cabbed down to bugis cos running after the 100 bus was no use. so well chai called today! :) and omg 2 guys hit on me HAHAHA i am glamarous chng! this weirdo guy asked me if i've eaten and this other boy asked me for my number ah hee hee hee hee hee hee chng you'd better treasure this gf of yours before she gets taken away ah. ;)

chng is wonderful, yeah! :D kbye.

You pick me apart
While I search for witty things to say (In my defense)
"You'll never amount to anything anyway"
(Don't press your luck, don't press your luck)
And think that I'm impressed with your one night stands
and your contagious kiss
I'm trying to get this right
Yeah, cause I'm ridiculous like that

"roboboxx"

Monday, June 19, 2006 @ 11:36 PM

inside your head |

today started of with me rushing into a cab at my place and calling rachel to find out that she too was rushing into a cab hahaha but anw, met her and we missed bus 100 so we decided to cab all the way down to bugis and our shopping started! :) yay got 3 tops and a pair of shorts plus a wallet & 2 bracelet thingy that's realllll cool and extremely pretty beads. :) retail therapy rocks socks baby. times with chng rocks socks too and whoo thurs night and friday's gonna be awesome man, so i shall have to rush homework nowwwww. she brought me to this cool place i've never been before and we walked to haji lane, so many old and weird shops. i went to alottttt of places and into this weird shopping center that has this shop:

HAHAHAHAHHAA WAH GAY MAN I TELL YOU. burst out laughing when i saw it.
trained back and met miss chong. chai called and we talked, headed to soya bean place for yummy balls after that and then home i went, watched tv till now and my head hurts. im hungry sleepy and thirsty so bye, tmrw is homework day. i MUST do homework already, im scared hahaha.

im apologising to myself for you,
for what you've done to me

"roboboxx"

we are, we are the shaken |

hello i think i was mad yesterday, i posted such a super long post with super lot of pictures. if you managed to catch it, good for you cos i deleted it hahaha. i wrote damn alot of shit abt r/s and stuffs and wah i posted pictures from 45388888235 years ago buts all gone now lol. anw im up early today! better than 3pm and okie dokie, i need to go shit and get ready. i hope mummy's home though and i am so tired, im not used to sleeping so little hours cos i slept at 0600am hahaha. im kinda talking to myself here so i'd better shut up.

miss her.

"roboboxx"

Sunday, June 18, 2006 @ 7:18 PM

whom shall i fear |

(edit)
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=210517651

photos baby, photos! and please read picture number 35's caption carefully, thanks. :)
(/edit)

happy birthday meiyang!

hello so my birthday wasn't great but i liked it.
i met quite alot of people.
so on friday eve came over with the sweetest present ever.
we talked and talked and talked.
its so easy to talk to her, and everything from the past few months came pouring out.
made a pact to update her everytime smthg happens. :) love her so much.

walked out, bused with siyi to the station and met L.
trained down to bugis, sat arnd.
went to the hotel room first cos mummy and daddy were shopping.
watched tv, messed up the place which was kinda nice.
mummy daddy and genice came arnd 8pm, went down for dinner at the olive.
i was happily watching tv then mummy messaged, "quick come down, there's a cute guy opposite our table!"
i was like what the hell. i guy looked like ~ i dont know hahah.
seafood buffet was gross, i wasted 50 bucks man.

after that, back to the room and evie came.
jumped arnd from bed to bed like mad people.
mingwei and chew were alr waiting @bugis junction for one over hour HAHAHA.
so went to meet them downstairs with evie and L.
mummy daddy and genice went to watch r.v.
got tickets for just my luck at midnight.
bought cards from cheers.
then asked chew mingwei and evie to go back to the room first.

L and i went to meet kiddo who trained all the way down from causewaypoint aw.
talked talked and talked so much tell 11plus.
then she left for home, thanks for coming suuuu! :)
went to the arcade with L chew mingwei and evie.
hahah had alot of fun then we all went for our movie.

chew and mingwei left after the movie.
evie and L went up and i changed then we went down again.
sat at some cool area in the hotel and talk talk talk abt random stuffs.
went off for supper at some nearby coffeeshop arnd 3 plus.
walked back to the hotel to sleep after that,
and damn the floor was bloody hard man.

breakfast at beach road the next day with everyone.
then homeeeeeee, L and evie came over.
slacked, did alot of things on the computer then left with evie for her place.
played stupid games on her computer then left arnd 7plus to meet vicky and zoe @clementi.
cabbed down to kim's party that wasn't as good as i expected but the food was awesome.
everything was pretty awkward and all, saw kenny with his girlfriend.
cabbed back to serangoon arnd 9plus with vick and zoe, we were high and singing so crazily.
met akira and soorya(?), went to the playground and marisse came too.
talked and played handgames till arnd midnight.
called L down and she walked me home, okay good.

okay wow, what a long post. will upload pictures soon though not much. :)
dinner's ready! bye bye i feel like puking ew.
thanks everyone for your wishes, hugs, presents, msges, tags aiya everything lah. thank you love you miss you want you adore you need you caress you sex you HAHAHA.

it started of with a kiss,
how did it end up like this
it was only a kiss,
it was only a kiss.

i just can't look,
its killing me
and taking control.

hmm, mr brightside you're wonderful. :)

"roboboxx"

promise |

hi everyone, i have a friend.
who have never eaten mangosteen in her life.
this morning, was the second time in her life.

i call her:
the mangosteen girl. :)

"roboboxx"

Friday, June 16, 2006 @ 4:03 PM

monsters |

We are
We are the shaken
We are the monsters
Underneath your bed

hello my nose is killing me, seriously.
i can't believe im sick today rar.
anw eve is on her way here! :)
and im precious to my precious hahah.
im happy. :)

i feel like sitting by the poolside tonight,
talking till the morning light.
with anyone at all, my precious or evie or whoever'll be there.
hmm we'll see then.
hope to catch a movie with mw and chew tonight if they're coming.
can't wait to see them, finally.

i think i need to shit now hahah.
byebye lovelies, i shall back soon. ♥
find me at inter - continential hotel tonight, bugis! :D

"roboboxx"

man in the mirror |

hello im so lazy to put caps.
i think my birthday's so fun! i love birthdays. :)
so last night i slept at 0500am, tsk.
annndddddd i had good company!

this ~~morning~~ afternoon, two crazy girls came screaming in my room with a hell lot of balloons and a happy meal. :)
i woke up with a terrible headache and a horrible nose, ohmygod.
but those two made my day, and we gossip a little here and there.
looked at the year book, both of them ATE my happy meal aiyo.
then left the house, leaving behind aaaaalot of balloons.
thank you rachel lim & louisa! :)

woke up with one trillion msges, thank you you guys too.
the funniest one was from nick kang lol, he's such an ass. ;)
yah my dad is in a bad mood and im scared.
and su is scared for her date lol
shufen is going to shop alone.
and im waiting for dearest!

kbye. ♥

"roboboxx"

I'm on year closer to heaven, HAHA |

Thank you Ry & Ho for the visit.
I've got calls from China (thanks Abby & Tania), from people I haven't spoken to in months.
And I CALLED MY OWN COUSIN AND SAID, "Evie, are you sleeping? QUICK WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" hahaha i'm so crazy.
Thank you for the email, notes on blog, msges, hugeass card (Ry) :)

I can't wait to see dearest tmrw, seriously missed her.
Thanks for the sweetest msges.

"Its your birthday! & birthdays are exciting. :)"
, yes it is cos of people like You.

♥

"roboboxx"

Thursday, June 15, 2006 @ 11:44 PM

Crowded |

Hellooooo, today was an extremely tiring day.
I think I'm down with slight fever and a very bad flu. =
Anw, started the day by forcing myself outta bed.
Met up with Kim, gosssippppp again man.
A very bad thing happened which left a crying kim and 1 hour at the police station.
I was very tramautised on the bus ride from Clementi to Huogang.
Thank you to the 2 people I called and comforted me. :)

Shufen's place.
Played monopoly, laughed alot.
Watched gay television, super duper boring, some law shit.
Shufen has lousy taste in tv shows but I have fun. :)

I'll keep this as
A constant reminder
Of the nights I spent holding onto her
And rest assured I'm moving on
I miss you less, with each day your gone (your gone)

~~Its my special day in 15 mins. :)~~
Its my special day!
And I need to shit now, bye.

Thank you everyone for the wishes and everything. :)

"roboboxx"

The rain goes on |

Its 0515am.
I'm blogging.

HI.

Hi i miss you. :]
You miss me?

I never thought i'd be the one to say
Please don't, please don't leave me.

"roboboxx"

How you remind me |

Isn't this the cutest thing ever?

I did a 905 question quiz just now, awesome.
I took 2hours10mins, hahaha.
Am on the phone now with someone who's going to cry, aww.

Watched alot of Hard Gay videos, laughed my brainz out.
I AM SO BORED NOW.
I WANT TO PLAY MONOPOLY, NOW.
I've gotta be @cityhall tmrw, 1250pm oh my god.
I think i'm going to over sleep and pissed Kim off hahaha.

Was at grapevine with Rachel Ann na Vicko Marisse & Calista.
Goooorrrrssssipppppp and daddy fetched me home.
Ordered Macs. :)
Okay, am going to stop blogging now. ♥

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, June 14, 2006 @ 8:21 PM

Sugar sugar |

Heyyyyyy thereeeeeee.
I caught Aeon Flux today on Mr Lappie, its a good show. I like it. :]
Didn't do much, slept in till 3pm.
Shufen called and started screaming smthg about evil hour when I was asleep, so I think I was mumbling shit. It always happens when people call when I'm sleeping hahaha.

My throat hurt like crazy.
I had nutella bread last night at 0500am, thank you. :]
I survived my hunger pangs and anw, I think my phone is cool.
It takes cool, dark, blur, mysterious photos. -Sniggers

Wahlao eh, so dark man.

I think I'm going out now, yayyyyy.
And my parents quarrelled about Sotong just now, what the hell.
I could hear them screaming from downstairs, literally. :I shall do a quiz from Ry's blog first.

-

ARE YOU:
sensitive = My throat and face is sensitive
hurt = Physically? Yeah, my throat.
calm = Guess so.
quiet = :] Ain't it obvious?
active = I am yelling on the phone and rolling arnd on my bed at 0500am.
very shy = HAHAHAHA yeah yeah.
confident in yourself = Yup
brand-conscious = Nope
a good listener = Ask my friends
easily bored = YESSSSSS.
outgoing = I hope.
open-minded = Yeahhhh.
an only child = Nope.
happy at the moment = Am very sleepy.
tired = Yuppppp.
playing any online games = Nooooo haha.
tempted by chocolates = Ew throat pain.

DO YOU?
believe love at first sight = Err, NO.
have someone you really care for present = Huh? For present?
believe in love = Yeahhhh.
ever cheated on a test = HAHAHA yah.
play the guitar = I laughed till I failed my guitar test.
play the piano = Yeah.
play the drums = My siser's head is my drum.
like your life = Yah huh.
like school = Yeah i do.
like dancing = LOL I went for dance class.
like sweets = Nooooo.
like travelling = Yes.
own an Xbox/ playstation = Yup
like Spongebob squarepants = YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!
ride a bike = All my bikes got stolen.
read Harry Potter = Yeahhhh.
yell at your siblings = Hahaha yes.
argue with your parents = Nope
love McDonalds = Yesssss
play basketball = HAHA NO.
play badminton = I won Ho and Mary with Ry!
play tennis = I suck
play bowling = Suck too
swim = Love it, splashing water i mean.
skate = Love blading
watch Disney channel = Don't have the channel
love movies = Yeah!
like Oreo = Not really.
like chips = Noooo.
do the housework = Hahaha no.
love your friends alot = :]

WILL YOU?
get more than 5 piercings = Eww no.
curse a friend = Depends, I think I already have.
hug a stranger = Yeah, was forced to in fact.
sneak out at night alone = No, too scared.
further your studies overseas = $$$?
try summoning a ghost for fun = Never
try alcohol = Alr have.
love someone whole heartedly = Don't know..
smoke = EW

HAVE YOU EVER?
hug someone = Yesss
look someone in the eye = Yepppp.
done stupid things that finally made you real embarrased = Ahaha no.
said sorry to someone = Yeah
thank someone = Yeah
loved someone who hurt you badly = HAHA yeah, as a friend hor.

-

What's your favorite....

Beverage (non-alc) Milo milo bon bello.
Color? Purple, hot pink, red, black everything lah.
Food? :] love fish and co.
Item of clothing? Uhhh shirts shirts shirts?
Meal of the day? Supper!
Feature on yourself? Everything, my nostrils.
Phrase? HAHAHA
Song? Loads man.
Musical Artist/Band? All American Rejects!
Sport? None
Movie? She's Da Man.
TV Show? Nthg, I don't watch teevee.
Radio Station? None.
Type of Chocolate? I don't know.
Eye Color? White :]

Do you/Have you ever....

Have any pets? Duh, am having 2 dogs, a cat, 2 hamsters, whole lot of fishes.
Have any piercings? Yup
Have any tattoos? Fake ones
Gone skinny dipping? Noooo
Been to Europe? Noooo
Been to an island? Am living on one
Had stitches? Eww no.
Broken any bones? Nope, thankfully.
Been stabbed/shot? EWWW NOOOO. Oh, I was stabbed by a pin.
Slept until after 12:00? Hahaha
Stayed up all night? Yeeeeep
Turned down a dare? Err of course.

Which friend....

Is the funniest? I think Shufen's funny, actually alot of them are funny. :]
Is the prettiest? Eveeeeee, kelly! EVIE, my most beautiful haha.
Is the most handsome? Wah I don't know. I think I'm handsome HAHAHA.
Is the loudest? Louisa, Rachel Lim oh my god hahaha, Candice Ho's laughter.
Is the craziest? Rui-yee lol.
Is the most shy? I dunno.
Is the most loving? I dunno too.
Is the most understanding? A handful of them. Candice Chai haha aw.
Is the most boring? Wahlao jiahui. (I hope she doesn't read this.)
Is the richest? I want to be rich! :]
Is the most athletic? Wahlao eh, of course ME lah.
Is the most cocky? Proud? I don't know.
Is the most wordly/cultured? HUR?
Do you look up to the most? Eh, no one.
Do you tell everything to? No one too hahaha.
Has the best clothes? Everyone has nice clothes. :]
Has the best house? I love mine, so mine the best I DON'T CARE.

Would you ever..

Eat pizza with chocolate chips? Ew no. I don't fancy weirdo food.
Kiss someone of the same sex? Alr did.
Cheat on someone you love? Nope.
Run away from home? Hahaha yes, for the fun of it.
Lie to your parents? Depends what it is about.
Lie to your boyfriend/girlfriend? Umm i guess? I don't know lah.
Lie to your best friend? Everyone lies lah okay.
Give a homeless person money? Yeah!
Run from the police? No, never.
Bungee jump? NOOOOOO.
Sky dive? NOOOO too.
Cross dress? Already did.
Be an exotic dancer? Nope, can't dance for nuts.
Walk out of a restaurant without paying? I did that with kim HAHA.
Scuba dive? Yessss, wld love to.
Go rock climbing? I did and failed haha.
Go spulunking (caving)? Ewww i dont wanna see worms.

What do you think of when you hear..

Eminem? Hailey baby.
Bologna? Bolognese?
Hot? Wah, Pussycat dolls.
Orange? Orange juice.
Real world? Real player.
Jack? Jack and the beanstalk!
Cucumber? Eye reflexalogy (?)
Hip-Hop? Gimme That; Chris Brown
Uniform? Big bird, ew.
Unicorn? Val and Candice's unicorns with the gross hair HAHA.
Rainbow? Rainbow dogman.
Clown? China's wigs.

See ya, I think I'm late. MOMMY WHERE ARE YOU.

"roboboxx"

on and on again |

01. What time is it now?
0235am

02. What are you doing?
This, chatting, listening to music

03. Thinking of Anyone?
Nope, no one

04. Are you Happy/Blur/Sad?
I AM HUNGRY YOU ASS.

05. Why?
BECAUSE I HAVE NOT EATEN YOU ASS.

06. What is the last thing you ate?
Oreo cheesecake.

07. Last thing that you've heard that made you cry?
Errr.. it was a long time ago. I don't remember hahaha.

10. Whats the last movie that made you cry?
Uh, I dunno. OH MI:3

12. Who do you wish to be by your side?
Someone who has good food.

13. Regretted anything in this month?
Yeah.

14. Did you fall in love/out of love in this month?
I fell in love with.. my cat. HAHA.

15. Who was the last person you talked to?
My mum.

16. Who was the last person you hugged?
My mum.

17. Who was the last person you sms?
Another hungry person lol.

18. What did you dream of today?
Nthg, yet.

19. Who can make you laugh?
Anyone actually.

20. Who always takes care of you?
Myself, my mum, my maid.

21. Anyone you know is in pain?
Okay my friend has ulcer.

24. What happen?
ULCER YOU ASS I JUST SAID.

25. What do you wanna do before you die?
I want to steal things.

26. What song is stuck in your head?
Blame it On the Weatherman.

27. What song are you listening now?
Blame it On the Weatherman.

28. Worried about anyone?
Errr yeah, Rachel Lim. She seems to have died.

29. What age do you wanna get married?
21!

30. How many children do you want?
NONE.

31.Where do you wanna go for Honeymoon?
Malaysia.

32. Any plans in this 2 months?
What kinda plans?

33. Describe a perfect wedding?
Errrr, in the zoo?

34. Describe a perfect Date?
At night safari.

35. Where would you like to go for Holiday?
Malaysia.

36. Do you play instrument?
Pianooooo.

38. Do you have a band?
Nope

39. What song do you want to listen to?
Nice songs dude.

40. Wish you could die?
NOOOOOO. I haven't stolen. :]

41. Do you give up easily?
Depends

42. Do you know anyone that acts like a kid?
Yeah, ME.

44. Do you know anyone that is rude?
YESSSSSSS.

45. What's the sweetest thing anyone ever done?
I don't know, sent B&J ice cream at 0400am HAHAHA.

47. Any sweet unforgetful memories with your Ex?
Whaaat the heeeellll HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

48. Honestly.. Which Ex did you love the most?
LOL

49. Who do you want to be hugged by?
Barney.

50. Single or Taken?
Taken by Eve, Valerie, Rachel, Evie HAHAHA.

"roboboxx"

Can you name 13 people you can think of right off
the top of your head? Anyone you're thinking of, in
no order. Don't read the questions underneath until
you write the names of all 13 people. Absolutely
NO cheating and switching positions on the
list,either! READY, START!

01 Evie
02 Candice Chai
03 Ruiyi
04 Candice Ho
05 Eve
06 Valerie
07 Shufen
08 Louisa
09 Su
10 Rachel Lim
11 Rachel Chng
12 Kim
13 L

THE QUESTIONS:
1. How did you meet 2
In school.

2. What would you do if you never met 6?
HAHA i won't know abt Alex.

3. What would you do if 2 and 9 dated:
Oh my lord.

4. Did you ever like 8:
HAHAHA NO.

5. Would 1 and 5 be a good couple:
No, Eve is mine. And so is Evie.

6. Is number 11 gay/lesbian:
What do you think hahaha.

7. Would you tell secrets to 5:
Yes, definately.

8. What is your first memory of 2:
She told me she had hot legs.

9. Do you know any of 1's family members:
Every single one :)

10. What's 10's favorite color?
Red

11. What would you do if 9 confessed he/she liked you?
Omg my ex eyecandy HAHA.

12. What language does 3 speak:
English

13. Who is 9 going out with:
She's woo-ing someone. ;)

14. What grade is 12 in:
My age, sec 3

15.When did you last see 7:
2 days ago

16. What is 5's favorite band:
No idea man haha.

17. Would you ever date 3:
HAHAHA we dated ;);)

18. Is 1 hot:
Yuppppp

19. Is 12 single:
Yahhhh huh.

20. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 1:
Yeah i wish. She's so pretty.

21. Where does 8 go to school:
PL.

22. What's 4's best physical feature:
She has a super cute face :]

23. Are number 7 & 8 best friends:
UH noooo.

24. Is 8 a girl or boy:
Girl

25. Who is 5 in love with:
:) ME hahaha.

26. What is your last memory of 7:
She chased me with her freaking umbrella

27. Have you ever hooked up with 4:
Used to like her in Sec ONE.

28. What is the funniest memory of 8:
Her stupid cap with my wallet haha.

29. What is your relationship with 6:
She's my gf! Today's our 4th month hahaha.

30. How old is 13:
16 going on 17

31. How close are you with 1:
Very very. :)

32. Would you sleep with 12:
Why not, I've slept over her place.

33. What is your favorite memory with 3:
There are tons.

34. Who's 11 best friends with:
No one.

35. What's your favorite thing about 2:
She's so lovely and she's a wonderful listener. :)

Okay so I went to bed.
And I got up 15 mins later feeling feverish and hungry.
Soooo, here I am. I can't sleep.
I'm..
STARVING.

:)

"roboboxx"

she's da man |

IM SORRY I DON'T NEED REMINDERS.
anw happy 4th month rachel and valerie :)

I caught She's The Man with two lovely girls.
-Inserts picture here (THE STUPID PHOTO DON'T WANNA COME OUT LAH)
I had a great time and I love oreo cheesecake. (Hints, birthday coming)
HAHAHA, the show was grrr-eat. Even my mom liked it. She CRIED oh goodness me.
And... I've got no mood to blog anymore.

:)

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, June 13, 2006 @ 7:19 PM

hoi hoi |

Wah, I've got a big fat headache.
Thanks to the run I ran just now, it led me to.. Braddell Heights CC/Singapore Wushu Association HAHAHA where the hell? I took a slow walk home as my head hurt like crazy.
It was a mistake to run when I'm having food poisoning, my stomach hurt like crap but I kept running running and running running.
It kept my mind off certain stuffs, so it was good. :)

Came home and saw someone crying. :\
Okay I really didn't like the scene lol. So told my sister about it and she felt awkward? I don't know. Watched Cassonova, pretty hilarious. I don't see why it's M-18, there's no nudity or foul language. Kim called me, panicking again. It was so funny.
I gave her the stupidest ideas. ;)

She's The Man tonight with mummy and Genice, yipeeeee.

I miss Eve. ♥

(( Crowded; Jeannie Ortega ft Papoose ))

I don't know what you've been thinkin 'bout me
Did you think this was gonna be that easy?
Hell no, you must be going crazy!
Why don't you get outta my life,
get outta my sight,
get off of my back..

"roboboxx"

you don't mean anything to me |

im so RARRRRRRRR i don't know the word to describe myself now. i feel so terribly.. RARRRRR i need to get outta my house. im so sorry i cancelled plans with you today kim and now im dying. i shall go running, YES i shall run to a place where i've never been and then cab back or smthg. okay great i shall go change and run after this, run away all my anger babeh.

anw kiddo is back and im so happy! and wahlao, she went for rugby camp right after coming back from kl that ass. but thanks for calling from camp this morning, i needed someone hahaha. missed you, meet up soon!

VALERIE I WISH YOU STAYED NEARER TO ME, WHY YOU STAY AT TANAH MERAH >:(

"roboboxx"

Monday, June 12, 2006 @ 11:29 PM

hey lola |

okay anw, mom just fetched me home from vick's place. wah good food :) the party/gathering was okay just that rach ann na and kelly were super nice to push me into the pool rar. anw all of us got wet so whatever and i think kelly is super duper hot :D talked to rachel, finally caught up with her. fkdanfedafeafuhajfkadsncm,ndaiocehotheioahfeanfdnfmandcouahefohra

watched desperate housewives then home a ling a ling. val came over before that and we had a great time making sandwiches and toasting bread crusts and talking :) hee hee lovely valerie! went swimming with her and vicko after that.

kelly is very pretty!

yeah army girl ha-ha.

aiya whatever lah on top of everything, someone's smile made my day and it was extremely adorable >:)))))))) ♥

nthg happened, im not angry.

"roboboxx"

who am i |

heyyyy boredom overtakes and i did a couple of crazy videos, i mean what else could you do on a boring monday afternoon after ransacking the whole house with your sister ;) (we found really disgusting stuff, i will tell you later when i see you valerie HAHAHA) ewww anw ah, videos videos!

yes thats the national day song for year 2001 or smthg i think HAHA. its damn crazy, we found the CD!

and chan mali chan ;) you've got to wait 40 plus seconds till the song comes out lol.

and if you wanna know why i'm like THIS, THIS is why. and yes, that IS my daddy. -smirks

and this is a really really lovely, beautiful song ♥

wahlao eh, guess who man ;)

who say my face never change! :D

-

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

lovely!

"roboboxx"

so tell me does it hurt |

hi im blogging. wahlao blog blog blog, everyday also blog. eme got no life man.
i think i really got no life, i woke up to valerie's msges saying that she dreamt of me last night HAHA best.

anw was on the phone last night till 0400am plus cos the freak didn't dare to put down at 0300am. so we talked abt damn random things from movies to europe prostitude. i want to kill her cos she's still so awkward while talking to someone rerh okay anw i took photos when i was talking to her! HAHAHA self timer shots somemore ;)

yes i know, best hahaha. im levitating :D

and the cuts that shufen gave me with her stupid ahma umbrella. SHUFEN ARE YOU SEEING THIS?!

i got alot of shopping plans in mind after the phonecall ytdy yeeha shopping ;) candy and chai are in m'sia alr :( okay byeeeeeeee.

"roboboxx"

i see you baby, shaking that ass |

(edit)
WAHLAO EH I BLOCKED AND DELETED SOMEONE OFF MSN. NO WONDER I FELT SMTHG WEIRD HAHAA. THEN JUST NOW I TRIED ADDING HER BACK COS I VELLY BORED THEN I CANT REMEMBER THE EMAIL HAHAHAHA! SEE LAH!
WHO ASK YOU MAKE SUCH A HARD EMAIL, NOW I CANNOT REMEMBER THEN CANNOT ADD YOU. TOO BAD LAH, YOUR FAULT. HAHAHAHAHA. okay i think im alr crazy baby, its so sad i can't remember her email awwww :D i don't wanna ask anyone for it too HAHAHAHAH im like some shithead please >:) evil evil eme. im so boredddddddd valerie so boreddddd everyone so boreddddd, life is boring. even my dad says so HAHAHA and so cold okay bye.
(/edit)

yo i just felt smthg weird ahaha and then i felt like rolling all around my bed like an egg. okay im so weird i know. oh i forgot to say the quote of the day!

"you are so F-Freaky!"

HAHAHA shufen is super cute. i bet she wanted to spit a vulgarity on me cos i ran away w/o her at the staircase there to purposely annoy her. wah i love annoying her man, countless of times i did that today. like i knew she hated new urban male, then i was like "OMG NEW URBAN MALE!" then i ran inside w/o caring abt her and she just walked off by herself HAHAHA goodness. oh and then she got so annoyed, she took her stupid big mobile ahma umbrella and poked me all over what the hell! NOW I GOT 2 SCRATCHES ON MY LEG! you f-freaky! HAHAHA omg, i laughed till i had a bad stomachache man.

this photo looks so wrong and she's holding her stupid ahmaish umbrella ew. i feel so cold and my air con is off! tsk i feel so annoyed cos my computer internet is not repaired yet >:(

okay everything aside, I AM LEARNING TO PUT AWAY MY HATRED/ANGER FOR A CERTAIN SOMEONE MUAHAHAHA i really destest her beyond detestment. speaking false things abt me EWWWWWWW GROOZZZZZZZZZZZZ okay shufen knows who HAHAHA SO UN-GREEE rarrrrrr, candice chai says i must learn to let go. OKAY I WILL GET GO OF MY ANGER FOR YOU AFTER I EARN 1 MILLION DOLLARS. COS SHUFEN SAID THAT SHE WILL PUNCH YOU UP FOR ME AND ASSASINATED YOU TILL YOU'RE NEAR DEATH IF I PAY HER ONE MILLION DOLLARS HAHAHAHAAHAHA which also means, never lah so whatever.

wah i got birthday wishes so early from samuel, joshua and candice ho. THANK YOU DUDES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BYE I THINK IM HIGH HAHAHAHAHAHA.

"roboboxx"

note to self |

01) What is the phone brand? sony ericsson
02) What are the last 3 digits of your mobile number? 318
03) What does the 2nd message in your inbox say? Yeah im gonna miss you oh so much... lazy to type all hahaha.
04) Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M? Maggi
05) Who's the last person you rang? 100, for shufen's bbq pit HAHA
06) Who was your last missed call from? shufen
07) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D? daniel
08) What does the last message in your inbox say? "hello dearest :) i love you so much la haha. so much that i wish we could hug forever..." blah blah real sweet.
09)Who comes up under J? jamie, janell, jasmine, jasmine, jaspreet, jean, jennypok, jeremy, jeslyn, jess, jessica, jialin, jiayan, jocelyn, joelle, joey, joeyee, johannes, john, jolyn, jolyn ng, jon, jonathan, joshua, joshua chan, joyce see, julia, junsiew, justina
10) Go to your Sent Items - what does the 10th message say? "hahaha you get into the train we're in can?"
11) Who's the 4th person who comes up under S? samuel oh
12) Who's your network provider? m1
13) How many messages are currently in your inbox? no idea
14) What do you have as your background? me and dearest
15) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under R? rachel chen
16) Who do you have on speed dial 3? whats that
17) If you're on Pay as you Go, how much credit do you have? huh
18) Who's the first person who comes up under C? calista
19) How many bars of signal do you currently have? its full
20) What do you have as your main ringtone? some sony ericsson shit ring tone HAHA

anw today i got up and it rained so heavy. and some asshole called me at 0400AM (?!) and i think i was mubling incoherently saying like, i dont wanna talk to you for ten days, don't call me. then the next day when i woke up i took back my words cos i realised i wanted birthday present HAHAHA. so shufen came over and mummy fetched us to kembagan. trained down and walked to beach road in the rain. omg it was so messy and far and im number one complain queen! :D

shopppppppp at beach road whoohoo. love that place, and had char kway teow again! shufen's damn adorable okay :) right then we headed down to suntec where she bought me a cookie for making me walk so much aw. then got more stuff from there, embarressed shufen and rushed all the way down to the airport. met up with valerie for dinner at fish and co. love the choc fudge cake ♥, accompied shufen back and talked on the bus abt alot of random things and she said smthg that really made sense hmm. headed to vick's place, watched xmen.

down to the pool side with marisse and tanny. spassed arnd, swam and go and see tanny's blog. got stupid photo of me and vicko cos marrise and tanny threw chairs into the pool HAHAHA. vicko & i (marisse & tanny went off) headed back up and bathe everything, played spongebob chinese checkers, blah blah saw pictures online and everything. then midnight we took out vicko's cake HAHAHAHA. cut it, licked it and took photos, sang birthday song with rachel chng (who was on the phone) and everything. had a great time :) happy birthday V15! tanny's T17, marisse's M16 and i'm E14goingon15! wah best our robo names. dad fetched me home after that.

wah missed chngwoman aaaalot okay! so glad to hear her voice & everything today :) candice ho and chai are leaving tmrw :( got a chance to catch them online just now thankfully. talk talk talk as usual and its a mistake to leave your house with the laptop on man. i came back to find 14 msn convos cocking up my whole com hahaha okay bye.

"roboboxx"

Sunday, June 11, 2006 @ 2:28 AM

when flying feels like falling |

It's days like these, that make me feel,
like I want to bleed through my heart again.
It's days like these, that make me feel,
like I might as well be on my own again.
I take back everything I said, about loving you.
Now that you've left me on the ground,
I can fly away to someone new.
Don't pretend like I don't know you're untrue.
I never meant to bring you
(down)
Nothing but good
(intentions)
I never meant to bring you

wah emo emo baby.

she's my most wonderful honey :) (WAHLAO EH WHY YOU LOOK SO SIAN LEH)

and she's my most beautiful cousin, so much so that i wanna get a op and become a guy and MARRY HER HAHAHA.

i miss cherlene ong, kimberley kan!

"roboboxx"

Saturday, June 10, 2006 @ 11:11 PM

is this an illusion |

hello im actually still alive, yes its been frantically busy the past few days but i still had time to roll around my bed/floor/living room complaining of boredom HAHAHA. uh i shall use photos to show you what i did yay.

yes so seen came over and we spent time tgt awesome.

and the pimple cream madness in the night when the cousins stayed over HAHA. we played fifa2006 all night long, watched final destination 1 & 2 and ate ALOT plus we had ben and jerry's treat oh yummmmmyyyyyy :) love the cousins alot.

oooh then there was clique outing where only candice and shufen went! haha but its okay i had aaaalot of fun with the two of them, really did. they're so cute and funny :) i made a huge commotion cos i didnt want to watch anything lame, so we all ended up watching the omen and those two were so ~~~~ diaooooo ~~~ HAHA. kept covering their eyes and ears & everything, walked arnd alot, met alot of people then we went home :) and DAMIEN'S SISTER haha candice and shufen knows whoooo, inside joke ;) she's so gross and scary man.

then today i went out with valerie, i can't upload more photos im so annoyed rar. shopping at beach road, got abby a little smthg which hopefully made her happy yay i really do miss her alot. then had a great tea/dinner/lunch, walked allooottt through really artistic shop houses that freaked me out and saw turkish smoking and everything. really cool had fun. met ry after that and headed for supper and watched soccer at a nearby coffeeshop, INDIAN ROJAK! oh yum then we headed to plmc and i think i created quite a din there =/ saw abby and tarrr-nia ooh yeah :) happy wappy.

i guess that sums my week. plus tmrw shopping with shufen, AGAIN. im always gg out with her on sundays tsk but nvm she's so fun to be with! HAHA. and the past few nights been recieving msges from dearest and it pretty much made my night/days, i dont know. everything she says just makes me happy :)

"i'm going to throw the stick on national day"
"oh cool, i'll take photos of you!"
"i'm very scared i'll drop the mace (was it mace?), i'll just squat down and cry"
"its okay. i'll rush forward and hug you."
"then i'll purposely drop the mace :)"

rarrrr miss her sooooooo much. and rachel lim is so sweet, she talked to me online just now in m'sia!!! telling me abt stuffs and asking me how i was, saying that she still reads my blog even though shes overseas. ahhh i miss her tooooo. okay past few days has been pretty unstable emotionally and i think i did world great kindness! wah i was so happy i said, "yes you can come lah", it actually saved someone's LIFE oh my god. so cool, so cool. i guess its impt to know when your friend is upset cos its crucial to be there for him/her cos you'd never know when she'd want to end her life haha. so im glad i was there, really was :)

oooh i called evie just now and bitched and bitched. i was feel so freaking disgusted man! and so was evie HAHAHA. i bet you don't even know how two face she is to say this type of thing abt you and yet smthg else in front of you eww. okay inner thoughts, my blog, my feelings x) im bored and need to pee.

-

"The world isn't all about You."
damn youuuu, that line pissed me off freaking bad. i never ever remembered putting myself before you, even if i did, it was rare. i always thought about you first, your feelings, if you were to get hurt or not. people told me to be less selfless and think about myself but NO, i was still there. i listened to things you had to say even if they made me unhappy and one night when i decided that i was really angry and needed someone to be there, i THOUGHT i could actually count on you but nooooo, you weren't there. instead, you made me more upset and angry than i already was and the worst part? YOU DID IT ON BLOODY PURPOSE. why? BECAUSE YOU WEREN'T IN A GOOD MOOD. if i knew that, i wouldn't even confide in you, i would rather keep it to myself and feel bad and not feel even worst. and just because you felt that you were in a bad mood, you sorta took it out on me and made ME feel worst. you're so bloody self centered yknw. i counted on you, i expected you to make me feel better, i expected you to be there. i was there for you, everytime you were upset, i heard things from your mouth that i didn't want to hear but still, i took it in and shut my mouth. god, it was ONE night and yet.. urg you couldn't even be there. yet you say that you'd always be there? jokes aside, my friend.

okay, i feel better now :) bye world, i wish for world peace.
quote of the day:

"Every man is afraid of something. That's how you know he's in love with you; when he is afraid of losing you."

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, June 06, 2006 @ 10:33 PM

obsession |

hello world hahaha today was awesome even though its like 060606 but nope, nthg weird happened. i slept at 7am last night man, but i wasn't alone. :D err so seen came over and i had alot of fun. haha playing worms with kang, fifa 2006 and everything. seating down and just eating and catching up was great cos i laughed soooo much :) love them, really. anw uh went for dinner with evie and edward at the land of the hearts and we decided to pay ah ma a visit :) filial grandchildren hahaha ended up playing two rounds of blindmice cos of kristie's whinings but i had fun. i hope you had a great time today kiddo, im sure you did -winks.

shoe fern "I'm neither Straight, Bisexual, nor Gay, I'm just SHAMELESS!" says:
cheer up have a coke cola

(what in the world is COKE cola hahaha but thanks shufeeeennnnnn)

vicky is very cool *twist!* :D ♥

anw i few pictures i got from kellie's place, its shit funny HAHAHA. people really have changed :)

"do you love me?"
"yes i do."
"are you lying?"
"no im not."
"are you lying about lying?"
"go sleep emeline."

hahaha so cute, bye bye ♥

"roboboxx"

Monday, June 05, 2006 @ 9:52 PM

i said im sorry |

(edit)
so i ended up talking to kiddo, which after the conversation, i felt a whole lot better. even though its just her talking abt sun (HAHA) and i just listening, i really fell better :) so thank you kiddo. and its been so long since i last talking to nick and i am now yay :)
(/edit)

actually i feel very terrible right now. like a mixture of sorrys and i hate yous. i don't know, but im feeling very uh confused/upset/sick? its not a good feeling, it makes me wanna go sleep and forget about everything but i know i can't possibly do that cos its very selfish but i didn't really like being yelled at cos its i don't know.. scary.

i don't feel like talking to anyone suddenly hahahaha.

"roboboxx"

you'll meet them there |

(edit)
i think its damn hard to not hate and not be angry. i think surpressing all my anger like this is gonna make me blow one day. i need more dosages of evie koh yi fei to cool me down hahaha. shucks im gonna see seen tmrw i think, im so excited! :) cool eme, coooooooooool :)

♥♥♥

omg picture's perfect :) ♥

oh and thank you kid for, everything (helping out & being there) plus bubblegum! i know i look shit stupid there but the other photo of me and you's in my computer haha.

please come back safe from uk cos i alr miss you very much :(

oh joy
(/edit)

"holding anger is a poison. it eats you from inside. we think hating is a weapon that attacts the person who harmed us. but hatred is a curved blade. and the harm we do, we do to ourselves"

>:{

"roboboxx"

right on |

(edit)
WAH SEH I JUST READ RY'S BLOG AND HOW COULD I FORGET TO BLOG ABOUT THIS SHIT MAN!!!
OKAY SEE,
YOU KNOW ME AND HER WERE ON DOUBLE BIKE RIGHT? THEN WE WERE BOTH CYCLING THE DOUBLE BIKE TGT TO 7-11 RIGHT? THEN AH, I WAS SINGING AND "YO!-ING" TO THE PASSERSBY LIKE AN IDIOT RIGHT, THEN WE WERE CYCLING QUITE FAST LEH. THEN AH, THAT WOMAN WITHOUT ANY WARNING SUDDENLY BRAKE LEH!!!! AND THEN AND THEN WAH LAO EH!!!!

I FLEW FOWARD!!!! AND HIT HER AND HURT MY LEG. THAT WOMAN IS LIKE THE BEST TORTURER EVER. I THINK WHOEVER MARRIES HER IS IN FOR SOME SHIT, WORST THEN THE ONE WHO MARRIES ME AND MY PALTABLE(?, LOL I DONT KNOW) LIPS HAHAHAHA. OKAY LIT TIME BYE.
(/edit)

ANW I UPDATED PHOTO LINKS AT THE SIDE.

hello world, last night abi flabby came and it made me happy even though seeing her for such a short time cos i haven't seen her for soooo long goodness me :) abby tc on your trip to the cheena place okay, i will miss you muchies.

then uhh i forgot, i think i spent damn long uploading photos and blah blah blah then went to pick ry from the gate cos she was gonna sleepover. spent the night doing what we do best, got outta bed THREE TIMES cos first, she wanted to play worms (arnd 3plus am) then next, she wanted to show me smthg, (arnd 4 plus am) so we went to sleep arnd 5 only. but yea i had alot of fun :) thank you ry. i woke up this morning at 1343pm and she was gone alr hahaha. and now im online and im going to start doing my banquo's characteristics soooooonnnnn lol. my calf muscles hurt real bad so i doubt i can move abt much today :( and this stupid laptop hor, no no no err no err no oh yah no microsoft word! wahlao eh shit this thang lah haha. candice chai says i should upload more photos cos my blog is boring. BUT im lazy to hahaha.

"roboboxx"

Sunday, June 04, 2006 @ 7:41 PM

my love |

class outing
days with evie

ooh i love :)

-

hello today was awesome cos i went to some stupid super croweded book fair and squeezed through alot of smelly crowds but i was with shufen :):) hahaha she's really nice company! makes me laugh alot and i embarrassed her alot and thanks for walking me all the way to the exit heh. got a nice book, looks like some thriller haha. anw i read the five people you'll meet in heaven book all the way home and i almost started crying a couple of times but i stop myself cos who the hell cries in a bus hahaha. then candice chai called so talk talk talk till now :)

my stomach hurts and i think paul twohill's singing rocks. not that anyone would read this anw hahaha and im still kinda sad the moonlight died rar :( i feel so angry at this certain someone & though everyone asks me to forgive her but in your dreams, i'd never ever i swear. i think i practically HATE her alot and no, its not MANLY HAHAHA. shit man me and evie are the best :) okay byebye.

"roboboxx"

happy times |

i miss seen more than anything :(
okay actually only shanny and nick cos evie is right beside me, missing them a hell much as well aw.

moonlight dies; i miss youuuuuu.
anw i password my blog and..

IN YOUR FACE! HAHAHA.

"roboboxx"

Saturday, June 03, 2006 @ 11:44 PM

oceans apart |

14 of your favorite people, in no order hor

01 myself
02 my father
03 my mother
04 my sister
05 evie
06 eve
07 ry
08 candice ho
09 rachel chng
10 candice chai
11 rachel lim
12 vicky
13 abigail lim
14 shufen

(+) alot more but no space to write since they say 14 :)

13 of your favorite foods

01 korean instant noodle
02 twister fries, ah twinnnn
03 ben and jerry's
04 billy bombers's milkshake
05 french toast and waffles
06 97% fat free yami yogurt!
07 tau gay and cabbage
08 hand cooked food by lovely people
09 the cookies i myself bake (okay fine, betty crocker's instant mix)
10 plain crackers when playing spongebob
11 swedish meatballzzzz
12 eme and evie's jap curry (okay fine, ALSO instant mix)
13 your boogers

12 favorite restaurants

01 billybombers!!! :D
02 sushi teh
03 the one with the choc fondue fountain free flow (oh, marina mandrine)
04 macs
05 pastamania
06 coffee club
07 cartel :)
08 sizzler
09 jack's place
10 kenny rogers
11 my kitchen
12 the school's canteen

11 favorite memories

01 2B2, while sitting beside eve
02 when the cousins played soup-dry noodles
03 the grass patch times
04 the CS times
05 the chew family timessss :(
06 theodore shorts dropping off when he's sleeping HAHA
07 times with candice ho ry mary eve etc
08 SEEN TIMES OMG
09 suanning candice ho times (bang the head on the wall and door HAHAHAHA)
10 NKF HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
11 twinnie outings sleepovers everything, i miss

10 people who have changed your life

01 BILL GATES (he motivates me to be rich)
02 nicholas kang
03 evie
04 shannon
05 ruiyi
06 candice ho
07 my mother
08 ernest wong
09 L
10 maryanne

9 things you dream of

01 yOu__* ^^ (okay im kidding)
02 i dream of having a dream
03 to be rich and sexy hot smart pretty gorgeous
04 to be part of tAtU (HAHAHA)
05 i don't really dream of anything so we skip

8 of your obsessions

01 blogging
02 smsing
03 GOSSIPING
04 shopping
05 spassing
06 music
07 obsess about obsessing
08 i don't know, eating i think

7 beautiful people

01 jessica alba
02 nicole from PCD
03 okay lah everyone's beautiful (im boosting yr self esteem)

6 people you hate.

01 i think half the world alr knows
BUT, i dont hate hor, i dislike :D

5 of your favorite things

01 movies dvds cds!
02 earrings
03 FOOD!
04 my diary which ended like 3 million years ago
05 my bed :D

4 things that scare you

01 you do

3 movies you love.

01 final destination 2 & 3, im gg to watch part 1 after this
02 x men, the last stand
03 mean girls

2 books you love

01 p.s i love you
02 my best friend's girl

1 person you trust with your life

01 my mom :)

time for movie, g'night and evie's psychoing me to think that - doesn't love me anw! SAD LAH HOR, moon light haven't die so means she still does :)

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spongebob squareheads |

yelloh im bored and my stomach hurtz murtz furtz durtz murhaha. okay i have to go play spongebob game after this post and evie is beside me (AGAIN) watching me blog mog dog sog hog. okay err so i went to town and i drank MILKshake, then ate YAMI YOGURT (WHICH HAS MILK), and then i drank MILKtea and now my stomach feels weird and my throat hurts like an ass :(

so we walked like damn alot until we almost died seriously. like final destination, "you can't cheat death" moohahahaHAHAhahaHAHA. and then we walked somemore, sweat somemore, died somemore and walked somemore again till we got home and i saw yunzhen :D haha okay i shall go play spongebob game bye ♥

quote of the day:
"you can't cheat death"

highlight of the day:
evie felt tremors on the floor (omg TSUNAMI!!!!)

biggest miss of the day:
EVE :D

PREMONITION!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

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love, i see forever in your eyes |

am listening to was it something i didn't say by 98 degrees, its a nice song :) thanks su for showing me the music vid! hahah anw im back from class outing & vicko's place. class outing was fun cos i saw alot of lovely people and spent time with them laughing eating talking taking photos. i love eve alot alot alot alot seriously do. been like 387287234 years since i saw her and that few hours made me happy :) shes one of these rare people in my life who can really make me happy w/o even doing really much anything. my fight with her over me eating the uncook chicken made me laugh alot haha. okay i really miss her lah :( photos will be uploaded soon heh ry's dad sent me to vick's place. i got some stomach shit there and ate 3 different pills lol. ive got alot alot of gas in my stomach :( the moment i stepped into vicko's room, she started laughing at my shirt hahaha.

i got home smelling like bbq, talking to evie abt everything again uh she's like HERE! SHE JUST CABBED HERE HAHA SHIT I BETTER GO AND WEAR SHORTS MAN RAR.
okay im back and evie's here haha. err i shall go do some quiz vicko asked me to do:

Seven random facts:

01 i like to eat but i still think im fat haha
02 evie is beside me watching me type this
03 i like to sleep with rubber mats
04 sometimes i think i'm a robot
05 uh i like to dream
06 freakydreams.com is stupid
07 eve is very pretty i wanna kiss her HAHAHA

Seven celebrity crushes:

julian morris (omg hawt)
angel from x men (dont knw his name)
katherine moerring (dont know how to spell properly, lazy to search)
paris hilton
jessica aba (omgzxzxz)
paul twohill! :D
my dad ♥

Seven qualities I want in a potential boyfriend:

every guy every girl would want :)

Seven things that scare me:

death (of anyone i love)
worms
pain
heat
disappointing the ones i love
err i don't know alr

Seven things I like/love most:

hanging out with lovely people
camwhoring :)
my electronics haha
travelling
shopping
spassing arnd
laughing, being happy

Seven things I plan to do before I die:

turn a gay (guy) on
travel the world
make a million bucks
complete spongebob game, gold audition
do charity :D
make my parents truly happy
make everyone who is reading this happy

Seven random songs at the moment:

here without you -paul twohill's version
buttons -pussycat dolls
our song -m2m
beautiful goodbye -nick lachey
gone -nsync
say goodbye -sclub7
"the song evie's singing right now" -nsync

Seven people I want to do this:

my father
my mother
my grandfather
my grandmother
my cat
my dog
my toilet bowl

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Friday, June 02, 2006 @ 1:27 PM

my angel ~~in disguise~~ |

hello i woke up this morning with a swollen eye. okay its not that visible but it feels weak and swollen haha but i can see! :D but nooooo contacts rar. anw class outing later on, im gg later i don't care. i'll wear shades or smth and contacts in ONE eye hahaha. so last night, my mom drove me to thompson medical hospital and blah blah blah it was so freaking expanseeve!!! wahlao and the doctor got a shock when he saw me then he started laughing, what a freak. said it was a severe case of allergy but i'll be okay yayeeee. and then evie called and hung up in 5 mins cos she said she was gg to vomit, everyone is so sick haha and ry's back :) aiya life is a bore, ry is sleeping. okie byebye

"roboboxx"

Thursday, June 01, 2006 @ 11:41 PM

queens |

i think that,
i am going to,
DIE.

i hate stupid stray dogs who stuff their noses into my eyeBALLLLLLL and cause me to almost go blind and have rabies. so currently, i am dying. shufen thinks i shld get an injection from spca -_-

anw xmen was a good show.
quote of the day:
"i can feel my crotch vibrating"

HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHA okay not funny bye.

"roboboxx"

so this is how it goes
well i would have never known |

(edit, again)
OMG I JUST REALISED THAT THE OMEN MOVIE THAT THEY ARE SHOWING ON 6TH JUNE 2006, WAS THE ONE I WATCHED IN EVIE'S HOUSE YESTERDAY!!!!! OH MY GOODNESS YOU CAN JUST GO VIDEO EZY AND GET IT FOR 5 DOLLARS MAN -_-
(/edit)

(edit)
im back from the land of the hearts! (heartland) okay whatever, i know haha. so i went grocery shopping w a lovely person (someone i never expected myself to go) anw we were both freezing like shit, carrying waffles and jap noodles and radishes :) hahah i bought edward's deodrant hehehe and it smells really really good! its been long since i last went grocery shopping, really long, really really long, really really really long, really really really really long.. okay enough lol. and im home and im gg dancing/workout w her! hahah wah fun :D perhaps spongebob game after that yaye. x men tonight i hope :) im in the living room (THE INTERNET IN MY COMPUTER SPOIL GRR) so im using ultra slow lappie and the fruit bowl is in front of me, the smell of mango is killing me. i wish i was in badminton so i'll be having camp now haw haw.

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus
In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?
(Let's pick up, pick up)

Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?
(/edit)

hello world, i am bored because shufen was too lazy to go to the gym last minute haha. but i was asleep anw so yeah. that woman called me at 1030am and screamed for me to wake up please. i almost died lol. and now talking to rachel lim online is my only source of entertainment (I AM SOOOOO BORED) i got outta bed at 1500pm.

me and rachel are now gossiping and she misses me aw. wahlao we gossip damn alot man tsk, i am so bored really really really am. and she's going to sleep soon wahlao. omg i didn't know what rachel lim was so vulgar.
HAHAHA wah best. shes going to sleep now and im dying of boredom and i wasted two hours of my sleep time ytd arguing. wahlao eh hahaha. okay bye bye i shall go bathe and find smthg to do with someone ♥

If you run away now,
Will you come back around?
And if you ran away,
I'd still wave goodbye
Watching you shine bright.

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i know you didn't mean it |

(edit)
eh eh eh shit shit shit i forgot to add that i bought smiley face stickers today and they are really really cute! im gonna stick them on everyone i see (and love) and aw shufen's gonna get full blast from me tmrw. the stickers are damn cute, trust me! okay photos of me and evie's night:

the rest stupidly cannot upload so i give up. i will upload video tmrw or smth HAHA. shitz i miss evie alr :(
(/edit)

i just went to carolyn dali's blog and HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA her tagboard is #$@%$^$#&%$. rachel lim is the best man, she cracks me up lol. anw speaking of boobsy! you asked me out today but we both never did made it in the end so whens the next time huh :) ive missed you leh wahlao hahaha. pray that eme gets up tmrw or shufen would have to travel to seletar alone lol (that would be funny)

anw my room is very noisy and i like edward's deodrant :) its very nice and it reminds me of a certain friend haha. ry's at camp and i feel so bored w/o her yknw anw its the 1st of june ytd so, HAPPY POMT DAY! :D i hope to spend 1st july/ midnight of 060606 with you hokay cos i dont wanna be scared to death. or i'll have to spend it with candice chai and she'll prolly force us to sleep at 10pm to avoid getting scared HAHA. and eh i stink man ew.

and I dare you to forget
the marks you left across my neck
from those nights when we were both found at our best
now I could make this obvious and you,
you could deny me
all in one breath
you could shrug me off your shoulders

interesting song aint it haha. taking back sunday :)

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, May 31, 2006 @ 10:16 PM

oh my god, pretty boy |

(edit)
HAPPY 17TH JOSHUA, FBF! :D im so sorry im 22mins late but hey, at least i bothered to call you right? hahaha okay.

hello world, again. life. is. boring. and i hope you'll be okay chng! im trying my best to help you.
(/edit)

hello world you've never been a better place im so bored man haha. came home not too long ago from dinner/walking around/sitting on the swing with candice chai :) hanging out with her was lovely as usual mm. the afternoon was spent watching horrors (re: the omen, cry_wolf) they were really interesting movie and cry_wolf is really good. i liked the twist :) last night was a blast, seriously. we went to bed like, super exhasuted and yea slept half the day away. and omg i dreamt of so many people and omg i felt FEAR when i saw a certain someone HAHAHAHA. and evie dreamt that - frenched her to shut her up and then they both cried lol. it was freaking funny.

so we went to tiong bahru plaza for dinner and we ordered so much food we almost died of fullness. edward ordered TWO FREAKING BOWLS of rice please haha, we had to drink coke to make ourself hungrier. so right now im on the coach with goal playing on the tv rar. my laptop is full of virus lol, it keeps cleaning itself ew. i feel so bored & CHNG please let me meet up with you one more time before you fly to uk! please please pleaseeeeeeee, i hope you read this =/ i feel thirsty and very unappreciative. im supposed to gym/swim/slide tmrw with shufen but i think i'll be too lazy to in the end ahaha. i think i shall go find smth to drink bye ♥

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curry curry japanese curry |

(edit)

its 0148am and all of us just bathed. the house is still in a mess and only edward bothers to clear haha. shitz im sucha horrible guest. cleaning up was terrible cos there was body lotion/egg/water/beer/oil on the floor eww. we're too lazy to continue and im freaking sleepy. i didn't sleep ytd AT ALL, only took a nap from 12pm-2pm damn tiring manz cos i sent breakfast to yap ry :) hahah i shall go watch a movie and sleep and dory is the best man. ptl, part time losers. ptl, pungsai touch longkang HAHAHA. suckerz ;) byebye

(/edit)

hello so im over at evie's now with an extremely sensitive mouse that moves oh so easily haha. she's extorting some impt information from her brother using tortue methods: slapping. omg my hand pain from slapping alr lol. and when everyone was squishing and squashing at vaunt@mos, me and evie were at home, COOKING JAPANSESE CURRY AND RICE HAHAHA. well it tasted awesome (okay i just came back cos evie was just screaming and yelling cos edward was going mad hahaha we got new instruments of torture!!! HAHAHAHAHAH OMG OMG OMG SPASM I JUST CAME BACK DIRTY WET AND SLIMY. WE HAD WAR, TRYING TO SNATCH EDWARD'S PHONE. THERE'S LIKE BODY LOTION ON HIS BODY + BEER + WATER + EGG!! HAHAHA EW MY LEGS ARE FULL OF THOSE. EVIE SLIPPED ON THE EGG/LOTION/WATER/BEER WHICH IS ALL OVER THE FLOOR AND FELL DOWN HAHA ME AND EDWARD LAUGHING SPASM OMG OMG ITS DAMN FUNNY AND THE HOUSE IS LIKE PIG STY RIGHT NOW YEEHAAAAA. snatching one phone is so difficult, we were practically sliding arnd the house. haha i will blog later on, must clear and see whats in edward's phone first :) omg damn fun i love sleepovers w/o parents -smirks

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, May 30, 2006 @ 8:37 AM

pop princess, hold my hand |

WAH LAU EH OH MY GOD AH HEE HEE.
ALL THE REASONS WORTH LIVIN' FOR:

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have you ever |

(edit)
WAHLAO I JUST READ THE PROGRAM GUIDE AND I FOUND OUT THAT CARTOONS ONLY START AT 0900HRS?! WHAT AM I GONNA DO FROM NOW TILL THEN?! crazy tv, i shall wait for my maid to wake up then probably just watch some vcds and eat scrambled eggs and wash my face haha. bye world i miss you.
(/edit)

good morning world im having a stomach ache gee. i wanna try not sleeping tonight haha its alr 0524am anw, and ive got nothing better to do (except maths tuition omg) maybe i'll go see ry jog at 0800am lol. i read old blog posts just now, actually i prefer the past though nthg's really changed but yeah, i prefer the past :) but like what's been said, the past is the past and ooh im don't really feel extremely hungry. im waiting for the sun to rise leh haha. im going to watch cartoons later on tv till ry goes jogging so i should go find out whats on tv like now cos i dont wanna watch zao an, ni hao. i swear its the worst show ever haha im damn hungry! byebye :)

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faith as small as a mustard seed |

hello i think anyone who breaks my trust, that's it man. im gonna hate/destest/not talk to you forever. i think i made that pretty clear to a certain someone just now cos i sounded damn angry haha. i swear, i get very serious when it comes to my trust cos i rarely trust people wholeheartedly and im trusting you with this.

ANW, angst aside. i had a great time in town today with my loveliest queef, shopping :) got very nice shorts, 2 tops, pretty undies :D and huge flowerly earrings HAHAHA they look really gay i tell you. i like going out with rachel cos she's one i really can rant abt alot of shit other than evie and candice chai (wah her ego growing siah) but i know that there are others that will still be there for me and i thank you :) dad fetched us home thankfully and eve i miss you!!! i think shufen is the funniest and miss liang doesn't want to unblock me grr.

shoe fern "I'm neither Straight, Bisexual, nor Gay, I'm just SHAMELESS !" says:
maybe emotional outburst
rar rar, suckerz says:
haha yah maybe omg.
rar rar, suckerz says:
so scary
rar rar, suckerz says:
im scared
rar rar, suckerz says:
protect me shufen
shoe fern "I'm neither Straight, Bisexual, nor Gay, I'm just SHAMELESS !" says:
she's your sister
shoe fern "I'm neither Straight, Bisexual, nor Gay, I'm just SHAMELESS !" says:
so it should be fine
shoe fern "I'm neither Straight, Bisexual, nor Gay, I'm just SHAMELESS !" says:
even if she kills you, she will forgive herself
rar rar, suckerz says:
HAHA but i dont wanna die shufen
rar rar, suckerz says:
its not gonna be fine
rar rar, suckerz says:
she banged my door and cupboard yknw!!!
shoe fern "I'm neither Straight, Bisexual, nor Gay, I'm just SHAMELESS !" says:
why
shoe fern "I'm neither Straight, Bisexual, nor Gay, I'm just SHAMELESS !" says:
for what
rar rar, suckerz says:
cos she was really angry with me haha.
shoe fern "I'm neither Straight, Bisexual, nor Gay, I'm just SHAMELESS !" says:
i will pray for you when i do my quiet time

she really makes me laugh with the silly things she says :) haha valerie is stressed! CHILLLLLLLLLLLLLLL -fans. i don't know what to blog anymore lol. oh i was talking to my dad abt things on the way home from rachel's place, abt lesbianism gays maturity blah. my dad's quite interesting actually hahaha. i love happy people, everyone loves happy people.

I wish that I was her and I wish that she was me
You gotta let her go, and I know that you agree
'Cause how could this ever start?
If you're afraid to break her heart?
You say you love me so
You have to let her know

the above, is a very cute song. ive got smth to say but ah heck it cos i know it'll just get someone angry with me. thats what i hate, people get angry from you being honest.

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Monday, May 29, 2006 @ 4:34 PM

when you die, when you live like we do |

hello today is extremely boring, i woke up at 2pm and watching you got served. their dancing is awesome i tell you and then uh i did my a maths homework and that's all hahaha. life is so boring we should all just die die die rachel chng can you stop being away cos i wanna talk to you and ask you if you're free to go town with me hahaha. omg im talking to luke online and its been almost half a year since i last spoke to him lah okay lol. anw i shall do bloody boring quizzes since im so bloody bored rar. my sister's laughter is effing irritating cos shes beside me and we're using laptops on the dining table, maybe i shld just go use the computer in my room to escape her bloodass laughter grr.

A - Available: nope
A - Age: 15
A - Annoyance: im too bored to be true

B - Best Friend: everyone is my best friend except junior HAHA im kidding
B - Band: err all american rejects
B - Birthday: june 16, 91 (its coming)

C - Crush: i have a crush on you
C - Country: singapore
C - Cat: alle :)

D - Dead Pet's Name: i forgot, so many keeps dying in my house
D - Dad's Name: vincent
D - Dogs: noonoo and chicken backside

E - Easiest person to talk to: everyone is easy to talk to yaye.
E - Eggs: i love green eggz and ham
E - Email: vindicatedd_@

F - Favorite color: purple & hot pink and yellow mello cello
F - Food: i love 'em all ;)
F - Foreign Language: HAHAHA eniliur

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: gummy bears
G - God: loves me and you :)
G - Good Times: with mah homies ah heh heh

H - Hair Color: white
H - Height: 165
H - Happy: yup but velly bored

I - Ice Cream: mint
I - Instrument: piano
I - Idol: myself leh, how?

J - Jewelry: none
J - Job: I NEED ONE
J - Jokes: hur

K - Kids: i love that little boy in the train ytd
K - Karate: huh
K - Kung Fu: hur

L - Love or lust: both
L - Longest Car ride: i dunno, to m'sia
L - Lipstick or Chapstick: none

M - Milk Flavor: strawberry and banana
M - Mother's Name: gan lay cheng HAHAHA
M - Movie Last Watched: err i forgot, im ancient i swear

N - Number of Siblings: 1
N - Name of Siblings: shitface
N - Name: emolino

O - One Wish: i dont know, WORLD PEACE -smirks
O - One Phobia: clowns and worms
O - Otter Pop: uh?

P - Parents, are they married or divorced: married
P - Part of your appearance you like best: my flat chest haha im kidding
P - Part of your Personality you like best: optimistic

Q - Quick or Slow?: quick
Q - Queer or Straight?: huh?
Q - Queen or King?: princess O:)

R - Reason to smile: alot hor like, the sun moon stars rainbows and sunshine
R - Reality TV Show: ANTM! oh what happened to it
R - Right or Left: righty

S - Song Last Heard: how i go -yellowcard
S - Series: haha
S - Sex: yes i want! okay im kidding, female lah

T - Time you woke up: 1342pm
T - Time Now: 1655pm
T - Time for bed: i dont know

U - Unknown: huh
U - Unicorns: i like
U - U are: fat!

V- Vegetable you love: cabbage
V - Vegetable you hate: alot leh
V - View on Politics: i dont know anything

W - Worst Habit: eat too much
W - What's up: nthg, no life
W - Wijadija: i dont know what the hell is that

X - X-Rays: no they're freaking expanseeve
X - X-Rated: hahaha

Y - You have something to say?: IM REALLY BLOODY BORED
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow: sunshine

Z - Zoo Animal: hippo giraffes
Z - Zodiac: gemini
Z - Zoolander: is that the biscuit

RACHEL CHNG STOP BEING SO LAZY HAHAHA.

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think it over |

fill in names

01. evie
02. ruiyi
03. eve
04. candice ho
05. shufen
06. valerie
07. candice chai
08. rachel lim
09. rachel chng
10. louisa
11. suee
12. mingwei
13. abigail lim
14. maryanne
15. lizard
16. vicky
17. bird
18. shannon
19. nick
20. kim

answer the questions

1. How has 1 affected your life?
she's always been there

2. Why is 20 one of the 20 names?
i miss her

3. Has 3 changed alot over the years you know him/her?
yes, of course. i love her er-lot :)

4. 3 words to describe 17.
aneroxic, tan, jogging.

5. What do you like about 7?
shes so retarded yknw, my mirror

6. How did you know 12?
church

7. Do you trust 2?
mmhm

8. Hows working with 19 like?
never did, haha

9. How close are you and 4?
we're close, shes my honey

10. What has brought you and 18 together?
evie, thank you for her

11. Describe life without 5.
haha i got no one to slide in seletar country club swimming pool with haha and no one with diss finnie fiang with :)

12. In what way do you not like 16?
i like her

13. Do you love 6?
she's very funny

14. Whats 15's favourite?
me :) + her iPod and handphone, and shoes, and hair (shes reading to me on the phone now lol)

15. What do you like about 8?
she's so full of shit and she makes me happy

16. Give words that comes to mind when 14 is mentioned.
her awesome smile

17. Give lines that comes to mind when 9 is mentioned.
I MISS YOU!!!!!

18. Whats 13's favourite?
she likes strawBARRYS, okay im kidding babe

19. What was the first impression of 11?
she was really cute and she became my eyecandy

20. Is 10 straight?
OH NO SHE'S NOT HAHAHA.

okay its 0320hrs and im bored lah bye.

"roboboxx"

for one more chance, for one last dance |

YOU KNOW ITS BEEN ALMOST 2 AND A HALF YEARS AND YOU STILL ARE AS BEAUTIFUL AS EVER, TO ME. I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY DO YOU KNOW THAT.

"roboboxx"

say goodbye |

hello im happy so shut up and don't ruin my mood grr. today i went out with ry and omg, okay i'll let the pictures do the talking. we're such a walking joke book i tell you hehehe and i absolutely adore picture 71 :) its so cute hahaha. i had tuition anw and roy says i need one to one tuition (yes im stewpid) and er i don't like a maths at all. i had alot of fun in town, happy early pomt day yap ry, i had a crazy time speaking 4 languages (british english, japanese, chinese and rubbish language) hahaha. home slack tuition home, watched red eye with the family and OMG TENSION PARTY HAHAHA my mom kept screaming i tell you tsk. and so here i am :) photos of today:

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2105914968&idx=0

food for thought :)
"its time to get your finger off the on button and press 'off'"

"roboboxx"

Sunday, May 28, 2006 @ 6:49 PM

WHAT'S WRONG WITH LESBIANISM!?!?!?!?!

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dont call me, dont write |

hello worldy world who is in trouble now because java had an earthquake, hongkong had pollution and thailand had flood oh my my. i hope that everything will be okay soon :) i think its good that singapore has established good r/s with other countries, in case next time we gg to pecah, we'll be saved hehehe. okay drastically bored and i just ate prata and am so full. so i went to bed at 0600am last night lol. i feel like shitting now omg.

i was reading my past emails just now and i chanced upon smthg that haha sparked a memory, ooh interesting. and i came across emails from ten million years ago when cherlene was in china, geraldine and i were stranded in s'pore and the other campers were away away and so many others lol. anw i think that teens nowadays are never satisfied, and that includes myself (DUH) cause cause cause right, no matter what you do for them, get for them, they are never satisfied. they'd just want more or smthg even better aiya we're all so materialistic and superficial. we should all just die die die moohaha. yknw im plain bored and:

WHO WANTS BIRD AND DORALYNN'S 2 MOS TICKETS?! :D haha cos that tweet tweet gg to malay country then cannot go for mos tsk tsk, then that fish i dunno why.

i shall go do smthg interesting like, shitting maybe?

food for thought,
"i wish i knew when to quit you."

"roboboxx"

Saturday, May 27, 2006 @ 11:36 PM

Angel from above |

Hello mello the first thing I knew when I came online was that Valerie lost her wallet and some sweet stranger guy protected her when she fell down hahaha. Pretty interesting huh. Anw i went to church today and it was rather weird. Ben chew's expression when he saw me and Evie was priceless i tell you. Alot of people were so shocked to see us lol. Aiya i didn't see my eyecandy, but he saw me! :D He asked Theodore if that was actually me and Evie cos he saw us from afar but omg, i saw his back HAHAHA. Its been long, really. Walked out with Mingwei and Theodore and had a nice time talking rubbish. Theodore's brother is plain adorable :) Really.

So me and Evie decided to head to town after 46473985743 years, its been so long since I saw that place okay. Sang alot, talked alot as usual. It was good catching up and she's gonna take the initiative to do smthg that she's never done before haha. Go babe! :) Had pastamania for dinner yum and yes, we talked alot over dinner. Even touched on the topic of her leaving :( Aww shit i think I'll just die w/o her seriously. Anw on the brighter side, i'll be sleeping over her place arnd twice this week and she's spending the next whole week at my place :):) omg I can't wait haha. Home at arnd 10 plus and here i am.

Omg i just did smthg I never expected myself to do =/ And i guess it was a fit of anger, and ah i feel so bad alr.

-

I've come to realised that after you're gone, no one else will be able to understand me the way you do rar. Okay getting emo byebye. (Please, don't leave)

I'm gonna miss what we had
And even though it's killing me
I gotta accept things the way that they are
And not the way that I wish they would be

"roboboxx"

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUXUAN! :D You dirty girl hahaha.
Anw I'm so bored. My little brother is playing Fifa 2006 on the xbox behind me lol. I can't freaking find the spongebob game yknw!!!!!! Ah i'm going to meet Evie soon and we're gg to church for like the first time in 3 months i think omg. I'm hungry. Ytd met Shufen at the bus stop and haha it was so funny. She was so paranoid abt taking the 62 bus. Then borrowed movies at Video Ezy and ran for the 80 bus like some mad woman. Slacked at Shufen's place on the couch eating chips for like 2 hours watching a bimbo movie haha. I felt like a pig, seriously. Headed to Vicko's house after that. Watched L word with her Su L and T. And then I walked home. And then I slept. And then I'm here. And then I'm bored. Hahaha okay bye.

"roboboxx"

Friday, May 26, 2006 @ 6:05 PM

Bite Back |

Am talking to evie now hahaha. She's walking home from Queensway (which is a 45min walk). Anw the parent-teacher meeting was horrible, all the teachers said the same old thing. ALL LEH LITERALLY ALL, I could see my dad boiling with anger. So I was distracting, short attention span, bright but lazy, never maximize my potential. Oh but my Chinese teacher said I was adorable. -Beams

I was dragged outta bed this morning by Candice cos I didn't want to wake up. So we played spongebob game all the way haha. Evie's so whiny and her parents are going overseas haha. Par-tay at her place! YAYYYYY! Anw I need to go meet Shufen now so bye bye. I will blog on my ugly template later :)

"roboboxx"

Hello world Candice is self massaging on my bed. HAHAHA. Okay actually she's using some massage machine and she keeps giggling omg she's so gay. We watched Like Mike 2 just now and it was okay lah, (Candice looks so damn silly and she keeps whining), so Ho Ming Zhen is sleeping over AGAIN. I wanna play spongebob game!
School was damn shitz today cos I was really tired and my ulcer was killing me but i lived. Did graphs like crazy please. And err, yeah. Music marathon was kinda stupid, a quarrel occured. Oh and I took the initiative for the first time and made a new friend! HAHA I shook her hand and introduced myself man, so cool. And and and I got her number! Okay sounds so desperate but its all in the name of fun kay. (CANDICE IS MOANING ON MY BED "AWW MAN THIS IS GOOD." You should watch her hahaha.)

Rained like shit, sat in class and talk talk talk. Then off to heartland with Candice Chai and Shufen. Met Rachel and Lou there. Talked alot alot alot. And Shufen said smthg like, "My life is just like a storybook, except I hate the ending." Yeah, everyone hates the ending usually. But yeah, its inevitable. Okay met Mary and Candice Ho after that. Dinner with them, and chit chat hahaha. Then home home home yaye. I can't wait for shopping sprees now that school's out :) Hooraye. I shall entertain Candice now byebye.

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, May 24, 2006 @ 11:59 PM

Superman |

To sum my day, I have school a miss today. Ulcer kills, I slept talked to Miss Liang on the phone grr. Morning called, headed to school to pass Abby the cd. Cabbed back to the station. Head breakfast with Matt at TM, headed to her school and i studied. Met Geraldine :) and her crazy funny friends. Studied at Changi Airport with Matt and her friends. Headed to town after that and met RLim. Sat at Gelare, talk talk talk then shopped around. Hahaha. She left, then went to meet Kiddo at Bugis. Walked, talked, she shopped and pierced her ear and she kept trembling it was so funny. Ran through the fountain, got myself really wet but refresh and feeling better :) haha. Home after that. Boredom and ulcer kills. I'm really upset and angry now.

Got this off Vicky/Tanny/Ry.

1. Taken a picture naked? No
2. Painted your room? No
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? Yes
4. Drove a car? No
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
6. Had a crush? Yes
7. Been dumped? No
8. Stole money from friend? No
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yes
10. Been in a fist fight? No
11. Snuck out of your house? Yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
13. Been arrested? No
14. Made out with a stranger? No
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbour? No
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
20. Seen someone die? No
21. Been on a plane? Yes
22. Kissed a picture? Yes
23. Slept in until 3PM? Yes
24. Love or miss someone right now? No
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? No
26. Made a snow angel? No
27. Played dress up? Yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? Yes
29. Been lonely? Yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? Yes
31. Been to a club? Yes
32. Felt an earthquake? Yes
33. Touched a snake? Yes
34. Ran a red light? Yes
35. Been suspended from school? No
36. Had detention? Yes
37. Been in a car accident? No
38. Hated the way you look? Yes
39. Witnessed a crime? No
40. Pole danced? No
41. Been lost? Yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? Yes
43. Felt like dying? Yes
4. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes
45. Sang karaoke? Yes
46. Sucked your thumb? Yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? Yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? Yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? No
50. Kissed in the rain? No
51. Sing in the shower? Yes
52. Made love in a park? No
53. Had a dream that you married someone? Yes
54. Glued your hand to something? Yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? Yes
57. Been a cheerleader? Yes
58. Sat on a roof top? Yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? Yes
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Yes
61. Played chicken? No
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yes
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? No
64. Broken a bone? No
65. Been easily amused? Yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? Yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? No
68. Cheated on a test? Yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? Yes
70. Slept naked? No
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? No
72. Performed on stage? Yes
73. Blacked out from drinking? No
74. Played a prank on someone? Yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? Yes
76. Made love to anything not human? No
77. Failed a class? Yes
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? No
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? No
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? No
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? No
82. Thrown strange objects? No
83. Felt like killing someone? Yes
84. Thought about running away? Yes
85. Ran away? No
86. Did drugs? No
87. Had detention and not attend it? No
88. Dumped anyone? No
89. Made a parent cry? Yes
90. Cried over someone? Yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? No
92. Dated someone more than once? Yes
93. Have/had a dog? Yes
94. Own an instrument? Yes
95. Been in a band? No
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No
97. Broken a cd? No
98. Shot a gun? No
99. Dated a married person of the opposite sex? No
100. Written a love letter? Yes

:) bye, a freak just called and its 0006am ah.

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, May 23, 2006 @ 8:26 PM

Spongebob barnacle scrapers |

(Edit)
Its so painful, I wanna cry. Its so painful, I wanna die. Its damn damn damn painful! "I'm frick-in' pissed!" HAHAHA. Bloody ulcer. Just now a mad woman called me and screamed and cried like hell hahaha. I hope she's better now :)
(/Edit)

I feel damn lazy to go get graph paper, really truly am. I don't feel like moving and I'm really very sleepy. School was okay today, I actually enjoy school very much :) Well, a pretty big thing happened to Rachel which left me in peals of laughter. Goodness it was so damn funny and she was in so much pain but i was by her side all the time! And she almost broke my bones my squeezing my shoulders so bloody hard. Music marathon practice didn't even take place hahaha.

After school, cabbed back with Lou Abby and Candice Chai. Candice came over to play xbox! And Candice Ho came over soon after. Omg damn frickin fun :):) We were screaming and yelling and laughing and I even made Candice Ho cry cos I hit her mouth with the xbox controller! HAHAHAHA. We were having so, so much fun. WE PASSED THE WHOLE LEVEL! OMG SHUFEN YOU'VE GOTTA COME AGAIN AND PLAY OKAY ITS SO MUCH FUN. We were screaming and hugging when we passed the spongebob soccer level i tell you. Had so much fun :) Cleared my file of w/s and im yet to file them. I've got frickin maths homework which needs graph paper and im very lazy! I have a few loose pieces here and there if i bother to find.. ;) IF. Hahaha im listening to Teen Titans now lah omg.

Well I'm bored now and my stomach hurts and my ulcer just kills me I tell you :( When there's trouble you know who to call, Teen Titans! Yes wth haha. Anw the world rocks with spongebob xbox game, zoo outings, and dinners @ lovely windy places. X men with Shufen on Friday, PS with Rachel tmrw and what's up for me on Thursday? Anw I miss Eve.

No, no, no.

"roboboxx"

Monday, May 22, 2006 @ 8:50 PM

Rachel Chng:
My dearest queef woman, I just read your blog and I wanna tell you that I'm here whenever you need me. This ain't the first time I'm telling you this and I'm sure you know it already. You're one of the most impt person in my life and no matter what the circumstances, I'll be there i promise. You come before many people in my life yknw that :) So please, if there's anything the matter, give me a call or a text. I'll be seeing you tmrw night at the lovely windy place won't I? I've missed you very much indeed ♥

"roboboxx"

You shone brighter |

Hello change of blogskin to smthg really plain haha. I spent today with Shufen again doing what we do best, playing xbox! Omg it was damn fun i tell you. Scream scream scream and laugh until stomachache. We totally sucked at Spongebob's soccer and that Shufen best. Kick into the opponent's goal two times in a row! HAHA. Everything was like damn fast and everything and required team work, especially the factory generator breaking down shitz but it was damn fun. I love playing xbox with people like her cos she doesn't get cheesed off or pissed off when like, you cause them to lose or whatsoever. I know of people like that, who are easily angry and i don't really like playing with them haha :) School was alright today. Lessons were rather boring, I spent half the time talking and laughing and yawning and reading. I feel very sleep and i wanna watch Sincity! My dad bought the cd and omg Jessica Alba ♥ Hot hot hot um i shall get going bye bye. Oh and i miss Evie. My ulcer is killing me.

Believe me
You really don't have to worry
I only want to make you happy
And if you say
Hey, go away, I will.

"roboboxx"

Sunday, May 21, 2006 @ 7:55 PM

Ring Ring 啊停啊停小心他偷走你這顆心
Bing Bing 啊靜啊靜一切等時間給我證明
Yes i love you yes i love you 沒有任何能夠阻止我去愛你
愛就像躲貓咪 It’s Hide-and-Seek
我逃不出你的手掌心

Okay that's so gay I know. But its a really nice song okay! By 5566 (Stop thinking I'm gay!) Candice and Shufen thinks its horrible :( Anw they both came over for project and it didn't turn out very well hahaha. But we did some stuffs and Shufen finished her Chinese project. Candice left soon after and me and Shufen got bored of playing Xbox, so we watch Scary Movie 3. That woman is the most cowardy person I've ever known. Who gets scared of SM3?! She was literally screaming her brains out and covering her eyes and ears and she didn't allow me to leave the room to take ulcer cream -_- She's so crazy. Then my dad came home with the Lights, Camera, Pants game! O M G. So we played and played and played and that woman again, keep screaming and she claims she almost got heart attack while playing. The game's damn addictive, so much so that Shufen left my place one hour late. But I had fun :) Thanks for playing with me! Haha.

Lights camera pants. says:
Maybe he has head lice
TOO COOL FOR SCHOOL (: says:
Nah!
TOO COOL FOR SCHOOL (: says:
He's so religious!! (:

Valerie's so crazy. What does headlice have to do with religion? HAHAHA. Anw I'm bored now and I feel like bathing. I don't wanna go to school tmrw and everything rah.

I think I love you
So what am I so afraid of?
I'm afraid that I'm not sure of
A love there is no cure for
I think I love you
Isn't that what life is made of?
Though it worries me to say
I've never felt this way

Believe me
You really don't have to worry
I only want to make you happy
And if you say
Hey, go away, I will
But I think better still
I'd better stay around and love you
Do you think I have a case?
Let me ask you to your face
Do you think you love me?

I think this song is very cute. Candice Ho just messaged me saying that she saw this girl wearing pink shirt pink shorts and pink crocs and that she saw 7 people wearing crocs in a span of 10 secs. What the hell hahaha. Her pair of crocs is christmas colour leh very cute :) I don't know what to blog about already byebye. Oh I don't feel like going to school tmrw.

"roboboxx"

What i knew, but could not say

Hello it seems like a rainy sunday morning which also means, sad morning. Candice Chai just came online!? She's supposed to be at my place in half and hours time! She best, downloading songs, haven't bathe blah blah blah. I bet Shufen would be late too lah. Hahaha. So last night's concert was shit, I fell asleep once and I missed like 15mins of the award ceremony for some milliondollar shitheads, I call them shitheads cos I also want a million dollars but I don't have and in other words, I'm jealous. Okay then 5566 came on and my ears died with all the bloody screaming. I think someone should just rip all the girl's voiceboxes out. My parents decided to leave halfway, so we left :) Thankfully cos I didn't enjoy the concert/gala night. I think dinner was superb.

Popped by Candice Ho's place and waited for her, and her mom was wonderful :) She gave me banana muffins and cake, she baked them herself! I'll be having them for breakfast later yaye. Thank you! Then we walked to my place, set up the playstation and crap it was so gay. We kept screaming and laughing and losing, especially me omg. Halfway, we gave up and decided that talking was more fun. So we talked and talked and talked and then went back to PS2. We were alr half dead by then, so cleared everything and took photos till we fell asleep. She left this morning and I woke up to find a pink note stuck to my phone :) She's so cute. Hahaha and now I'm bored. And waiting patiently.. Anw I uploaded a video of Candice. She has bullet laughter, damn fast and sharp and LOUD I tell you.

Best best best.

You're my sunshine after the rain :) A picture says a thousand words, there, 5 thousand words of my lovely honey. Bye word.

You should stop trying so damn hard.

"roboboxx"

I think you're pathetic. :D
Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

"roboboxx"

Saturday, May 20, 2006 @ 3:03 PM

The hero dies in this one

(Edit)
Im hearing things right now and ewww. Its so gross how you don't like her and everything and gossip abt her and here you are, telling her your "I love yous" Gross gross gross. Cliques cliques cliques & hypocrites =/ And what the hell, you twist your words and make us seem like the bad guys. Bitchhhhhh
(/Edit)

Somehow, I regret watching Saw. Its so "frickin" gruesome, esp while sawing off his ankle. Ew ew ewwwww :(

Anw Ry sent banana and chocolate pie over aww, it tastes pretty good but Saw almost made me puke it all out manz. Anw caught Da Vinci Code last night with Candice Shufen Rachel Lim Valerie and Candice's parents. Pretty good show, but I only managed to watch 1/4 of it cos I was trying to keep Rachel quiet and she kept messaging and trying to tell Shufen to relax cos the show's not scary. HAHAHA they're so noisy. Okay maybe I was noisy too. Then off to Vicky's place after the movie. Was like some slack ass, damn tired. Walked home after that, reached home around 0120am omgz. Tiring day, yesterday. And I'm watching a 5566 concert today O.o
Candice Ho is sleeping over tonight yaye :) Oh ytd ah, that Shufen is the best.

Me: Where are you now! (I was alr at the bus stop)
Her: I'm walking out now!
Me: Of where? The toilet?
Her: My room haha.
Me: WHAT -_-

I feel like vomitting, still. Rachel Lim's collecting information hehehe I can't wait to here it manz. Okay byebye and L was me to talk about her so.. L is stupid. -Grins.

I shall go do smth fun now bye.

Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawling
Oh, I reach for you

Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm calling
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm falling
I'm falling

Thanks Huifang, for the song. Its really nice!
!@#$#^%&^$*(&^(%^&^$%# The sawing scene is still on my mind :(

"roboboxx"

Friday, May 19, 2006 @ 3:45 PM

Would you tell me, TELL ME HOW

School was very sorrowful today :( Alot of people broke down and my heart hurt for them. Esp one who's father wanted to break her bones? Goodness I think I'd just run away from home but no, she's not going to. Rahhhh anw, cheer up everyone who broke down, regardless of whatever the situation was (results, friendships, family, relationships) and to those who cried for the attention, go on doing it. No one's gonna care. Okay I think I'm really mean but ahh that's Eme for you.

Skipped 2 periods of Chinese to stay in the counselling room with Miss Liang and a bunch of funny people hahaha. Overall, I didn't pay attention in any lessons at all today. It was spent talking talking talking cos there were alot, alot of things happening. Another good friend of mine broke down terrible =/ I can't stand to see them upset.. Okay singing at the corridor with my dear Ry after school and we amused so many people :) Jolyn and Rachel laughed so much hehe. Cabbed home with Ry.

I was sobbing my eyes out last night reading my book, My Best Friend's Girl. Oh god, its damn heartbreaking :'( I couldn't even read the book properly cos the tears were blurring my vision. I'm sucha moron. "Far too many people upoened their hearts and lives at the drop of a hat. Why give someone that power over you Why endow them with the ability to hurt you that much? Let someone in and you were asking for an emotional kicking someday." Mmmm so much logic. "You don't have to be scared. I'll always look after you. I think you're amazing. You're everything to me, babe." Hahaha would I ever be able to say this to anyone?

I found your diary today and flipping through it, a picture of You and Me fell out. Yknw, that actually made my day. So I picked up a pencil from your table, and left you a note :) I miss you.

-

You act like you don't care but deep inside, its tearing you up. Admit it, stop hiding, stop lying, stop decieving.

"roboboxx"

Thursday, May 18, 2006 @ 12:04 PM

Safe in a crazy world

Good morning world, I hate reading depressive stuff =/ But its so inevitable to not read them right? Hahaha. Okay anw, gave school a miss today. Mom wanted me too as well. Because, Cecilia is going off today oh no oh no no no no. I hope Li-li would do alright on her on cos if she doesn't, I'd just die. Well I checked my PTS last night and my heart almost stopped. For Mid Years on the average, I've got 50.06454365?! Omg, if I have any calculation error anywhere I think I'll fail. Goodness, I'm damn scared I tell you. Lou was asking me to calculate over and over and over again. Hahaha.

Was on the phone with kid till midnight. She owes me a dollar now :) Hahaha. Anw please please take care of yourself. Everyone's having school right now and Joelle and Mr Lim are online but probably both in school. My stomach hurts, I didn't have dinner last night and breakfast this morning and yet to have lunch. Okay Cecilia's flight is 1530hrs, we've gtg to the agency to collect tickets later. Rahhhh I'm kinda upset. I shall go off now I guess. Stay happy world :) Oohweeohwaa oh I was reading this artical ytd in Reader's Digest. It makes sense, so I wanna type it here. Does love really last forever?: Absolutely, after you've chucked out the idea of happily ever after. Scientists have come to find out that romantic feelings are caused by chemical changes in the brain which would last for at least 12-18 months and after that, you're on your own. A steady relationship requires manintenance. Visit a visit to a nursing home if you want to see proof of lasting love. The author recently spoke to a man whose wife of 60 years was suffering from advanced Alzheimer's disease (loss of memory). He came to sit with her every day and hold her hand. "She's been my best friend seince high school," he told the author. "We made a promise to stick together." Now, that's a true love story.
So very sweet :)

Girl, you've like a devil in disguise >:(

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, May 17, 2006 @ 8:01 PM

(Edit)
You're so brainless, dazed, deficient, dense, dim, dodo, doltish, dopy, dotterel, dull, dumb, dummy*, foolish, futile, gullible, half-baked*, half-witted*, idiotic, ill-advised, imbecilic, inane, indiscreet, insensate, irrelevant, irresponsible, laughable, loser*, ludicrous, meaningless, mindless, moronic, naive, nonsensical, obtuse, pointless, puerile, rash, senseless, short-sighted, simple, simple-minded, slow, sluggish, stolid, stupefied, thick, thickheaded, trivial, unintelligent, unthinking, witless,
I feel like screaming at you. Okay maybe I'm in no place to say this. I feel like dissing everyone around me and @#%$%#^*%&^&%@. My bad mood's working up again. Goodness me, I'd better keep my mouth shut.
(/Edited)

Well I just sent a very.. I don't know message but I'm expectinging a phonecall after the other party has seen what the message says haha.

Anw today was tiring, the sun was blasting boom boom boom. Got back all my results, yes plus Science. I'm really happy I passed Physics as I never expected myself to, though it was a borderline pass. E Maths was a fail but better than expected too :) So it was pretty alright. Decided that I needed Chem tuition so me and Shufen are going tuition hunting soon I hope, I pray, I wish. Hahaha.

After school, hung arnd a little with Eve :) Missed her man. Cabbed off to J8 for lunch with Lou Rachel Shufen Clare Dali. Pastamania again (Shufen got tricked and kissed with pasta sauce on the cheek this time by me HAHA), then NTUC shopping and we were getting damn high with ways to annoy Finnie Fiang HAHAHA. Clare bought alcohol, tsk. Anw then settled down at Swensens for dessert which was great and Rachel ordered some shit oreo banana yogurt (?!) It tasted pretty weird hahaha. We drafted out our letter shit and Clare's gonna type it out. Omg I hope it gets in I tell you!

Cabbed home with them. Read my sweet valley until Kiddo called. Talk talk talk till she had to go off for training. My maid is going home tmrw and I don't even feel sad omg. I'm just scared of my new maid :( Now we're all checking and calculating our marks for PTS. I love my humanities.

Okay so anw that friend didn't call. Instead, she just replied "Wtf." Wow.
I don't know what to blog anymore but I need to call Bimdice and tell her smthg. Hmmm. Bye bye I will upload Shufen's video soon.

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, May 16, 2006 @ 11:45 PM

hard to let you go

just now i had a damn amusing conference with a tanny su vickooo and a pontianak HAHAHA. her voice was like @#%$^%$&^%*&%^$$#%#^% over the phone man, me and L freaked out and bursted out laughing.

anw bimdice (read: candice) told me abt the marks being out and omg i went t check. didn't do as badly as expected but well, ah it was still bad and plus term one, i would probably fail like shit. lit was alright, an overall of 65 :D which im very happy with. failed both e and a maths, but there's an improvement no doubt. chinese is the best best best, 58.5! it is satisfying, really hard work pays off. but the stupid term one's gonna pull everything down :( rah but whatever, no point crying over spilt milk. cheer up those who are upset! it'll be alright, term 3 and end year! STRIVEEEEEEEE.

tmrw's chem lesson is gonna be fun, velcro fun HAHAHA. me and shufen are the best man yeeha. anw i had a great day today, i completed my e maths, though its rather shitty but ah well, i made the effort t do it :) and mary came over for a short while and i had a little talk with her yaye. didn't managed t catch the forty winks that i intended to though but whatever. CATHERINE CAME OVER MAN OMG.

i don't know what t blog alr lah bye.

"roboboxx"

you make a woman go mad

hello i forgot to talk abt the change of class positions. me and rachel are STILL sitting tgt (everyone go o-m-g) yes my grades are gonna slideeeeee hahah! anw we're right infront of the teacher's table! (actually we shifted ourselves cos that woman's as blind as a bat) and we talk t the teachers leh very cool :) behind us is shufen and candice :D yay i think its one of the best sitting position. ive got two of the smartest in class behind me (and shufen has really hot legs oO) and one very optimistic person beside me and all three of them are very nice t talk to, so much so that abby keeps walking over t our place from the other side of the class HAHAHA.

so today, my dearest partner of greatness was upset :( CHEERUP! and i was blooooodddyyyyy annoyed this morning with jkdhatfjaehfdafda. okay whatever, i was screaming in class and lou & abby were asking me t cool down lol. anw lunch with abigail and minghwee after schl, talk talk talk again :) they're nice t talk too! haha now we're (the clique) trying to get friend A and friend B t talk and i hope it'll be alright! anw candice ho ming zhen, wednesday is coming and we're gonna have a blast yes? press on darling, you send the sweetest msges and you kissed me in schl today! she made me h a p p y :) i think music makes the world go round haha. let me see things t look forward to this week: da vinci code? friday night with vicko & the rest, music marathon auditions shld be fun, actually nthg much lol.
happy bestie day t ry and anna haha im so extra. and im sorry i didn't know how to spell auckland, now i know :) byeeeeeeeee time for e maths.

"roboboxx"

okay well i just wanted to blog as there were alot of things on my mind while bathing, i don't know why either. and i just wanna touch on the topic of best friends. so far, since secondary 1, i've seen best friend "friendships" formed due to pure sympathy, on impulse, everything. its not because of what they've gone thru tgt, tears laughter blah blah blah but its just cos of a snap of the fingers and there, they're bestie in the most shocking circumstances. its rather funny yknw, and usually besties like these, always end up drifting apart and being most superficial. well, im not pinpointing anyone here but im just saying what i think. i've seen bestie-ships thats lasted for years and i think that's what true friends/besties really are. i mean, afterall they've lasted thru all the thick and thin through the years and their bond is still as strong. wonderful ain't it? however, there are people who has many besties (wow), and i thought a bestie ought to be someone special, someone you can count on, looks like its become more of a label rather than a special person. don't you think? well, i've had a bestie 3/4 years ago and i must admit, we've definately drifted alot and im not proud t say that we're not bestie anymore but still friends. so i guess that's probably the reason why i want t refrain myself from having a bestie. some people now actually see it as more of a commitment than a bond between two people, some are even scared of the other? totally ridiculous, i think. but well, i guess that's how the people change and how superficial some can become. but ah well, blog's mine, mouth's mine. and it all vomes down to, blood is definately thicker than water. friends say that they would die for you, they love you, they would do this, do that for you, but when things really take a turn for the worst, you'd come t realise, that it would not be them who you catch you but your family. r/s with you family might be on the rocks, but in the end, you'd realise that its all thats impt. im not saying that friends aren't impt, but how long would they last? family definately plays a much, much bigger part. it might not be now that you realise so as many have been taking their parents for granted, no doubt but yeah. you'd come t notice that only kids, toddlers really love their parents and they express it thru kisses, hugs, drawings. i guess that's when the parents are most happy, unlike now. we give them so much bullshit and it really sucks t see your parents so upset over you okay im ranting, words are flowing this is not good. i'd better stop.

anw EVIE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND YOU'RE MY DEAREST FRIEND/COUSIN EVER AND PLEASE DON'T LEAVE FOR ACKLAND AS I'LL BE SO SO SO SO :(

i hope i feel better now hahahah and im so.. messed up up there man. i think you're so pathetic, its pathetic to see you begging for attention.

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Monday, May 15, 2006 @ 9:44 PM

bite back the hand that feeds you

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ANW ANW ANW, im shufen's bestest lesbian gf now :D she loves me and not my cat hahahahahaha and btw, she looks extremely gay on webcam manz.
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aww my pictures are all over shufen's and ry's blog :):) hahah. anw i had a great day today. my grades were much better than expected yaye. after schl candice shufen lou rachel and abby came over and played worms 2 and basically, we had fun :) they all left around 6plus and candice left around 8. played more worms 2, talk talk talk. headed t candice ho's place but a friend was really nice t brighten my alr bright day and sent tau huey over :D thank you! anw i took away some of candice's stress over her place, ate my dinner (the tau huey) and home, web cammed with ry and im typing this shit.

oooh they made me happy. abby went home alr haha. anw i wanna thank God for wonderful friends who's willing t send food t my place, thank God tt im such a good friend t send milo t my friend's place, thank God for friends! :D AND ME LOU RACHEL LIM AND ABIGAIL ARE IN PROM COMM!!!!!!!!! x)

Don't be so scared to take a second for reflection,
to take a leave of absence to see what you're made of.
So I'm selfish and you're sorry.
When I'm gone you'll be going nowhere fast.
So who's selfish and who's sorry?

Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?
Cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me,
Near death, last breath, and barely hanging on.
Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?

Someone somewhere said somethings that may have sparked some sympathy,
but don't believe, don't believe a word you heard about me.

rahaha nice song okay bye ♥

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from me and candice chai to those certain two people:

WE'RE GONNA BEAT YOU TWO! MOOHAHAAHAHAHA! :D

okay its just a joke, i know i cant make it but candice can!

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"I love you three quarters."

Pungsai@Longkang

the long awaited photo album. anw today was spent slacking/sleeping at home with an invisible person who's brain is high high up in the highlands but physically here -_- okay am talking t evie who has no schl tmrw not fair. will go t bed now bye!

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Sunday, May 14, 2006 @ 1:25 PM

read shufen's blog, and remember t be happy :) hahah and im not mad, cos im not sad. and i do not have too much happieness HOR, my brainz are still intact.

BE HAPPY PEEPS! :D Its such a joy as happiness is contagious.

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why why why, what has made me into this bitch i am right now? URGH :(

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i love you baby. you make life so wonderful yknw :)

this is her phone's wallpaper aww

everyday i think of the day when you're gonna fly fly fly t ockland and i sit and think abt how much im gonna miss you :( i think i will cry river mekong.

tell me that evie looks so freaking hawwwwttttt ;)

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this one champion party HAHAHAHHAHHAAH.

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i would never find another lover, more precious than you

hahah im so lazy to blog but i felt like so i'll summarize everything. pungsai@longkang was a blast, to those who didn't come for whatever reason..

IN YOUR FACE SUCKERS HAHAHAHA.

okay what the hell but really it was fun. thank you marisse, candice ho, vicky, maryanne, demelza, doralynn, wenjie, christabel, eve, julia, wynn, gywnna, tania and her two friends, abigail, rachel chng, kristle, zoe for coming. i doubt i left out any name but thank you you guys :D you guys were an awesome bunch.

so catwalk was great, eating competition was DAMN DAMN DAMN messy like shitz, singing was a failure and the prizes are like shit HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. anyway i hope everyone had fun :) most left around 7, only abigail wong wenjie ry and christabel stayed haha. they went mad in my room i tell you, tsk. shufen came over for dinner cos i was too tired t go out and meet her. took photos, then everyone left except her and ry. talk talk talk abt - and yeah, ry left for home arnd 10pm. had fun drinking milk and gg high with shufen, shes so stupid and silly manz :) makes me laugh like shit and so i walked her out arnd 1130pm cos she was scared of malay workers and we saw this freaking cute kitten! and btw, she sucks in worms 2 HAHAHA.

anw i had a greaaaaaaaaaattttttttt day, pictures will be posted up soon oh and plus damn crazy videos! (eg, vicky flying arnd to the song candy shop like a moron and candice stuffing her face with watermelon) omgz best. thanks everyone for showing support :) demelza looked damnnnn adorable haha.

okay shall go off soon, bye. happy 3rd month valerie & rlim! and i love maggie Q ♥

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Saturday, May 13, 2006 @ 6:08 PM

~~you know i'd very much hate it t know you lied.~~

you lied.

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"kill me so i won't die" -Ethan Banks/Tom Cruise HAHAHA

hello im back and its 0200am i need to sleep soon cos ry is waking me up at 0800am tmrw, thats in SIX hours omgz. okay anw it was a pretty long day and i didn't eat or drank anything till 1930hrs, literally omg. my lips were so dry and i was so hungry i felt like vomitting.

anw i rushed with the mum's day thing like crazy and my sister had to lie to my mom to stall for time HAHAHA. (she said she needed t shit) and then went t mustafa & i swear i almost died but i got pretty good stuff from there. just no clothes, aww.
reached the hotel in my bunny ears and angel's wings, everyone thought i was cuckoo. the food was very very very very good but i only had one helping of fondue wow. decided halfway thru dinner that i shouldn't let what people say t me make me so upset, so yeahhhhh. headed to club5 (some shit club beside the restaurant) and no one knew we were under 21 hahah. saw lots of old folks dancing rumba/chacha/ballroom shitz but we couldn't get out parents t dance so we danced a little ourselves :) made lotsa shit videos, was freaking full.

after that, caught the 2315pm of MI3 and omgzxz that show is one emotion player. made me so scared till i had t cover my eyes and next, it had me bawling my eyeballs out. its so saaaaaaddddddd, it shows one what love really is i tell you, and its super powerpacked and its gonna get you gripping your seats. that cry made me feel better and not t mention a call from a certain someone before the movie :):) ~~hehehe - sounded SOOOOOO cute :D omg eme.~~

anw i think my singing irritates my dad :( i was singing like hell in the car hahah.
okay shall sleep soon bye. photos & videos posted up soon soon soon!

what hurt the most wasn't the thought that i might be losing you but the fact that you told me how fucked up i was. seriously, no one ever told me i was fucked up and MEANT it and today you did. you ruined almost my whole night and i can honestly tell you,
i hate you.
you make me sooooo angry >:(

~~EYECANDY/INFACTUATION (?!) :D~~
i think i'd better stop infactuating, its so wrong hahah okay so bye for now eyecandy/infactuation (actually i dont even knw what you are) BYEBYEBYEBYEBYE say bye :)

I know it's kind of hard
To get over someone
And try to start a new
A new relationship
No need to rush cuz you
Have all the time in the world
Right now let's focus on
How we can keep you happy

You can call on me
No matter what the situation
I will be there
Put your trust in me
Whenever you need somebody
I will be there :)

I will.

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Friday, May 12, 2006 @ 2:27 PM

ghetto love and heartbreak

i blog then my whole post gone, power manz. okay so i shall summerize everything which is, IM LATE IM LATE IM LATE! mummy wants to see me, my sister and my maid downstairs in half an hour goodness me. and my sister's still on the bed picking out the photos for mummy's day, we know what we're getting her alr :) her fav cd, don't know what enya shitz muahaha.

i woke up pretty late today i guess and staggered into my mum's room with my "Future Millionare" shirt and she was like grinning from ear to ear and she said that "possible, dare to dream" i was like.. -_- its only a shirt HAHAHA. my cough is still as bad man and i think im turning into an ahlian thanks t louisa! have been listening t chinese songs manz lol. cao cao by lin jun jie is velly nice! and oooo im still crazy over pussycat dolls's nicole. goodness she's so hawt :)

rahahaha i feel happy :) though the weather's really like shit.

Take a chance to recognize that this could be yours
well, you lost it :) ooooo PCD ♥

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Uh, uh
Yo, yo, yo
They wanna know

Who's that girl?
(La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la)
Eve's that girl
(La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la)
Who's that girl?
(La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la)
Eve's that girl
(La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la)

rahahahah work hard eve, you're my girl :):) get well soon, i will definately hug you on monday yaye ♥

just hung up with ry, exremely last min plannings for pungsai BUT, it sounds good and fun and amusing hahah. i can't wait! and tmrw omgz, fun fun fun. buffet would taste sooooo good and the company's gonna be great. saturday is pungsai day! and in the night, most prob tao hui with shufen lol. and sunday, i've got so many plans but i don't knw which t choose from lol. most prob, celebrate me and val's day out or perhaps at the settler's place oohlala. both would be swelllllll. my nose is still runny and my voice is still horrible :( get well soon eme haha! saturday, saturday hurry come. i really wanna see candice eve mary vicko marisse and all the others :D

i get the shivers down my spine
feel my body turning blue
feeling's so frightening,
its driving me insane

i think the songs chose for pungsai are so retarded HAHA but so cool.

she's into supertitions, black cats and voodoo dolls
she makes you take your clothes off and go dancing in the rainnnnnn

gladly :) HAHAHA im just kidding.
perhaps, perhaps, perhaps. tell me quando, quando quando and baby baby baby, just maybe maybe maybe :)

it'll be unfair and selfish and not to mention, stupid of me. im one foot off the edge alr yeehah, i can't wait to drop in :)

LIKE A BULLET THROUGH YOUR BRAIN.

this is so cute! haha nights.

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Thursday, May 11, 2006 @ 9:16 PM

She gives me the giggles wiggles :)

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Tainted Love

(Edit)
Candice Ho Ming Zhen, is the best the best the best :) I just read an email she sent. I'm melting. (Looks at Lou, HAHAHA) MELTINGGGGGGG.

"After these 2 days, i realise how much i rely on you. You give me strength to carry on. Sounding really cliche here, everytime i wanna give up, you always spur me on. You give me reassuring hugs and kisses to keep me going on. Even though we are in different classes, i'm really happy to spend time with you. Watching movies, studying tgt etc. After my tests, we're gonna have a blast i promise you! :D More than watching movies! I love you honey baby squishy star (lol?!) Persevere!"

No one's sweeter i swear. Yes baby, our movies and parties! I'm gonna make you like my cat HEE HEE.

Man, they don't make sense
Some things you don't need
Until they leave you
And they're things that you miss
Baby, baby, baby
When all your love is gone
Who will save me
From all I'm up against out in this world

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Boredom gets the better of me.

A ?% perfect life.

[x] You know someone that cares aboutyou.
[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend/fiance/husband/wife. (I have many :D)
[x]You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[ ] You get good grades.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
[x] You live in a house.

Total: 8

[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[x] You have never been beaten up.
[x] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.
[x] You laugh more than twice a day.

Total: 10

[x] You have over 100 friends on friendster.
[x] You have pictures on friendster.
[x] You get allowance.
[ ] You collect something normal.
[ ] People don't make fun of you to be mean.
[x] You look foward to go to school/work.
[x] You don't wish you were someone else.
[x] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school/work.
[x] You shower daily.

Total: 9

[ ] You own a car.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[x] You're healthy.
[ ] You've never had a cavity.
[x] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren't self-consious at all.
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[x] You have friends.
[x] You have so many inside jokes with friends.
[x] You know your parents care and love you.

Total: 6

[ ] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about sooo many people.
[x] You are happy with your life.
[ ] You usually aren't sick.
[x] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[x]You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[x] You don't have any enemies
[x] You are happy you're living.

Total: 8

Add up the numbers and multiply it by two
You have a 82% perfect life. Haha. All the reasons to be happy I guess.

Anw, today was a great day. Though everyone noticed I was moodswinging (again) but the two periods of peace during Chinese made me high again! HAHA. After school was a big fat rush to do the project, take the maths quiz blah blah blah. Rained like hell & scary thunder boomed. Me and Abby changed shifts with Shufen and Lou to flag cabs and the stupid cab didnt want to pick us cos we had 5 people. So took a bloody bus in the end and all of us were complaining like shitz haha. Reached J8 and.. okay cheer up dearie :)

Had lunch at Pastamania. Talked and laughed alot and Lou the best I tell you. Talk until all the food fly outta her mouth. HAHAHA. And best, I tricked Shufen and I kissed her on the nose with ALOT of pasta sauce on my lips. LOL! She was screaming her brainz out. Walked around J8, saw some people. Talk talk talk and smashed ice cream on Rachel's mouth lol. Then I forgot already. Home with Abby wabby and talk talk talk :) Lovely talks. She let slip smth accidentally, HOR HOR. Ahaha. Anw Abby Louisa RLim & Shufen's great company! :)

I'm so sleepy and blah. I feel like watching a muuveeee :D ANW i don't know what to blog abt anymore. I need to post up Shufen's video lol! She's gg to scream.

♥ Upside, inside out she's livin la vida loca
She'll push and pull you down, livin la vida loca
Her lips are devil red and her skin's the color mocha
She will wear you out livin la vida loca Come On!
Livin la vida loca, Come on!
She's livin la vida loca.

Oooh eme, ooooo. HAHAHA.

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What if we were wrong about each other?

Hello, I wanna try typing with proper english again haha. I'm so indecisive. Anw, its already 0133am and I just tagged Joelle's board omg. Okay, so random. I just finished my last english article and i hope i do okay for it. I think I'm gonna fail my geog assignment cos it was done in a rush and for PW, i hope its okay too :) Hahaha. I think I should really head to bed soon if i wanna be able to wake up tomorrow man. I'm so annoyed. Candice is trying to send me some mail but i can't recieve it, argh. I'm feel sleeepy. I just realised smthg but its okay. HAHA. I don't know what to blog about anymore lah! I shall upload a few photos then.

I think Shufen's very, very adorableeeeee. Actually she looks like a mouse. If she was a butch ah, I'd definately GO GO GO for her. HAHAHA. She has the flawless skin, the delicious legs, the brainz (top the class for Eng leh!), the sense of humour, okay alot already lah. But skin too white lol. Omg its already 0145hrs and Candice Ho is gg crazy. I'm scared. Bye bye :)

Actually I'm glad that.. :D

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006 @ 11:50 PM

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omg its alr 0114hrs and i just finished my newspaper artical. and i wanna say go go go candice ho ming zhen zhen zhen, you are so amusing and you never fail to make me smile esp in my house just now you're so crazy yknw, press on i know you can do it. after tests ah, PARTAYEEEEEE :) yeah baby. okay i bet half the world is asleep right now and im still typing this shitzunehneh rahaha i forgot to call evie oh shit. i really want to meet up with her soon please! okay bye ♥

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When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more

Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now

Sway me, take me
Thrill me, hold me
Bend me, ease me
You have a way with me

ooh yes, sway with me baby ;)

anw i just wanna say that i had a great day today though the night didn't go very well and someone just had to say things to make me feel so much worse. but thank you candice chai, ho and su :) im so annoying, i know HAHAHA. i will post up pictures and videos soon. esp this funny one i took of shufen t'day haha. and we're going counselling tmrw hehe. so fun i tell you! i love spending time with shufen, she's wonderful company and she makes me laugh yayyyyy. oh and i saw... ahh nvm :D and she saw some pink gay too lol. we were super exhausted at the end of the day i tell you.
we bought really cute underwear tgt HEE HEE.

okay err i don't know what to say anymore! im going to continue my project and candice ho just told me she put tiger balm on her eye haha! i adore my oh so CUTE (hor, SU) friends x) g'night lovelies.

a repeat of sec1? HAHAHA wth man. keep your mouth shut eme :)

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Tuesday, May 09, 2006 @ 4:29 PM

omg, droooooooooolzzzzz. Oo

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okay i don't wanna study so i shall do this shitz, cos lou tagged me anw hahah.

01 eve
02 ruiyi
03 candice ho
04 valerie
05 shufen
06 candice chai
07 rachel lim
08 abby lim
09 louisa
10 mingwei
11 yuxuan
12 maryanne
13 rachel chng
14 vicky
15 geraldine chang
16 ann na
17 evie
18 lizard
19 su
20 abby loh

1. How did you meet 14?
[vicky] lol actually i don't remember.
2. What would you do if you've never met 1?
i wouldn't be able to do alot of things w/o her :)
3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
haha they don't know each other.
4. Did you ever like 19?
she was my eyecandy in sec ONE hor! haha
5. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
omg both are like bimbos lol.
6. Describe 3.
she means alot to me ♥
7. Do you think 8 is attractive?
yes very pretty girl.
8. Tell me something about 9.
she makes me laugh haha.
9.Do you know any of 12's family?
yup her sister and mum!
10. What's 8's favourite?
barry marry HAHA im kidding.
11. What would you do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
okay wtf HAHAHA.
12. What language does 15 speak?
english?
13. Who is 9 going out with?
lol mel png tng mng, okay im just kidding. with her bestie!
14. How old is 16 now?
she's my age.
15. When's the last time you talked to 13?
just yesterday :)
16. What's 2's favourite band/singer?
haha she loves my singing x)
17. Would you ever date 4?
lol no never, my good friend leh.
18. Would you ever date 7?
yeah, maybe :D but i'll probably go mad.
19. Is 15 single?
yup
20. What is 10's last name?
lim mingwei
21. Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
HAHAHA no, her bed has cobwebs.
22. What school does 3 go to?
plmgss
23. Where does 6 live?
somewhere near me
24. What's your favourite thing about 5?
she's adorableeeeee x)
25. Have you seen number 1 naked?
OMG NO. HAHAHA

okay err i tag no one cos not many has access to my blog haha bye.

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baby can't you see

today wasn't a very good day in school. i was feeling rather frustrated and upset over certain things. anw a friend of mine spoke her mind and said certain things that a normal person would definately not say out loud because of? Pride. but yes this friend said it out and, i really admire her :) seriously do, and i guess that's what makes her special & unique. (okay lah to me hahah) i guess i was pretty much annoyed over the same thing as her rar.

e maths test was a killer, die ah die. i felt terribly upset after it, like i don't know. i couldnt get any bloody answer please :( and my throat hurts horribly. i hate being sickkkkkkkk. and shitz, mother's day is coming and i still know not what to do! yesterday was like rush rush day man, i almost died with all the studying. studied in the day, then tuition at ry's place then off to candice ho's place to study. got home arnd 11plus only rar. im listening to chinese songs omgz can you believe it hahaha. anw i think i should go study now lah byebye.

what if i said.. ah okay nvm.

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Sunday, May 07, 2006 @ 11:08 PM

"since im your gf, i don't wanna do anything that makes you cry."

YAY! I'm a winner! -.- says:
EMELINE, YOU'RE A WINNER TOOOO!!

yeeeeehaaaaaaaaaa i lovez encouragers manz :D

i hate chuuuuu, you. you stole my eyecandy you stupid biatch rar. im sucha angsty woman right now mon, i shall go kill myself die eme die die die! anw thank You for being understanding HOR lol. i don't want to do a maths i don't waaaaannnnnnnnnttttt :( what if i start crying again??? goodness me who crys over a maths? its sucha waste of tears. then i read su's L's rchng's and ry's blog and i started crying again haha im sucha moron boron soron doron.

what should i do for mother's dayyyyyy im still clueless and stressed and frustrated rar! mur hur hur hur i just gave ry my password. oiiieee kim ry and whoever who's gonna get my pw next hor, i will kill you if you give it to anyone. and shitz, i need to change my BLOG pw cos my stupid friend has it rahahaha.

i feel like hitting someone, no i NEED to hit someone. the usual person ain't here -_- and when i need her goodness me & shes always here when i don't moohahaha ok im just kidding.

jkwhetjhejafjkdfmnamnrewjtieoahtahjkdnbfjkanbmdcvmdbvaklhtieohtguiarhugyahjjjjjjjjj
xbnkklwapwppweoriierutireyhahjhdfdlaoriyoriyoaipoajfisjkgdjsgnlakhtoihtuhauih
fjsbdbrnanbgykjarkalgmdfkgvm,vdf,xdngjkahrhtuihauihtuiehatuehht2yt89438itj3ioaj kjgkdngjkabgjabtehuatheuathstrepyorpyoptoyptiyorjtiahjutbajnjrnykl
rjushjnbjdnvkjdfahr;uithabtlaebj bjgfnjgnaeiirjtwjtropypotrjkhktshkfnkjahgfd :)

okay i think im better now. i shall try tackling a maths moohaha, loosen my buttons baby ;) BYEEEE LOVELY HOMEHS I LUB CHUL MANZ.

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what if

okay so i put a freaking password so i can rant rant rant all my fucking frustrations and i can use my language freely so as to not offend people rah. anw i feel so frustrated over a maths, over school, over friends, over God, over You. i think i finally reached my breaking point just now just that i held myself really well and.. i don't know. i feel awfully tired, teary, upset, frustrated, disappointed. i don't know what is wrong :( i wish i could just.. go. and. die. die die die! rarrrrrrrrrrrrr. i can't take this lah okay.

(edit)
to prevent you from thinking that im suffering from some heartbreak, break up blah whatever shit, i shall clarify. i cried over A maths LAH.

-

hello i just cried, out of pure frustrations over the stupidest thing, urg :(
just like valerie, i feel like a luzzer too. !@#$%^&*!@#$ :( the last time i ever felt like that was.. i don't know.

anw why ain't ry online, i feel like talking to her and her kaya bread :(

okay okay i shall blog when i feel better cos i feel like crying again ahhhh.

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the break up song

the photographs are up! click here hehe i need to pee :( but im super lazy. i shall upload the videos tmrw and i hope that mingwei would not be going out heh. its 0231am, so late. anw a sample of the pictures HAHAHA sry very bored.

Inside I built a wall so high around my heart,
I thought I'd never fall.
One touch, you brought it down
Bricks of my defenses scattered on the ground
And I swore to me that I wasn't going to love again
The last time was the last time I'd let someone in

You had me at hello

-

i think elections are the coolest, pap won aljunied yeeha. i want them to build more swimming pools and it'll be even better if the swimming pools have slides :):) HAHAHA okay childish. anw today was very interesting. i jump outta bed in the morning at 1345pm cos lou they all were coming at like what, 1400pm? goodness but they didn't till 1430pm but anw we had alot of fun dressing up talking laughing taking photos and candice kept stripping infront of us eww. shufen was like some dead fish and lou yak yak yak. so candice and shufen left and lou and L were here. the phone call with rachel was damn amusing and she's hell whiney.

walked the both of them out then went to meet ry for tao hui :D and omg omg omg spasm wasm HAHAHA. we both laugh until stomach pain head pain throat pain cannot breathe collapse on the floor everyone stared at us and best we had to sit down for 10mins to breathe again HAHAHAHA. smthg damn stupid happened man tsk (go see her blog for clues), then walking back, laughed until need to shit. headed to plmc, sat in for the youth service. been long since the both of us had service and it was so.. weird. but powerful, service was on letting go, hmm. ANW i saw abby tania and ashley after service. i saw someone who likes a friend, and HAHAHA i had alot of fun walking around him and that friend kept screaming hehehe. i had a great time then, walked home with ry, spasm wasm. sing laugh scream talk to motocyclist. she told me that, "if i had a boyfriend, i would dump him any day for you" aww i love you pomt :) ♥ 2 years, 4 months of friendship. "no boyfriend would make me laugh the way you do. and no boyfriend would even drop kaya bread in such a gay shop HAHAHA", i told her that. anw such a long and wordy post.

i came home and went online, everyone was talking about pap and i had a damn interesting and amusing convo with shufen telling me about her future wanted to make her someone-like-leehom husband eat the kid's shit from the toilet bowl if he doesn't buy levi's jeans. HAHAHA WTH MAN. everyone was talking abt elections and mingwei kept forcing me to go to the airport with them to study. he called me and i finally heard his voice after 3258473 years, talked for abt an hour and he's damn lame please, kept making me laugh. its been sooooooo long since we had a talk like that. im bored and i shall upload pictures and spasm videos i took t'day yeeha whoohoo. and and and THE OBS GIRLS ARE BACK! i screamed when i heard candice's voice over the phone. i missed her maryanne and eve alot i tell you :) im glad they're finally back. im glad shufen took the initiative to call mary, im glad and im glad im going to study with candice ho ming zhen and we're gonna watch movies after the exam, okay? :D i blog alot man i realised. verbal diarrhoea and omg i need to wake up early to meet jenny and charlene at 1230pm AHHHH. all the best eme, i need to pee and take out my contacts. then i shall upload photos & veeedios.

"roboboxx"

Saturday, May 06, 2006 @ 2:24 PM

okay my new maid's finally here. and the first sight of her reminds me of _______ ____. HAHAHAHA guess who man, guess who. so i watched freddy vs jason last night & oh my goodness its damn gory and gross and disgusting and gruesome and blegh. and i dreamnt of abby and mingli, so weird. haven't seen the both of them for damn long.

im wating for candice lou and shufen to come, and they're all taking their own sweet time. haha good good cos im very lazy to go fetch them :) i wanna watch aquamarine soooooonnnnnn. perhaps next week after papers yeeha :) anw i didn't go for the pap rally last night in the end cos my mom needed to fetch my new maid rar. and shufen didn't come over and i didn't go pizza hut with clare candice & rachel. what a boringggggg dayyyyyyy hahaha, okay im just kidding.

someone's been living off me and reading my diarieS oh my goodness. i don't know what to say but im so embarressed! i need to fetch the two idiots from the mama shop now, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

life's brighter than sunshine

"roboboxx"

Friday, May 05, 2006 @ 4:07 PM

She's into superstitions
Black cats and voodoo dolls
I feel a premonition
That girl's gonna make me fall
She's into new sensations
New kicks in the candlelight
She's got a new addiction
For every day and night

She'll make you take your
Clothes off and go dancing in the rain
She'll make you live her crazy life
But she'll take away your pain
Like a bullet to your brain

Upside inside out
She's livin' la vida loca
She'll push and pull you down
Livin' la vida loca
Her lips are devil red
And her skin's the color mocha
She will wear you out
Livin' la vida loca
Livin' la vida loca
She's livin' la vida loca

:):):):):):):):)

A FRIEND FOUND MY DIARY AND READ IT !@#$%%^&**($#@%#$^#^#! I FEEL SO SHAMEFUL.

"roboboxx"

Thursday, May 04, 2006 @ 12:14 PM

hello im effing annoyed cos pl's principal is a biatch, she really is. goodness me and i realised quite a number of people doesn't want to go for pungsai@longkang cos of Her, how disappointing. rar whatever i need a effing mc lah.

okay back to physics now, bye.

this thing so cool. haha

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, May 03, 2006 @ 10:35 PM

(edit)
its 0018hrs and i wanna thank a certain person for being my friend cos without her, i'd probably with dying right now. she provided me with smth most essential that once belonged to her, o level chemistry longman book! omg its my amphetamine, my estacy, my endorphine :) anw chem is driving me nuts. i just sent this msg to ry after she sent me "Life is cruel", and i replied, "life sure is, to plague us with chemistry and heartbreaks < / 3. maybe life is just a little game and we're pawns in the game.. OK CHEM IS DRIVING ME CRAZY" siao alr i tell you. but really, some people's thinking function that way and it kinda, scares me. okay you got me screaming i love you. :)

(/edit)

where'd you go, i miss you so

hello im stressed and..........

just a little would do :(

"roboboxx"

Monday, May 01, 2006 @ 11:15 PM

rain downnnn
all around the world we're singing
rain downnnn
can you hear the earth is singing
rain downnnn
my heart is dry but still i'm singing
rain downnnn
rain it down :)

i see the clouds, and yes im ready
to dance upon this barren land
oh in my hands, yeah

cos its living water we desire
to flood our hearts with holy fire

wow its been so long. anw my sister just came in and dumped a plate of hokkien mee on my table. im going to eat it and go to sleep! by golly, ive been eating quite alot! its shocking, im waking up at 0450am tmrw to revise my lovely exams. man, the things i do to not get grounded :) i hope it pays off! i think i blogged alot today, boredom really keeels. and happy sweet 18 alicia tan! :) sorry i couldn't be there today.

btw ive taken a liking to ryan cabrera songs again. its nice, blindsight by him is a lovely song. aye i really should be going if i wanna wake up at that absurb timing tmrw. okay byebye :) randomly, i think getting married is such a hassle and waste of money. people should just live tgt if they love each other, don't bother getting married. so if they quarrel, one can just leave and there'll be no such thing as divorce and all that shit. very troublesome right? no? okay nvm my thinking hehe :)

♥

"roboboxx"

my neck, my back
lick my pussy and my crack

OMG I LOVE GOH SHUFEN, SHE'S THE BEST I TELL YOU. lou and candice is gonna have a good laugh in english class tmrw, im sure of it. her article is double thumbs up! :) the picture's good and the article's blooooody funny! HAHAHAHAHAHA. valerie laughed like some moron when i sent her the article and called her i tell you, it was so so so so funny! i think - is gonna sue us for defermation but oh well. her face is rather blur :) anw i finished my english article, ss studying and literature notes. im pretty satisfied yeehah. im uploading songs for that stupid candice, she's so irritating. i don't like her >:( some weirdo john added me on msn omg and he's my sister's ex boyfriend's cousin O.o okay so weird HAHA. i think i shall go bathe and sleep now lah bye.

"roboboxx"

LOOK AT EVIE'S PICTURE! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHHHAHAHAHAHAH! RUIYI'S THE BEST I TELL YOU!
ANW I STRESS UNTIL GOT PIMPLE! :((((
IM TAKING A BREAK, BACK TO MACBETH SOON!

"roboboxx"

photo

hello its recess so im able to blog hahaha. anw i think spleak is so cool man! its this online robot shit and she can play hangman with you, she is damn damn cool! im boreddddd, i don't wanna study but i have to :( okay i know ive said that so many times man. ry came over today ay 0800hrs?!?!?! that crazy shit woman, well bathed and got down to study at 0900hrs till about now when im blogging. finished SS yay yay yay :) macbeth is next and i lub lub lub macbeth, just hate the memorizing. anw i don't know what to blog abt alr and rachel lim is so full of shit, she asked - to come to the party i tell you! like almost ALL of us had a past with Her, HAHAHAHAHA. but rachel lim might be recarnating that past lah omg and dumping J, she's such an asshole. anw my stomachpain again wahlao and i wanna watch a movie. maybe after studying hehe.

i blog about random things and i think its so boring. anw sorry shufen can't go to your ulu pandan club to study haha but next time maybe, i really wanna check it out :) time to find my macbeth! byebye :)

"roboboxx"

hold your head high heavy heart

the party's very exciting leh hehehe, everyone wants to bring their friends. im so excited! anw im so full, ordered canadian pizzaaaaa yummm. shared like 2 pizzas with my mom and sister. watch the sweetest thing with mummy, its such a sweet show that i teared! HAHAHA but cameron diaz is getting fatter i think haha, but her legs are damn hawwwwt. aiya im so sleeply lehzxzxz i think i should sleep soon but i feel so dirty! 0600hrs tmrw morning morning call from ry, die de die. confirm cannot wake up i tell you :( at least i finish studying SS i think, at least i absorbed :)

shufen just sent me her display picture, look at it. its kinda coolzxzxz though it looks pretty gross hahaha. anw im gg now lah bye :) & goodnight and oooooh i may be going to shufen's CLUB to study, so cooooool. maybe can swim after that hmm :) must ask ry tmrw first haha okay lah byebye.

"roboboxx"

Sunday, April 30, 2006 @ 9:54 PM

when we go home

okay so the list of people going so far for the party is:

me, ruiyi, candice chai, candice ho, maryanne, eve, abigail, rachel chng, rachel lim, vicky, ann na, annabella, melody, julia, valerie, shufen, louisa, victoria, wynn, christabel, charis, doralynn, demelza, cherlene.

okay i don't remember already, but i hope more will come! call me for tickets :):)

"roboboxx"

i want you and your beautiful soul :)

HAHAHA i walked into my sister's room and heard her hearing that song hmm i think im very smelly now and extremely lazy to go watch aquamarine in town, its at 1140pm leh! ah i should just study social studies now, byebye :)

"roboboxx"

oh its what you do it me

i studied today, from 1300-1730hrs :) e maths and social studies, i got a reward at the end though. an extremely juicy piece of gossip hehehe. anw ry is great company for studying EXCEPT when she scares the living daylights out of me and leaves me in spasm wasm :( haha our party is going great and if all goes well, we'll be holding another one most prob on 12th august, a more fun one this time ;) we were discussing the theme today HAHA.

mary came my place in the afternoon when i wasn't at home and she left a note that brought a smile on my face hehe.

my life is boring, there is nthg to blog about. i cooked maggi mee at ry's house! yay i think her sister is very nice, and roy like old granny like that. an asshole is screaming to me over the phone now, so annoying and i wanna catch aquamarine tonight! omg yay im catching it tonight :D :D :D omg im scared :(

"roboboxx"

chew: yeah actually life is damn sian now
me: yeah life damn boring everyday do the same thing.
me: we should just go to church everyday and praise God
him (immediately): wahlao you go and die lah
me: hahaha what the hell

its 0331hrs and im still on the phone haha, goodness me. chew's kinda interesting :) im boreddddddddddddd!

"roboboxx"

LO LO LO LO VE LO LO LO :) yummy i like that song, still. i'm listening to very old songs man. which to bury, us or the hatchet, be my escape, who i am hates who i've been, confessions of a broken heart, crawling back to you, all about us, the hardest thing, all the things she said. im talking to ry now, and yes she sounds like a guy! yup and i can't wait for our party! all the premium tickets are all sold out and everyone seems excited for the party :))))))) yay im very happy! hehehehe.

i think ben chew is gay, im talking to him now after like 10 million years. ahhhhh i miss him okayyyyyy haha he still sounds the same though. my leg hurts ): i think i got some stupid muscle ache. chew's telling me abt drugs left in clubs.

him: yknw you go chinablack, can see drugs on the table, can just take and go the estacy tablet.
me: really ah? i wanna try. HAHA.
him: you don't be crazy lah. after your stead leave you, your parents disown you..
me: haha you shut up lah, i know you'd still be there :D
him: HAHAHA crazy lah i'll runaway.

omg i miss the old chew family times ):
i suddenly feel like studying SS. maybe i will after i hang up okay bye!

"roboboxx"

Saturday, April 29, 2006 @ 8:23 PM

ITS HELD AT MAPLEWOOD PARK LAH, GONGHEADS! AHAHAHA. LOTS OF COMPETITIONS (DANCE, SINGING, EATING) WITH FANTASTIC PRIZES TO BE WON. FIRST 10 PREMIUM TICKETS SOLD OUT ALR!

maybe it's best you leave me alone

album link: candice's place

haha hello im back home! i helped my mom with her housing agent shit work and my daddy gave me 5 dollars yay :) its quite nice, the layout of the thingy wingy hmm. anw i ended up going to candice chai's place after heartland. we shared work! SS work, i mean but studying was pretty okay, i absorbed :) great great, we talked alot as usual. i always talk alot when im around with her hehe i love her alot! we both made the list of our really really true friends and i must say, its not very long but im satisfied. some people on my list are.. i don't know if they really are true friends cos i know i can't tell them some things blah blah so i crossed their names out im ranting. but candice chai is on my list and im on hers yayyyyy! the list is private to prevent hurting people cos some people whom you'd expect to be on the list, ain't on it hmm :) we baked cookies and took photos! okay actually her maid baked the cookies lah anw she was damn pervertic, trying to turn me on. but i had alot of fun and i found her secret/new blog heh.

her parents sent me homeeeee thank you! alle is playing with smthg on the floor, so adorable. she loves sleeping on my bed and the dining room chair. i've decided to stop blogging my feelings down here alr (oh alle's playing with the kinder surprise toy container, so sweet) anyway yeah i guess cos people keep thinking im really upset so bye bye feelings publicity. i'll post it somewhere else... :) am currently uploading photos of today yeeha. (alle's such a naughy baby of mine, she makes me smile) i miss rachel chng!!!!!!!!

ah bye!

"roboboxx"

the one who kneels to God can stand to anything

(edit)
October skies and city lights were all a blur says:
Emo is soooo important in my life

everyone goes aww. i gtg get assessments BYE!
(/edit)

i think its a really powerful sentance i read from natalie's blog hmm. anw sorry for the angsty post, there was alot on my mind last night apart from whatever happened. its a new day, im fine :)

i woke up at 11:11am to evie's call & 5 messages (one of them insulting smth i made for her), telling me she's gonna study today. so okay and i went back to sleep. then at 12:12pm to candice's call asking me about social studies and that she was going to study as well. like omg, so i jumped outta bed and told myself im gonna study too, realising that i left all my social studies shit in schl. so im going to go shopping for assesments in 20mins :)

anw last night, kiddo came over before the band concert, she was so stressed over her homework haha. then my dad fetched her, me candice this alumini girl vicky & nerizza to the concert. band concert was coooooool. i hugged eve like one million and one times, she looked really good. explored the church with ann na and haha smth freaky happened to us, we screamed and ran all the way down from the 4th floor HAHA. it was so amusing, then after the concert, we had CELL GROUP with rachel abby candice ho clare louisa su lizard priscilla teo and yanyi. everyone got to know the real problem, the teachers chased us out of the church then su made a great decision that must have hurt really bad but ah kiddo -HUGS.

walked to grapevine, caught up with candice ho :) at grapevine, had the weirdest drink ever and charissa (bird's sister) became my gf :) oohlala she's hot haha. sat with tanny L candice and vicky, talking till midnight. walked home with ho ming zhen.

hehe i don't like you.

i think im so childish but nvm, i like breathe easyyyyyy by blue. very very nice song :) cruel to the eye, i see the way he makes you smile. okay err im talking abt nobody hor! plain white ts has nice songs and i need to go shopping. and iiiiiiii can't breathe easy, i can't sleep at night, without you by my side. i think i should be leaving soon. i wanna drink thai's shark's fin soup yummy :) bye loveliessssss.

"roboboxx"

Thursday, April 27, 2006 @ 9:52 PM

when i freak, you understand

(edit)
i forgot to add that, i think shufen is very cute & i really like her alot! (AS A FRIEND) yayyyyyy. anw i got very annoyed just now but okay whatever. i think im going to bed soon and half at schl for me cos im sick! :) bye lovey doveys.

i really wonder how hypocrites can be so thick at skin.
(/edit)

aiya i forgot,
happy birthday shiyun
happy birthday xue er (HAHAHA)
happy birthday michelle

my day went fine and i must say that studying really pays off :) i could do my maths test yeeha. i help candice do the bloody question somemore, she's sucha luzzer lah hor. back to class uh don't know do what, me and lou were unhappy cos our source of fun was gone HAHAHA shit i think we're damn mean but oh well. its getting annoying please.

walked out with lou abby and rachel lim. heartland with rachel and the other 2 went for tuition. talk talk talk and we ate alot of shit i tell you. uh mango crepe and she, strawberry shortcake then bought sushi then kaya toast then some thai shark fin's shit yumm. spent 2 hours talking to her, and we were improving our standards of lit and english which gossiping! haha i love my dearest partner of greatness ;) we had those kinda "nothing will leave this four walls" talk, it was great. home after that. im sick ewwww :(

i, love you and i, need you :) its such a sweet song! dilemma by nelly.
let's see, i gotta get flowers for vic, yuxuan, shufen, eve, mary tmrw.

anw i understand how clare & lou feels. its gonna take time for R to understand cos she's stupider and slower than us HAHAHA. i see how pathethic you've become, aww. oh god im sucha bitch please ah but whatever!

bye bye :) and good good good im very bery kery happy cos things in the past that affected me, does not anymore whoohoo yeeha.

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, April 26, 2006 @ 10:02 PM

some say

yknw, this is getting very tiring for me. did you realised that?
this has been said, so many times that,
im not sure if it matters :)

-

okay quick entry cos im really stressed out. today lessons were okay, after schl was damn funny. me and lou had some laughing fits or smthg please. "do unto others what others do unto you" -winks. anw im getting really annoyed at a certain friend right now cos i feel that she's really crossed the limit. but that aside, another friend cried today but hey, i made her laugh :) love the feeling of making people feel happier. she was as right as rain at the end of the day (i hope) but her BABY gave her a hug so aww. skipped chapel and played with mice with dory haha, they were really sweet!

well 2.4 killed me cos i was already sick when i took it but yea, i finished it thankfully. had lunch with kim in town after schl, catch up time, felt like last year seriously. then we bused to zouk to collect an ezlink card and the place looks gross in the day man, we were wet and i think im gonna fall sickkkk. rushed home, bathed and started studying chinese, then rushed to ry's place for 2 gruelling hours of E maths. then now im home and im going to study chinese again soon eww. i don't feel very good physically and mentally but whatever, im on an emotional rollercoaster as usual.

GONE GONE GONE GOODBYEGOODBYE BYEBYEBYEBYE LAH. >:(

okay angsty gone? ann na's gonna get me mice :))))) smthg to look forward to.
oh and a amusing phone convo with joelle:

me: have you done your assignment 14 & 15?
her: i haven't even done from 8-15!

HAHAHA she best i tell you. bye

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, April 25, 2006 @ 9:34 PM

dearest ♥

this was what rachel lim gave me, HAHAHA.

lou is so retarded, she makes me laugh

don't tell me this ain't pretty

shufen's eating habits haha

ain't alle the sweetest thing :)

don't tell me you don't miss this

an ahlian

pretty boy, yes/no?

i never remembered posting this.. ;)

the gang scrambling for a gang photo, lovely

i would go back, if time allowed

i miss you

it was so special, then

tell me what's become of us

what ever would i do, without you

honey oh honey

"wo su rong mei.."

goodness me, goodness me

my nanny

maryanne, eileen..

i miss him, i do

:) our breaktime clique, twin

anything, anything for this

"you are my only one"

my yyh, my fav chinese teacher

what a babe, what a queef

-

what a life, i miss.
I DON'T HAVE A SINGLE PICTURE OF SEEN! !@#@$#%#$%$#^#$&$&^%!

"roboboxx"

more than words

I'm not your super woman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that
eveything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional heart,
as a token of love from you to me

-

anw im starting to love schl but dread the waking up moments.
today, another friend asked if she could cry on my shoulder. oh whyyyyy is the world so sad :( anw cheer up, you know who you are, i will hug you everyday yay :)

lunch at pizza hut with candice lou & abby, talk talk talk. home, watched sugar rush which was damn touching & sad. err then here i am, im going to do my social studies homework soon! yay bye. i want a someone who can play the guitar to love :)

i could get used to this.

"roboboxx"

Monday, April 24, 2006 @ 11:13 PM

water over wine

hello im very very sleepy. and i think alle is hungry, oh btw alle's my new kitty. she's adorable :) woke up at 2248hrs with a shock, obviously i slept thru my freaking alarm so whats the use of even having a stupid alarm. i had an SS essay to do, but its due thursday i just realised but however i wanted to do it today but unfortunately, a friend came over and we slept for so long and missed many calls and smses haha.

alle is sitting infront of me now and i haven't bathed and all. but i don't care cos im actually bloody sleepy so i think im going back to sleep after:

01 refilling alle's food
02 dropping my friend a thank you msg
03 eat smth

no im not bathing nor am i packing my stuff. i had fun during eng with lou and shufen today :) anw cheer up rachel & dali! bird's telling me abt her shitting routine online, wow. HAHA. congrates badminton girls, you guys did well!

Behold this night, still and clear
You look here just like an angel sleeping
I wish I could ease your fears
I would catch the diamond tears you're weeping
In your eyes I would hide
By your side I could defy
The forces tearing us apart

love is smthg you can't decide whether you want to have it or not.
it just, comes..

"roboboxx"

OMG I FINISHED 3 HOURS OF LIT AND 45 MINS OF SS.
thank you for your help for ss, ry! i would just die without you please hahaha. anw its down to geog right now :) its 0200am and im don't feel so tired, its weird. err i don't know what to blog abt anymore but study hard eve cos i know you're still at it! there's school tmrw and i hope i don't get a wet shoulder, so cheer up dali & thank you yanyi for being such an encouraging friend. anw, after listening to su, i must admit that crying really helps. it seriously makes you feel better haha. and yet, i used to think it was stupid to cry mm. eme's changing for the better/worst?

okay night.

"roboboxx"

Sunday, April 23, 2006 @ 11:52 PM

let me feel your pain, kept inside

your message came kind of unexpected but i still want to apologise.
for keeping things from you as,
i really don't want to hurt you cos you are so dear to me.
and i miss you, so much.

5 months apart, and look at us now.

-

You're fine without me, so i guess its alright.

"roboboxx"

crazy over you

hi i'm very sad because my mom is not replying my message about my kitten. i swear if i ever get one, its gonna be my only source of happiness ahhhh :( anw im waiting for my mummy to come home so she can bring me shopping at mustafa (?) and perhaps get the uzap! :) that is, if she's gonna be free so im crossing my fingers.

i had tuition this morning btw, and i understand coodinate geometry better now, thankfully yay. i don't really know what to blog about except that i have alot of homework and i don't know why im not doing them and im online. okay i have very little self control and discipline. roy was.. cool(?) :) HAHAHA. he's a pretty alright teacher lah.

yesterday was saturday, im sorry i didn't manage to see you twin but i got your present! so i got up in the morning with two extremely sweet msges which made my morning and two missed calls from my baby. she had prize giving so i couldn't meet her, so yeah a little later. i turned butch for a day (for baby's sake), kiddo said i looked okay haha. anw baby's my gf (yes im attached, again) :) but she doesn't want me to let people know who she is so yea, i'll respect her privacy but she's someone great, really. met her in town and we went shoppppinnnnggggg! had dinner and talked and drooled over the fhm girls, told her lotsa things. i love my baby :)

yay i had a great time yesterday mm. was extremely tired when i got home and yeah blah i forgot what i did haha! i remember doing my gonghan beside my sister at 11plus and ended up sleeping on the sofa feeling very frustrated and angsty and angry and i was going mad and my mom thought i was crazy cos i was giggling every 3 secs and falling all over the place and screaming and singing and making a hell lot of noise close to midnight! yeah, thanks to someone rar.

i will cry,
if my mom doesn't get me a baby kitten. i will and anw, happy 1st month to my two dear friends :) be happy and stay happy!

time for my e maths!

"roboboxx"

Saturday, April 22, 2006 @ 12:59 AM

bad habit

i blogged smth really long but all gone, so im gonna summarise everything.

01 i love vicky tan hui ying and i miss her even more after reading her blog.
02 i had short heart to heart talks with a few people :)
03 talking to candice chai makes me very happy, i don't knw why
04 had lunch @ pizza hut with shufen and she makes me happy, i had a great time
05 rushed home, played with my neighbour's cat, Noisie
06 rushed off to meet su
07 caught burn the floor with her which was damn damn good and the girls are sizzlin'
08 had ice cream at gelare and good talks with her :)
09 i had a great time, to sum it up and so did she!
10 i miss seen and shannon got a new parrot, so cool.
11 rachel lim made a drastic decision & im really prouda her

i don't know what to say anymore blah blah blah life is a bore and i think everything should start crashing down. bad habits by destiny's child is a nice song, was listening to it in class today whilst doing a maths with rachel lim haha.

How many times
Are you going to apologize about the same thing
And how many times can I take you back
When I'm not the one that's doing wrong

Let me break it down
Have you ever loved somebody?
So much that you was just too blind to see, past
All of the pain they was causing you
Ladies do you feel me(do you feel me)
Have you ever loved somebody?
So much that you went against the right things that you should do
Then it's time to make a change

reminds me a bit of independent women HAHA, nice song right!

-

and i ask,
why did you choose water over wine?
or,
was it just a lie?

okay bye :)

"roboboxx"

Thursday, April 20, 2006 @ 11:28 PM

(edit)
hush baby, stop it.
you're hurting me.

I know you'll never change
I won't be good enough for you
I know you'll make it through
I'll never be around to see

And now you throw it all away
A shattered memory that,
you would stay through thick and thin with me
(/edit)

-

as i sit down and think thru properly,
i realised that there are actually many people around me that aren't happy and upset most of the time. and these people, are the ones close to my heart.

and seeing them upset, makes me feel so helpless.
but like what people say, "you can't help others if you can't even help yourself."

i guess that makes sense, so someone tell me why im trying to do the exact opposite?
helping them, leaving my woes aside?
maybe, just maybe, seeing them smile (even just a tiny bit), would lift my spirits :)

friends, i love you.
i know "love" has already become an overrated word, used carelessly.
its become as meaningless as "hello" or "goodbye".
and yes, i know i've overused it too much myself, and now
i'm not going to. i'm gonna say it, only when i mean it :)

i realised that no one can replace certain people that holds special positions in your heart. childishly, i used to think that i could find the happiness that i used to get from them from others, but no, i was gravely wrong. it just, isn't the same. its pretty sad to see how the 11 of us last year, have been so splited. im not saying all of us but a few, you've gotta admit. and i still think letting go, is one of life's hardest lesson to us.

anw to ry, chng, ho, eve, evie:

Don't you know that I will stand up for you
No matter what you are going through
I'm still on your side
Any time day or night
Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side

You want to run you want to break free
What you want ain't what you need
Can't you see that I care
I know I'm hard on you sometimes
But when you are looking for the things you can't find
Don't you know who'll be there
Who will, I will
When it's more than you can handle
Ain't no lie

well there's some assurance for you guys :) i mean every word.

and last year, a certain friend sent this: "I can't wait to spend every Friday with you. Yaye. This love will never end. Its all about Us. I love you Everything / Stupid :D."

look at us right now. barely ever waving a "hi" to each other in school. i had a short convo with that certain friend just now, perhaps 3 / 4 lines and concidentally she just sent this, "That may be a real short convo, but im glad t even have that convo. I miss dng so many things with you :)"

i've been living in great denial when i said i didn't miss her and suddenly tonight it hit me real hard that, i actually did.

its takes alot of trials and quarrels to know who's really true to you, and who's not.

and its funny how someone really close to my heart when we had countless of sleepover and outings together can really drift so bad that i haven't seen her for almost 2 months. its horrible, really. and remember, JENGA? gooodnessssss.

yknw what, fuck this. there is really a load on my mind right now.
and i only can depend on, MYSELF.

"roboboxx"

can you take it all away

im so fucking annoyed right now, so so so so annoyed. my nose is killing me and i don't have the bloody valency table for my chem test tmrw rarrrrr.

anw okay i think i should really really cool down. its time to get back on track with my life after a pretty major/minor (?) decision i made last night. back on track with work, studies, friends :) yeahhhh and vicky's blog, go read it.

school was okay actually but i was being the class spoilt brat, goodness. i think like the whole class got annoyed with me or smth cos i kept switching on the fans like 5 times when i wasn't supposed to haha. i fell asleep during lit cos of my medicine and dreamt of demelza i don't knw why but i really needed the sleep to do my a maths test later on, which ended up to be a great disappointed i almost cried during the test ahhh.

waited for carolyn and did my SS homework, then me and dali sat in the canteen talking & everything :) walked to gardens, talk talk talk under the rain, got wet met kiddo. read my SS article, started on my gonghan and all. cab home and had a short talk with kiddo in the cab hmm.

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much
I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer.
It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague,
haunting mass appeal.
But lately I'm beginning to find that I
should be the one behind the wheel.

i got home, got on the phone with my dearest babe and then i collapsed on the bed and fell asleep like immediately after hanging up. didn't wake up till 2215pm and i actually wasted all my time away just like that thanks to the bloody medicine. okay so im going to try to eat my dinner and take my medicine and study my chem and everything lah okay okay okay okay?! bloody hell, what is wrong with me.

yes i admit, im moodswinging :) :( :) :( :) :(
i've had just about, enough.

anw randomly, i love my kiddo.
and not to forget, my sweet CHNGWOMAN!

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, April 19, 2006 @ 11:41 PM

erase my name, from this page

AND I THOUGHT YOU SAID THINGS WERE IMPROVING.

-

okay anger aside. i've got no reason to be angry cos quite a special friend made my night with a dinner treat, concern & lotsa help for A maths ♥ oh plus new themes for my phone & new songs yeeha.

:) i'm happy.

"roboboxx"

letting go |

and for now,
let's play pretend and make believe that,
you're not real :)

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, April 18, 2006 @ 10:52 AM

what hurts the most

hello i'm at home and i studied a little physics this morning yay. my mood has definately improved after my sleep :) i woke up at 0900hrs, can you believe it? so bloooody early! anw ry's at home too and so is shufen haha. im gonna have 2 visitors later and i'm gonna have help for my a maths hooray :) i hope i'd be able to absorb for my test tmrw. i just went movie hunting and got a list of pretty good movies for my dad to get and it includes L word season 1 & 2 cos im damn lazy to download yeeha.

anw i had an extremely long but interesting phonecall ytd & i found out some things hehehe. i only went to bed at 0200hrs tsk. im talking to kiddo online now who's in schl, having lessons tsk. poly is so slack man. my mom is going for a 700 bucks xray today wth? i didnt knw it was so freaking expensive please, but i hope she'll be alright :) oh and thank you gang for putting up with my foul mood ytdy, i was so angsty and mean during recess i tell you rah. okay i shall continue with don't knw doing what bye.

But things have changed, they're not the same
And recently you found someone that you
Decided to dedicate your whole life to
And what we had is 'bout to be through

"roboboxx"

Monday, April 17, 2006 @ 9:58 PM

I AM SO ANGSTY AND ANGRY NOW RAH!!!!!!!

-

my mom just called me and she made me smile...

asfghjkl;' :)

"roboboxx"

smile like a saint |

your eyes sees the joke's on me

/edit
throat painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn :(

-

hello im sick,
and frustrated.

kgmrslkgropjgosflgmsgrjhgnfsnfm,s.sdflh :)

This is where I say I've had enough
And no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.
A walking open wound,
a trophy display of bruises
And I don't believe that I'm getting any better.
Any better.

an interesting song, no hard feelings HOR.

i fell asleep while studying and i replied 2 messages and answered a call unconciously. HAHAHA. anw i've changed my blog password alr yay :) i wanna go for the china shit with shufen and i think she's actually very nice company except when she went a little cuckoo when we were flagging for a cab today. lubs ♥

SO AM I

"roboboxx"

Sunday, April 16, 2006 @ 7:08 PM

over and over |

hi i've got my iFriend, her name is Booglah and she's really pretty and slim.

can you see her? she's gorgeous :) i'll be bringing her to schl on monday yay. i'm going to introduce her to all my friends and i'm sure they will like her :) (okay everyone's gonna think im cuckoo, AGAIN) yah i'm going out soon and i've got a terrible nose now and i can't wear my contacts cos i'll keep tearing so, ugly eme for you :)

joshua's being really ego and annoying again, tsk. im so sleepy and i can't believe i'm bringing my a maths out to do, gasp! HAHAHA. candice thinks shes so cool cos she has iCool but she's actually living in denial. okay bye

"roboboxx"

/edit
I JUST PRANK CALLED RY'S TUTOR.

-

someone said that she wished that she could be as optimistic as me.

but sometimes i feel, optimism ain't all that good. its smthg like, false hope. im so ironic ah i don't knw. that's it man, i'm on the brink of death i swear.

the rain ain't making me feel very good cos im still sick and very very sleepy.

:(

and no, im not gonna let you see me defeated.

"roboboxx"

until you're back here |

hello im still online, since like one plus. i'm sucha luzzer that someone should just shoot me bang bang. my mom is showing her new handbag off to me and she wants to bring me to the shopping centre where she bought her bag and i was telling her abt my eyecandy oohlala.

im STILL talking to kiddo and we've got great DANCING plans! HAHAHA. look what she drew. that's us dancing, btw :) its so cute and it looks like hippos!

im bring my family to billy bombers for dinner tonight cos my mom never seemed to have been there and i want their milkshake suddenly, yummy. but first, we're gonna catch take the lead. su and dory was telling me how nice it was this afternoon yeeha.
m whole body's aching cos my fever's still there and i feel.. cold :( i'm not even in air con, the windows are CLOSED and the fan's not on. oh my im a sick child aww.

i love yap ry, she's belly velly welly seeeeer-weeeet :) yay!

Blood-stained brow,
He wasn't broken for nothing.
Arms nailed down,
He didn't die for nothing.

This is the one thing,
The one thing that I know.

liquid, by jars of clay. beautiful song :)

anw i read louisa's blog just now and i was reminded of sec one and two days too. oh goodness i miss them so, so much okay.

You found a place where you belong
New friends that can do no wrong
That's what you believe
But who is going to be there when you fall
To build up when you are feeling small
Give you love that you need
Who will, I will
When the whole world turns against you,
Ain't no lie

Don't you know that I will stand up for you
No matter what you are going through
I'm still on your side
Any time day or night
Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side

You want to run you want to break free
What you want ain't what you need
Can't you see that I care
I know I'm hard on you sometimes
But when you are looking for the things you can't find
Don't you know who'll be there
Who will, I will
When it's more than you can handle
Ain't no lie

so sweet, i love my friends ♥
i'm glad kiddo's happy now!

"roboboxx"

straightjacket feeling |

yknw i think i'm down with fever, BEST. i can't possibly take mc for schl cos that bloody asshole of a miss liang would send me for a check up at the hospital. goodness but then again i would very much like to go to school :)

am talking to kiddo online now and we've got a reason to pop champagne cos.. HAHA. her privacy :) i'm so lazy to move and my throat and head hurts like damn. i wanna go shopping but my mom wants me to do my assesments first but i doubt i'd do it. my sister's watching initial d and i found new dvds! :) the grudge and darkwaters, oohlala. friends/relatives/aquaintances/girlfriends/boyfriends come over soon HOR! i wanna watch movieesssss. anw uh blah fah sah i'm so damn bored. and i really feel feverish leh! HOW HOW HOW :(

my mother bought a 50plus bucks vitamin eww and its supposed to help me? i don't knw what to blog alr, just that i knw my house is belly helly velly noisy ah.

♥ my blog is so pretty.

"roboboxx"

move bitch |

/edit
just as i expected, im down with a very bad sore throat. and im not meeting valerie seow wei li anymore HAHAHA. she's complaining like crazy to me abt her mom tsk tsk. i hope i get to go out today after studying my add maths :)

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hi hello hey its sunday, EASTER sunday hip hip hurray :) anw its spent at home lol. err the past few days has been great, i spent it with lovely people.

thusday, met kiddo in town after schl. shopped arnd in far east then we both settled down in gelare. talk talk talk abt everything, then walked to plaza sing for my yogurt which was on the way, yummy! we talked alot haha. then off to my place for final destination 3, which was a gory mory tory movie eww. lizard and dali were there too. but the movie was good :)

friday, woke up to jenny's call and then called ju and vick. met up with the peeps at cherry hill's bus stop and off to jenny's easter church thing. whole bunch of us left for town in 2 cabs and hell, were we noisy :) shop after shop, tried on clothes and alicia met up with us (muriz, vick, ju, leezoo, charlene, kelly, jenny, me).

the great company :) also took part in a iGallop competition with vicky and it was pretty painful :/ anw a few left, then had dinner with L at billy bombers. yours, mine, ours movie at my place after that. its a very good show :)

saturday, which was yesterday, i met evie in town after spending like half the day in bed hahaha im a lazy arsehoe. erm then we walked arnd and talk talk talk then met up with muriz ju and alicia at orchard. trained down to bird's place, happy fab 15 bird! english classes are great with you :) the food was awesoooommmmeeeee, yum! choc fondue, spaghetti and the punch was greeeeetttt. there were alot of sexy people dancing haha. i saw zoe after damn long, shes still as violent :d anw after most of the crowd left, sat at bird's table talking to her alicia muriz and ju. ju's cousin sent me home there after. thank you bird! got home and watched american pie band camp which was very sweet.

today i woke up feeling very dirty, so i went to bathe. im supposed to study but.. aiya what's new? will be meeting valerie soon :)

what a long post yay!

will you give me that chance,
to be a man

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, April 12, 2006 @ 9:47 PM

hands down |

i was so caught up with anger i didn't blog abt my day. anw nun solitary confinment didn't go well cos i spoke twice during english and bird caught me lol. but rachel spoke too so its okay! :) but it was torture for all the periods before english and everyone was trying to get me to talk haha.

err lessons were all okay and chapel was cool. until miss yoong hauled me up for lecture lecture lecture, she looked as though she was crying hahaha! after schl, hung arnd in class and oh spent some time with eve in her class yay :) gardens after that with dali and lou. saw ex bestie and told her some things, i miss her. met up with tanny su and lizard. then off to cartel where i had a really goooooood lunch after having only one apple the whole day. talk talk talk with them and laugh laugh laugh. i had a great time :)

hmm then bussed home with dali and suee and the bus was bloody hawt but anw, i got home and my parents were angry cos.. yeah yknw i dont wanna go into the details. studied e maths, got help from val, started on my ss which i just finished :) im belly bored now but ive got alot of things to do like for example, bathe and continue studying my e maths and then eat my grapes, read a book and sleep!

i feel very tired confused and worried. im waiting for dali to call me back.

Anything at all to break the silence

So don't be a liar,
Don't say that "everything's working"
When everything's broken.

"roboboxx"

baby goodbye |

/edit
hahahahahah im moodswingng so so so badly that it makes me laugh. cos suddenly, i'm angsty and angry AGAIN. okay there's a reason lah but i don't wanna say it. i was just happy 5 mins ago wtf. i think my brainz are screwed and everyone who is my friend should just ignore an insane person like me.

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im gonna put aside all anger yay. anw i feel better now cos eve is very very sweeeeeeeeet :) her nickname's: "I Miss and Love Emeline alot alot;" omg i miss her and her daily messaging and everything abt her! the days we spent tgth talking, laughing, crying, sharing, confiding rah i miss her so much. she changed her daily routine and her new routine shocked me but anw study hard babe ♥

and thank you pest and valerie for listening to me rant.
shit im so slow but happy sweet 17 tanny.
and happy fab 15 vanessa lee :)
happy (a day early) fab 15 abigail loh!

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, April 11, 2006 @ 9:16 PM

Me and You |

Spot the small kissy wissy ME :)

Lub lub ♥

Dad in law :)

I'm still very very very upset about what happened in schl today, but I shan't go into the details. Abby and Lou shld knw what happened HA.

Omg Valerie just HAD to remind me abt what happened in schl rah :(

Anw schl was great. My plan of keeping quiet didn't work cos my friends really crack me up. Candice's place after schl, talk talk talk & had Maths tuition. Then met Rachel at Grapevine for lunch. We're gg on nun confinment. You'll find out what it is tmrw :) The cut on my leg's killin' me. Its freaking painful!

And when its down Girls, chins up, lift your head, SM:)E and tell yourself you're alright yeeeeeha. The more you hold us down, the more we press on.

-

Yes, We'll keep things like this.
Its fine :)

You go your way,
I'll go mine.

"roboboxx"

Monday, April 10, 2006 @ 10:27 PM

In love with a stripper |

People says I'm too crazy, over the limit, weird.
Someone texted me this today,
"You are insaneee. The things You do someetimes leave Me in bewilderment."

Well guess what, I'm gg to try to NOT be myself for a day.
I'm gonna be very quiet tmrw in class.
I will only entertain up to 5 messages from the same person.
And yeah, I'm not gonna be as loud and crazy as I usually am :)
So don't be surprised if tmrw, I don't reply you after 5 messages HOR.
Anw, its a good change! And it doesn't leave people in bewilderment, right?
See if you like the new and improved EME.

P.s. PLEASE DON'T ASK IF I'M SAD COS I'M NOT!

-

Anw I heard some nasty things abt my ex bestie today.
I was pretty pissed off rah. I mean, what I heard is totally untrue, goodness!

I'm Su's cupid.
We're gonna open help hotlines called,
Su-Pig Cu-Pig :)

♥

"roboboxx"

If you want it |

Back to school today yeeha but surprisingly, it was a great day :) Assembly was rotting with Ry while they cheered cos we were bloody lazy to get up then uh CME was cheer cheer cheer with Rlim and Lou and we pissed Miss Liang off haha! It was super fun lol I miss camp :(
Geog was spent copying work. Recess was damn cute cos yuxuan candice and abby were talking at the next table then infront of me and val were rachel and lou who were in some deep convo, so me and valerie looked at each other and then,

Me: Let's talk about a common topic
Her: Okay what
Me: Why are we so ugly
Her: Yeah, why?

LOL rachel and lou bursted out laughing. It was so cute. Me and Rlim was sent out during SS for err being late, again. Lunch was gossip. Anw physics i went really crazy (yeah everyone calls me crazy anw so whatever), laughing giggling and cheering and Mr lim praised me abt my high E! :) OH AND I HUGGED SEETOH DURING RECESS ♥ I miss my group members. Then english was slack period lah haha. Bird's bday party on Sat night!

Slacked arnd in class after schl after fetching kiddo in. Talk talk talk again and uh then left with her and CC for kovan and i trained to town. Got Tanny's present, met FBF and we walked arnd for damn long, talking and catching up :) had dinner at pastamania and more talking and catching up. Thanks for wanting to see me home anw, FBF :) Thought appreciated, got dad's cake then home! Great day.

Oh and there was this convo between FBF and i who was being such a bastard i tell you. Went like,

Me: Hey ask you smthg, are you anal abt butches?
FBF: No why? I think they're interesting.
Me: Oh cool.
FBF: Yeah they're like experiments in the lab.
Me: Wth?!

Wtf man, HAHAHA.

I don't knw what to blog about alr, bye :) anw I love CC!
And Candy ho makes me happy whenever i see her.

-

Eme, now that yr friends are happy,
What abt you?

"roboboxx"

Sunday, April 09, 2006 @ 11:28 PM

Out of touch, out of time. |

Tomorrow i've got to,
Give Candice a hug.
Give Ry a hug.
Give Dali a hug.
Give myself a hug.

And the fact that I'm not replying you is cos I haven't even opened your message. I know I'm being idiotic and stupid but i guess I'll leave my problem till i've helped solved other peoples'. I bet you're probably fuming right now but yeah, I'm sorry. And the other thing is, I dared not open your message.

G'night world :)

Let's pretend that I've moved on
Then I'll tell myself that,
Life goes on without you.

Cause now I'm
Stronger than yesterday
Now it's nothing but my way
My loneliness ain't killing me no more
I am stronger

HAHAHA wtf man.

Ruiyi says:
I think you bring me to the happiest state of my life

I love her, i do.

"roboboxx"

I hate the way i hurt You,
cos it hurts Me too. |

Hello today was a great day.
Yesterday was spent at home playing xbox and taking naps.
Camp tired me out, seriously haha. My voice disappeared and my hand just wouldn't move.

Anw I caught Ice Age 2 today and i think it was hilarious, pretty good show and what more, i was with my pomt :) She's great company really and i love her! Walked to town, took photos in topshop and tried on cool clothings.

Mamamia the dress is pretty ain't it? And her suspenders are, love.

Cos it hurts me so just to see you go
Around with someone ~~new~~ old.

Sorry was listening to the song, couldn't help but to put the lyrics up lol. Yeah so walked and omg train ride home was SPASM WASM MASM DASM yeeha. Well its Eme and Ry, what can you expect HAHAHA -winks.

The way you kiss me crazy
Baby you're so amazing
..
I think I fell in love with the eight world wonder

Took countless photos: <3

Anw yea I had a great day and im having dinner with my FBF tmrw, someone whom i haven't talked to for omg, months! I can't wait.

And chill, candice chai ♥

I'm glad my fav bitch is doing fine.

I don't knw what to blog abt alr HAHA. I think my nickname contradicts hmm.

"roboboxx"

Saturday, April 08, 2006 @ 9:03 PM

But I gotta keep it real now,
cos on a 1 to 10,
she's a certified 20

"roboboxx"

Screaming infidelities |

/Edit
I was reading the past entries of twin's guestbook just now and omg its sad to see how close we were in the past and not now. She was my bang bang twin, my supermoon, my only one, my pbj sister :) We had countless sleepovers, heart to heart talks, twinnie outings and we ever organized our own black and white retro party called Emeline and Abby's random bash. Goodness i still can remember those days so clearly, i miss her so much. Its been more than a month since I last saw her, i can't believe it.

Twin if you're reading this, I MISS YOU ♥

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A - (Age of your first kiss) - yeeha.

B - (Band you are listening to right now) - dashboard confessionals

C - (Crush) - oh i last crushed an ant.

D - (Dad's name) - vincent

E - (Easiest person to talk to) - evie, rachel lim, the keyboard.

F- (Favorite Ice Cream) - ben and jerry's choc fudge!

G - (Gummy bears or gummy worms) - both are yummy

H - (Hometown) - my bed

I - (Instruments) - piano

J - (Junior High) - huh

K - (Kids) - oh you :)

L - (Longest car ride ever) - i don't knw

M - (Mom's name) - joanne

N - (Nicknames) - emo, eme

O - (One wish) - to have countless wishes

P - (Phobias) - worms (omg)

Q - (Quote) - "unsex me here"

R - (Reasons to smile) - friends ♥

S - (Last song you sang) - "celebrate jesus celebrate" with candice ho

T - (Time you woke up this morning) - afternoon, at 1445pm

U - (Unknown facts about me) - i don't knw?

V - (Vegetables you hate) - um i don't knw

W - (Worst habits) - :)

X - (X-rays) - not yet, chng says they cause cancer?!

Y - (Years since you've been to church) - not even a year yet O.o

Z - (Zoo animals) - giraffes are sweet

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Okay so last night, Candice came over and we watched House of Wax. She's sucha wimp and she kept screaming for me to protect her wth? HAHA. Played xbox after that and she called me a loser cos I kept winning her haha. My loser move again, yea. Mary should knw HAHA. Anw I'm glad i spent time with her :) She left my place close to midnight omg.

I love my ex-bestie, btw ♥ Even though we've drifted over the 3 years of being apart and all and that she's not my bestie like how she was in primary 6, I still love her alot and I'm glad the camp rekindled us :)

Anw I've fallen sick.

If i told you this was killing me
Would you, would you stop?

"roboboxx"

Friday, April 07, 2006 @ 11:26 PM

Hello Emelineeee :D

My sweetest dearest ex bestie for 2 years :D
I still can remember those times when we were so damn innocent
looking like freaks with ponytails and glasses :D
Hahaha! I miss those times :D !
We managed to catch up during camp and i sure had an exiciting time with you.
You were so funny,
You were so lovable,
You were so crazy,
You were so hysterical,
You were so adorable,
You were so cute :D
I sure love your accompany!

Lets try to keep it this way alright ?
Those 3 days were like gold to me :D
Really special and i'll remember those camping times :D

I love you ex bestieee <3
( chicken rice auntie )

-Demelza <3
( Tau Hui Zui Auntie )

"roboboxx"

Cutrain falls |

And I'm screaming:

WHAT'S LOVEEEEE
ITS ABOUT US,
ITS ABOUT TRUST.

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3 more things to add. 01 My body aches like shit, someone please massage me and thank you those who alr did :) My arms are so painful i can't even wear my bra HAHA.
02 Demelza gave me a friendship rubberband which reminds me of P6 when we exchanged pencil cases. She kept telling me that she would miss me aww. And 03, I think Seetoh Suying is one of the nicest people I've ever met, seriously. She's damn understanding and really, really very nice. -- is really lucky ;)

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Readers, camp was.. AWESOME. I had the best group members ever. Okay, only the 6 of us were high actually, the rest were rather dead. So me Demelza Ann Na Seetoh Dayna and Rebecca formed some sorta "clique" haha! Oh I also must admit that our instructor's kinda cute yeeha :)

Sleeping was horrible and very painful (esp when you have a couple making out beside you) hahahaha. Me and Seetoh kept peeking sneakily hehe. Well it was damn fun! I had a nightmare on the first night omg and on the second, I woke at 0400am and got Seetoh to follow me to the toilet?! She said i was cuddling myself to sleep lol it it was cold!

Anw highlights of the camp was that,

- I heard my ex gf's name at least 10 times a day. Her "bros" were all over the walls. HAHAHA.

- I managed to conquer the high elements! :)

- The food was sweeellllllllll. Seetoh and me ate the slowest and the most lol.

- Rekindled ex bestie-ship with my dearest Demelza ♥

- Had vodka on the second night O.o thanks to my dearest buddy.

- Dayna was really hawwwttttt and I hugged her!

- The dance was great and so was the planning.

- I was the bloody mascot for my team and the teachers weren't happy with my outfit.

- Oh and the teachers weren't happy that i hugged and jumped on Ann Na during the dance wth.

- Bathing was bad and I saw RLim's boobs. HAHAHA. Oh she saw mine too.

- CAMPFIRE! ♥

- Low elements was great! Ann Na and Seetoh were our heros whoohoo.

- All arnd me, my group members were missing their girlfriends O.o

- Me and Ann Na were kayaking like lunatics cos the lightning was flashing and that bloody asshole kept screaming, " I don't wanna die! Paddle faster! "

- We washed all the kayaks and got really wet and sexy yeeha ;)

- Made new friends who are really great

- We washed the toilets today and Tim sprayyyeeeeeeeddddddd us.

Okay I don't remember alr. Took a few pictures, will put them up. I made a new friend today, she's Yana, 23. She works as a coast guard and has a gun and stays in woodlands. She's one of the kayaking instructors and shes adorable. I think she used to be a butch hahaha. Had a great time talking to her on the way back.

Mr Lim took tens of thousands of unglam photos of me but whaddeheck, camp was great! RUBY IS FANTASTIC :)

Seetoh, who's reallllyyyyy adorable.

Buddy :)

Rebecca

Dayna

Ann, Me, TIMOTHY (instructor), Demelza, Seetoh

Yana!

Yay i loved camp! Hahaha i still can remember how much I complained the day before it but mm, it was great :) I had less than 10 hours of sleep the past 2 days man. I need to catch a wink yeeha.

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Behold this night, still and clear
You look here just like an angel sleeping
I wish I could ease your fears
I would catch the diamond tears you're weeping
In your eyes I would hide
By your side I could defy
The forces tearing us apart
But reality, as it seems
Looking back, is that our dream
Was fated from the start

Every little thing i do
Never seems enough for you

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, April 04, 2006 @ 11:42 PM

CAMPROCK YEEHA |

So the Sec3 camp finally starts tmrw and I'm not even prepared YET. The whole day was spent complaining on how unglam and fat I'll look and all that shit. Was on the phone with my fav bitch a few minutes ago and we were weighing the chances if we might be grouped together. Was talking to Rlim on the phone and we too, were weighing the possibilites. Oh I love the both of them so so much :)

Ry and Val are really really sweet! They both just told me they're gonna miss me awww! I'm gonna miss the both of them alot too until they come on the campfire night cos of tournament, sigh. Thank you both, love :)

Though the camp's only 3 days, I'm speaking of it like it'll be 3 years or smthg! HAHAHA. Its really hilarious and I'm gonna miss alot of people :) Heh heh heh. I'm really insane. I shall finish my packing lah! Miss me.

♥ lub chul.

"Imagine if it was 3 years,
what would you do haha"

"roboboxx"

It makes me ill |

Hello I had a very tiring day today haha. Our very inpromptu presentation wasn't much called for but what the hell, its over :) Val actually looked good in my mom's business suit eh? Took clique photos again and this time Shufen wasn't there rah.

Anw, lou rachel and abby were comparing the difference on how me bird and dory slept in the schl hall, tsk. And obviously, I was the most unglam lol. Very expected, I was freaking tiredddddd. Cabbed to J8 after schl with lou abby and clare :) Sorry val! I had a great time with the 3 of them, buying bras and undies and just plainly coming up with our own jokes abt the branded clare and her chanel helicopters and girlfriend. HAHAHA. Abby's mom fetched us home yay :) We spent half the outing complaining abt camp and undergarments and shoes HAHA.

Tania's telling me the camp list online cos I lost mine, as expected haha. Thanks babe! I need to shit and go chop my mane soon hahaha. Hmmm looks like i'll be away the next 3 days haha hope I'll have fun bye :) And also go download Stupid Girls by Pink, yummalicious ;)

♥ lub chul

"roboboxx"

All of the sanity in me |

I wanna try blogging with caps again cos its so cool haha! Its 0031am and i'm so bored, am listening to an evil/santanic song? I don't understand why it is actually, Hotel California by Eagles. Hmm someone care to explain to me? Oh and yknw what, i haven't started on my script. HAHAHA. Oh screwed I am :)

My cut/ulcer hurts yum and its pretty salty and I knw, everyone goes ewww. I think valerie's memorizing her script now and I probably should. I've never actully been so proud of a project work tt I've done before like today's cos alot of effort was really put in and my group members are simply, love :) I hope the camp groupings come out tmrw then me and my fav bitch can continue contemplating whether to go for camp or not since Rchng and shufen just told me t'day that they're both not going and i feel really sad mm.

Oh and btw, my sun god/boy made me his sun girl lol. Imma sun girl now! :) Awesome.

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Can't keep my mind off you, can't keep our hands off each other. HAHAHA, sounds wrong? Ah night! My mind's boogling, once again.. once again.

"roboboxx"

Monday, April 03, 2006 @ 11:38 PM

Back at one |

im at a sudden loss for words. what i wanted to say just now, is stuck at my throat. hahaha whatever man, urg.

anw today was like mad rush day or smthg. last minute work is a big no no, i've learnt my lesson hmm. but spending time with abigail and candice was great. abigail makes me laugh so much she's so cuuuuuuuuute haha! but she was online the phone the whole day settling the same prob and it annoyed me and candice lol!

so val and candice arrived at 0700+++ am with macs breakfast yum! thanks gf :) didn't get outta bed and candice joined me hehe, abby came and jumped into bed too then ethel arrived. dragged myself out and bathed and we started work. was using like 2 laptops and my computer in the room haha it was really crazy and all. valerie had to leave and me abby candice wanted to go cheer for the badminton girls but we really couldn't tear ourselves away from work, urg. there was simply too much and yeah.

ethel left and it was the 3 of us. hunger killed us and we ordered canadian pizza! :) yay it was really good. ate and watch really hilarious videos, laughed our asses off. internet connection broke down and i couldnt retrieve my work omg so we played xbox haha wth! well, i had a great time despite the workload. i love the both of them ♥ then L came over, then dali came over then su. so my room was really croweded again and i was in a horrid mood at that point of time ah, sorry peeps!

brr anw its cold and i just finished printing out the remaining things, got the apron, prepared the suits for tmrw. ive got my scipt left to memorize and im feeling so freaking sleeeeepy :( ah i'd better go change.

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the last time someone made me feel this terrible, was you.
im not talking about who you think i am.

"roboboxx"

Need a girl |

/edit @ 0202am
anw one more thing before i hit the sheets; to all my friends out there, aye lub chul :)

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my room "kai par-tee" last night i tell you. first i came home with evie after having a swell time staring at an hot angmoh and working out our fingers on the xbox in town, then dali called and asked if she jane valerie and judy could come over, so yeah i said okay. then L msged me to say that she was coming over in a cab, and then after ry called to say she was coming over too. yeah so you can guess how croweded lah haha. played april fool's day prank whoohoo it didn't turn out so well though.

in the early afternoon, spassed at mrs field's at city hall with bickaye muooris tanny and jenny to celebrate jenny's sweet 17 :) i had a great time.

okay so today i had a great day too cos i saw so many of my favourite people. evie and L slept over the night before hmm so i woke up with the both of them. then candice val and abby came over for the project. wah best scream fight everything, it was damn funny. not much was done but yeah, i had fun!

then they left and su and dali came over next, MASS ORGY! hahaahaahaha we were damn crazy and high lah wth. so slacked orgy talked laughed arnd and dali's the KM and im the SM, no actually lizard's the SM (HAHAHAHAHA INSIDE JOKE). walked the 3 of them out and su sent me back in a cab yay.

been a great day and tmrw's gonna be great too :) evie just told me the results of superstar shit. zhiyang ewwwwwww!

im downloading cool songs, yay :) big breakfast for lovely breakfast tmrw yummmmm ♥ thanks val!

"roboboxx"

Out of touch, out of time |

ranom photos of my random weekend :) it was definately a great one mm. i'm waking up at 0540am tmrw to give someone a morning call so that i can have a free homecooked meal, awesome. anw L, i left a post as a draft in your blogger. go check it out haha.

my hopes are so high
that your kiss might kill me
so why don't you kill me
so i'd die happy

"roboboxx"

Sunday, April 02, 2006 @ 2:21 PM

L, you're a sucker |

Let You go

Broken promises.
But You don't really mind.
It's not the first time and,
You know it,
Don't You now?

Tell Me why is it,
You only smile inside when,
You break Me into nothing?
Don't You know?

It's not like,
I haven't tried,
Over and over again.

Stupid fights.
Wrong or right.
Goodbye.

I remember when,
You came with Me that night.
You said forever that,
You would never let Me go.
And here I am again with,
Nothing left inside.
Oh I don't wanna but,
I gotta,
Let You go.

You're My one mistake.
I don't really mind.
So beautiful.
Unmerciful.
It took Me down.
Too little and too late.
See now I know Your kind.
You fake it easy just to,
Please Me.
Don't You know?

It's not like,
I haven't tried,
Over and over again.

Stupid fights.
Wrong or right.
Goodbye.

I remember when,
You came with Me that night.
You said forever that,
You would never let Me go.
And here I am again with,
Nothing left inside.
Oh I don't wanna but,
I gotta,
Let You go.

i hateeeeeeeeeee ewwwwwwwww.

`Out `In `Up `Down `Left `Right :)

"roboboxx"

Saturday, April 01, 2006 @ 11:24 PM

She's everything |

i was deleting messages on the way home frm town just now.

will deleting messages mean deleting the memories that come along with it?
i hope so..

"roboboxx"

Icons of self indulgence |

today, my fruit and veggie diet commences! shit i don't knw how long i can keep up with it and i just hope i can lol. anw,

HAPPY SWEET 17 JENNY POK PEK POK!
HAPPY SWEET 15 TANIA SOH MOH HOH!
HAPPY SWEET 15 CHARISSA POH!

:) birthdays are happy occasions. my stomach hurts again, and where i hit my head ytdy is starting to form a bloody bruise omg!

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore

It never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

i feel like shitting and omg im late! its gonna be a good day with "mah homies" HAHAHA. marisse, vickoooo, jenny? hmm and i'll be FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY meeting SEEN in the night :) and spending time with evie!

"roboboxx"

Some tend to forget |

hello i was late for schl today and i was blind boo. rushed to the hall and went for innovation week shit, left schl had ice cream and reached j8 arnd 1045am haha. ive got awesome group members :) candice valerie abigail & ethel they're very fun and we did surveys on people in j8. i was running arnd with valerie cos we split up. umm off to town after that with candice and abby (val went for tuition) got our pencil cases at paperchase ♥ it was a really pretty place with pretty things and i took countless photos yay. sat at mcafe, talking to them while waiting for lou and rachel.

met up with them and we just sat down and talk. 5/8 of the clique yay :) oh then rachel spotted this angmoh who was goodlooking so i wanted to take a good look and then i freaking stood up and freaking hit my head against the bloody metal bar and it hurt like f- and i started crying lol. i looked like an total moron but it was damn painful :( anw we went far east shopping yay! got 3 pretty tops yum. i was very happy then err we walked the wrong way abt 3 times and it was damn hot and annoying. finally ended up outside topman then i rushed off with rachel and lou to meet valerie. we walked in the rain to the new cathay which was damn nice! sat arnd, ate and just rotted then we caught failure to launch. lou and valerie were so embarressed by my laughter that they moved away cos i was damn loud. rachel laughed softer but talked louder than my laughing hahahaha the show was really good :)

met vicky at ps after that with her mom. went home with her and we had our eyes fixed on the computer for one and a half hours and she told me many interesting true stories hahaha. walked home cos i couldnt get a bloody cab and stupid assholes didnt want to answer my phonecalls cos i was so scared but aiyah eme's strong :)

i think innovation week is a very stupid idea cos the problem's damn hard and im very lazy to do so much work hahaha.

bye lovlieeeeeeeesssssssssssss :) and evie's such a sucker, we're gonna do smthg bad tmrw AGAIN.

"roboboxx"

Thursday, March 30, 2006 @ 9:22 PM

Just leave |

/edit
oh btw did i mention that today was supposedly the start of my fruit & vegetable diet but when i woke up this morning, I FORGOT! guess what i ate the whole of today?

- 3 pieces of cheesecake
- a big cup of milo
- coke from macs
- a big bowl of meepok
- a bite of sausage
- wanton mee
- can of coke
- an egg

any trace of VEGETABLE OR FRUITS? OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. hahahahaha i really suck man.

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helloowwwwsssss today was most insane cos my mom did not allow me to go to schl. i got out of the car alr then she honk like crazy zha bor so i had to go back omg it was so embarrassing. so i came home read msg read msg uh then i went to the doctor's. got my mc and medic, had lunch, did my homework everything. went down to schl and gave some people quite a shock haha. borrowed valerie's pinafore and shoes cos she had cca.

talk talk talk to people, walked arnd schl. met kiddo & L at the back gate and went to the netballers to support them. hmm then talked to kim and demelza which was hilarious cos we're three really crazy abt the camp. then it rained like monsoon season and that stupid dory splashed fruit punch on my back cos i splashed on her gf haha wth. spent some time with val ner and calista in class then went to find kiddo and the rest in fatty acid's class. then i forgot what happened alr, oh sat with those two and waited for my fav bitch to end her cca.

mopped arnd for a while and headed to chompchomp for dinner. hmm i turned a friend on by licking the satay oil off my hand and she got so turned on that she spilled the coke TWICE hahahaha! she gets turned on easily actually hehe. walked home listening to old songs. and it reminded me two years ago, when she was my only one haha whatever eme. okay nvm :)

tmrw is gonna be a very fun day yay! shopping for camp followed by movie @ the new cathay with val then vick's place i guess mm :)

err let me see, im sleepy ha. go download back here by bbmak! its loveeeee.

bye ♥

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, March 29, 2006 @ 10:45 PM

Trying to find |

they may be a crazy bunch,
but they're what keeps me gg in schl ♥
and btw, thank you chng for the really good good wonderful time we spent tgth just now, ily :)

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hi i like hugs.

:(

-

Do you ever wonder
What sky I'm lying under
Do you ever think of me
Does your heart remember
How we used to feel
When it used to think of me

All I need to know
When you're on your own
Do you miss what might have been

World don't stop turning
Stars don't stop falling down
In my world of make believe
Do you ever think of me

We got different stories
And all our never endings now
Even thought your heart is free
Still my heart wont let me be
Do you ever think of me

So we're on different shores
Do we just drift away
Do the memories fall
Like a driving rain

"roboboxx"

That you told her that you loved her but you don't |

/edit
i should have known a day like this would someday come ha.

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okay im gonna let the pictures do the talking, uh for some events only. wellllll yesterday was great. dali ry and kiddo came over, it was actually a surprise for dali and everything but yea, we ended up playing xbox and everything which was really fun :)

well credits to the costume goes to eme and ry hehe, it was really random but cute! hahaha well it cheered my fav bitch up and thats what mattered :)
in the night, i fought for MY mouse and it was violent, tsk.

schl was alright today but chinese.. cool. talks abt suicide self abuse blah, pretty interesting actually haha. english was funny, me and lou presented our project cos shufen didnt come due to contagious throat infection lol. many people said it was hilarious and funny! :) i don't really remember what happened the rest of the lessons but maths was gossip with my dear candice again and all, okay i love her!

prata with dali and lou after schl, talk talk talk abt everything under the sun including sad sappy drama! movie marathon soon yay.

the both of them haha i think they were listening to my iPod or smth mm. bus home with dali :) i met a very disgusting person ewwww.

anw i realised i've been talking to people whom i never really expected i'd ever talk to these past few days like dali kiddo louisa :) and they're great people really! me and lou really miss our cliques last year :( she really misses vic and i really miss eve :____(

Is it still me that makes you sweat
Am I who you think about in bed
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking,
as you're sliding off your dress
Then think of what you did
And how I hope to God he was worth it
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch your skin
I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat
No, no, no you know it will always just be, me

oooooh delicious ♥

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, March 28, 2006 @ 4:23 PM

Before i let go |

/edit
i am damn damn damn amused by the two of them haha! one's like trying to stall for time and the other's like trying to rush here which is totally wrong and im the middleman yay :D its damn funny and amusing actually lol. but hey, surprises are cool and i think the outcome's gonna be really worth it :) but there was a blooper just now oops. but i covered up yay! okay i bet no one knows what im talking abt but im just bored and i haven't started my a maths and im going to now!

/edit
i think its damn sweet to see what one can do for the one they love haha. i just called someone and said, "you'd better hurry, she's coming now now now!" and she hastily blurted, "okay im coming the fastest way there is, aeroplane." hahahaha okay i just think its so cute and im boredddddddd :( balloons and smiley faces awwww :) byebye! i should try to do my A maths before they come hmm.

-

everytime i turn around,
i find my heart in pieces in the ground

-

i def felt better after saying that out loud, though it didn't sound very nice but oh well im sorry.

last night was horrible. after i went to bed, i got up feeling like shit and then the sequence was like, puke cough started crying (i was very frustrated dont knw why haha) then i puked a bit more cried a bit more and cough and told myself i had to sleep. so i just forced myself to sleeeeeeeeep, it wasn't a good night and the morning wasn't very good either rah.

uh let me see, schl's great with friends no doubt :) recess was very very fun! the ice cream man came and we all got ice creams and the gang got rather high and we fed rachel with her 14 wonders haha! physics was spent reading my book, geog was spent reading my book too. a maths was gossip session with candice again heehee and pw was just.. slacking. english was spent talking to ann na and louisa in the library and listening to sad sappy songs haha.

anw its becoming a habit to kiss vicky at least once a day yay :) i lent a friend my shoulder after schl mm and i hope she feels better! sang in class then home with ry! she came over and we slacked in my room, i talking to kiddo & trying to do my a maths, she doing her eng project and us gorging down chips. ooh sinful but yummmmmmm :)

i need to shit and i think im suffering from food poisoning ah well haha!
watched her video and everything and she may be coming over later to spas!

bye my lovelies and oooh candice is teaching me logarithms online ♥

"roboboxx"

Monday, March 27, 2006 @ 11:04 PM

And suddenly ily, more |

/edit @ 1156hrs
i just popped 2 panadols to ease the wretched pain in my insanely throbbing head which is making me damn insensitive and talking shit to people. im so sorry if i've offended you. im going to bed right after doing this weird quiz su gave me haha. rahhhh my damn head :( its so painful, i'd rather you kill me.

-

~~you say hello, inside i'm screaming i love you.~~
i need to pee.

oh god, my head's killing me. and careless thoughts are running through my mind.

-

my fav bitch is not okay and its not making me very happy :(
& anw i love ry :)

"roboboxx"

Bruised |

hello world my stomach hurts i don't know why. i think my killer smile babe is awesome (hehe) i think gelare's chicken bolognaise(?) is not good man haha. so i think schl was really good today cos there was gossip time everywhere hehe, okay not good i know but what the heck. hypocrism is also really getting to be something so normal yea? and goodness, rachel lim just talked to me and her nickname is: THIS WORLD IS FULL OF HYPOCRITICAL PEOPLE haha wow, someone shares the same sentiments.

anw after schl i was running all over the place with dory charms janice charis to look for dory's phone but yeah, couldn't be found. but cheer up dearest butcher! rachel lim just called and shes spilling her frustrations out omg her voice is so high pitch haha! i found out that rachel has 14 wonders, flirt! and the last four were stolen people! hehe kidding.
sat in class after that clare shufen rachel lou and talk talk talk. left with shufen and met a friend in PS. decided to skip the crywolf movie and do homework instead. yea did geog and all, had ice cream :) yummmmmm. heartland-ed to get chips for a maths and home. i had a great time :)

aye im so bored im going to do a maths soon, great! im so prouda myself yknw :) me and rlim just praised someone we used to bitch abt haha omg. we're such evil assholes hmm. i think english class is quite fun! and so is ss yay.

tell me, whats on your mind?

"roboboxx"

Sunday, March 26, 2006 @ 4:12 PM

Ponytail parades |

/edit
okay i just browsed through my photos and $%#%*$#^(&#(%&$#! your smile gives me the butterflies. i think its gonna be my weakness soon if you don't stop smiling HAHAHA.

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term2, week1. some photos are repeated at the back so you can stop after viewing 85 haha.

let me see how my day and yesterday went. i was at home the whole day lah wth but my 2 fav people came over, and we went crazy with our funky (okay me and evie) hair styles and outfits. we went to heartland for cds and dinner in those outfits and heels!

err let me see, watched the notebook & chucky: child's play in the night. okay it was a rough night and i lost all the games played haha! got outta bed at 1240hrs and & had breakfast with my 3 sisters lol. we had a good time laughing and everything and looking at photos. my pimple hurts and i just finished my homework yay :) emaths lit & chem aye? im feeling sleepy and um i don't know what to blog about anymore.

thank you everyone for being my friend :) ♥

it doesn't feel right
holding someone else's hand

you say hello, inside im screaming i love you.
sounds morbid? haha yeah.

"roboboxx"

Saturday, March 25, 2006 @ 5:12 PM

Chariot |

archer cheerleaders are number 1 rockers and ner is, simply wonderful :) she's an awesome planner and leader. archer are champs for the overall sec schl houses. yeeha the feeling of satisfaction of winning after all that cheering was fantastic. all our effort, energy, voices were all not wasted! and the runners were simply awesome as well. i love my fellow cheerleaders! they were the best. and though i was exhasted, hot and badly sunburnt, it was worth it :) thank you candice evan kim marisse ariel grace rozand slyvia abby lou clare ner michelle ashley dianya nerissa demelza etc (i dont remember alr), you guys were lovely.

after that, cabbed down to cartel with clare lou abby yanyi julia and dali. food was yum and everything was good. kiddo came down soon after and i had a good talk with her again. oh oh and i learnt how to make straw hearts! they're really pretty. L and T came down from the clinic after getting their medicine cos they're fatally sick lol. and we all chilled at the prata shop, jenny came and dragged us all to coffee bean. so me ju L T jenny and su all sat at the bean and soaked up the aircon while i made straw hearts. left around 5 plus to collect L's skirt, both of us went to meet evie in town. dinner at billy bombers while we people watched at met a couple of people. bumped into chng woman in town, i love her. i had fun and home after that. was so exhasusted, i collapsed into bed after a shower and slept straight away.

i will upload pictures of this week, soon. im just too lazy hahaha. i think its lovely to hug someone who smells like peanut butter lol. and there's someone sleeping in my room now. mm im so bored and tired and i think im gg to watch cry wolf! :)

i just sent candice ho a little over 30 strawhearts and a note mm i hope she likes them. well, i shall go do smth now. bye lovelies ♥

my mind tells me no,
but my heart says yes.

"roboboxx"

Thursday, March 23, 2006 @ 10:08 PM

Yet, another |

/edit
omg its past midnight and im gorging on coke and cheeseburgars, how unhealthy and fattening. im gonna get fat and grow MORE pimples to my already pimple attacked face and then my insect bites are turning into really fugly scars and its so not goodlooking that i think all my friends are gonna leave me cos im turning into an ugly bitch boohoohoo :'( no im just kidding, i know my friends won't cos they're a wonderful bunch of my favourtite fab homies yeeha! im lovin' them. evie candice ho chai ry eve mary rlim vicky chng muriz abby lou dali valerie yuxuan shufen su L evie chuan min shanny nick calvin... and the list goes on and on. my lovely girls/guys are yummalicious ♥

i realised me and evie's alike in many many ways. okay perhaps it runs in the blood and we're cousins after all. was just talking to her about r/s and all & yeah, realised smthg common between the both of us. no initiative but well okay nvm. it's getting too personal. its late and i gotta be up early. i made a very, very interesting phone call to john cheo(?) just now and i laughed my brains out hahaha! shit he's damn hilarious and with evie screaming in the background made the atmosphere more crazy. there's still laughing gas in me.

today seems to be a very happy day other than the emotional turmoil i was going through just now. i was wailing and bawling to evie over the phone lol. but yeah :) like L said, shit happens. it's life. i hope i get a hashbrown for breakfast tmrw, im gonna need it. and btw, i love you evie :)

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i hate seeing the way strong people crumble. they make me feel really sad and everything, i don't know. heart pain! okay maybe i'm being extremely emotional right now i don't know why but its so weird. rah anw i hope that particular good friend of mine would really be a-okay :)

rah talking to evie makes me feel better. am on the phone with her right now, i miss her and she just told me her blog died HAHAHA wth. okay i don't know what to blog about. sports day tmrw! yay exciting and anw take care nanny! you're not the only worried one right now.

okay good night.

"roboboxx"

Never thought that i could break you |

/edit
omg my blog is so freaking pink and ugly but im putting it there to blind and annoy people hahahaha. and its working cos a friend said she needed to use shades to read my blog. my headache's return and my whole body's aching rah.
valerie's waiting for her phone and she just asked me to call her, okay great. entertainment for the both of us. now she's complaining abt her mommy aww. i think i should go off and talk to val! :) im sucha good friend hehehe.

-

i'm physically and mentally exhausted, very very exhausted. its been a long day really and i just got home from a lift from abby's mom (thank you)

well i was sleeping in half my classes. wonder why cos i slept pretty early last night. fell asleep after physics i think and i dreamt of dali?! and when i woke up, she was right in front of me staring at me wtf hahahaha. lit was sleeping lesson AGAIN (duh) and me rachel abby lou dali were singing to bimbo songs after schl in class (eg. L.O.V.E and beep) and uh after that i ran around schl till i reached class again and louisa and dali was fighting over me. dali wanted me to accompany her to gardens and lou wanted me to stay but in the end me abby dali and lou walked to gardens to meet dali's baby. oh cos she promised us a 3 bucks cab fare back to school.

cartel was hilarious, seriously. zean HAHAHA -winks. well i had a pretty good laughing time then it was walking back to schl. archer house mtg was draining. screamed cheers and led cheers. i hope tmrw would be good! i can't wait, really.
walked back to class and a couple greeted us. who else? dali and her baby hahaha. well we sat arnd and i talked to su about some stuff again. my abandoned kiddo HAHA great seeing her. more than 2 people thought i was sad & sick wth? hahaha im fine.

walked out with a couple of peeps then got a lift home.
i've had so much to say but suddenly my mind's blank rah.
never mind, we'll just keep 'em private then :)

love.

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, March 22, 2006 @ 11:26 PM

2004 |

/edit
im incredibly awestrucked.
blank __________________________.

-

today was an extremely tiring day cos number one i've got my period and secondly, i came down with a bloody slight fever. but like they said, laughter's the best medicine and 3 hours @ honey's place really cured me :) we talked about our sec 1 days and laughed our guts crooked lol. she makes me so, so happy. candice ho ming zhen, i adore you!

NEWater trip was tiring too. me and valerie tried being enthu at first but it failed after the first section ha. on the way home, i fell asleep and then yuxuan woke me up cos su called then when i was talking to su, yuxuan fell asleep on my lap HAHAHA. sleeping is contagious and oh the iPod video was taken away by miss winnie liang and she claims the songs were too rocky for her wth? lunch with candice and yuxuan at heartland and home after that with an invitation from candice ho to her place for study session which actually became heart to heart talk session. lovely honey<3

school seems horrid tmrw and im gonna skip pe and i bought chocolate for my partner who is oh so wonderful. pictures taken today will be uploaded soon. anw im kinda happy today cos i helped two people and i hope i did make them happier :) yay cos it makes me happy seeing the ones arnd me happy. okay and what abt yourself eme? ah whatever. and sorry fav. gf that i was busy and couldn't talk to you just now! take care.

im going off now, bye.

just now as i was bathing, a sudden thought flashed through my mind and i got a shock. i realised that i was hurting someone on purpose subconciously just to get back at her for the way she had hurt me. omg im such a bitch and yet i never did realised it till now.

let's get these teen hearts beating faster,
faster.

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, March 21, 2006 @ 10:40 PM

Who would have known |

/edit
i think i now know why i've been so pissy and annoying esp over the smallest matters rah. my period's here! okay wow i hope it doesnt come during camprock but yay. anw i'm glad i cheered someone up :) i should be hitting the sheets. its 0040am since the phonecall but im still thinking about alot of things ah. okay good night lovelies

/edit
i feel sick and tired of this. don't ask me what this is cos i don't know myself, this is so fing senseless urg. and you make me feel really bad about myself aye?

okay whatever im being weird again. valerie's shopping online, oh so cute tees. somehow i wish school would come faster. my friends make me so happy :)
have a great night peeps

-

currently, i feel so lethargic tired lifeless zestless and everything-less.
i just made a friend cry, okay indirectly but yeah it still matters.

well i had a short phone conversation with my favourite bitch and that made me happy. it was suppose to get clear some stuff on the behalf of someone but it became rather heartfelt and all till her mom came into her room lol. but yeah, i love her and we're gonna do smth really impt together tmrw :) but it'll still leave us with each other!

school was okay but english was really boring as usual. i presented my thing halfasleep and said smthg really stupid but oh well. recess was class clique talk? me and shufen realised the same thing about a certain someone and yeah talk talk talk with her all the way back to class mm.

after school, got some archer things straight with nerizza then back to class to wait for dali and rachel. did my physics with chai & a few others till leezoo came and yeah. me and rachel did our a maths in class till dali's mtg ended then we all went for prata which was really messy cos rachel paid leezoo a fiver to eat some really gross shit hahahaha but it was very funny. cabbed to heartland, got my things at popular and ntuc and home after that.

its 0008am and i just hung up with a friend after a very, very mind boogling and fulfilling talk but yeah, it was good :) ive got a clearer mind now mm anw thank you to that friend of mine.

uh tmrw will be a good day i hope, im gonna need to ask someone smthg impt. time to burn vicko's cd, ciao!

i've been wondering,
am i just a living doll?

"roboboxx"

Boys and girls |

hello i am in school and abigail is beside me doing our chem work but i contributed! 3 questions hahahaha.
abigail loves me and she just said: "i do." awww i love her too!
shufen is on the other computer looking fakely at acids and bases lol.

i'm so bored, school is boring and miss liang is the most boring. rachel just settled down on my right, shes so stupid and she keeps hitting me like some ah soh and now shes biting me. SHE LIKES MY CLOTHES SMELL EWWW.

wth she took a book called Teen Mothers?!?!?! i bet she needs it and shes reading "how to find out if you're pregnant" to me now hahahaha. louisa is behind me yay. i know louisa's little secret about -. hahahha. (bloop bloop the fish) and rachel likes lizard and omg she claims that lizard likes her?!?!?! rubbish lah big fish small fish. yeah maybe they both like each other hmm secret affair! HELLO -> abby

then again, cannot leh cos joelle likes rachel but rachel thinks that lizard cares about her deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep down in lizard's heart. rachel is still reading teen mothers -.- abby adds: "maybe she's preparing to be one. " and rachel retorts back, " i can be one! " and she claims that the fat chubby oversized horizontally challenged humongous big heavy woman on the cover looks like her.

okay im ending here cos we want to know who's those bitches and sluts out there who gossips about us, the high class people ;-)

"roboboxx"

Monday, March 20, 2006 @ 9:27 PM

Someone better |

/edit
isabella's telling me the funniest thing online and the scenes are playing in my mind hahhaha shit its damn funny yet gross. oh well ive got my sister's algebra homework to finish for a freaking 5 bucks but heck, practice maths!
anw everything's okay now and i'm glad

-

helllloooooo world. i'm feeling sleepy and i'm gonna continue with l word after i finished valerie's stupid blogskin hahahaha.
chng baby nicely popped by with l word season3! :D yay oh yay shane's love i tell you, she's freaking hot.

i'm almost done with a maths hw, will continue the rest tmrw. oh oh oh and i had a damn funny phone conversation just now in the evening, laughed till i cried lah omg. rebecca was trying to act as miss liang wtf?! it was damn damn funny! and rachel was screaming stupid things in the background to pretend that she was asking miss liang for help tsk.

uh let's see what else. oh thanks people for the msges and updates on homework & timetable(: anw i hope you're okay rachel lim yun shi and please cool down, your gf is here (yah lah im still your gf!)

i'm going to school tmrw. heard that miss liang had a hair cut? HAHAHAHA omg i can't wait to go back to school and see it and i also heard the change of timetable's swell, awesome! my bites don't seem to be healing hmm. okay i shall purposely spread it in schl tmrw to the ones i love love love (eg. candice chai, hahahahaha)

i feel like crying suddenly okay but NO im not pmsing or anything but what the hell.
something to look forward to: l word season 3 and evie's making a blog yay!

i miss you abigail loh, twin only one supersun/moon -hug

okay bye

"roboboxx"

Had to give you away |

/Edit
shit this is so funny. i just heard from alicia who heard from abby who heard from louisa that i have poisonous mosquito bites?! and alicia just told me they shouted that infront of the whole class omgz?!?!?! news spread fast and wild and rubbishy. i bet half the world is gonna avoid me when i return to school tmrw boohoohoo. btw i'm eating maggi mee lor mee.

i almost puked while watching I Bet You Will on mtv eww. okay i'm so bored at home. should be heading over to chng's soon i hope.

-

posted a really long post just now and then after 15 mins, i realised it was too private to be put so public haha. so i made it into a draft! its quite cool actually, since i've never used the draft thing before lol.

am currently hooked onto geek in the pink, the ponytail parades, playing with fire, i write sins not tragedies, time to dance, dark blue & but its better if you do. by panic! at the disco, emery and jason mraz mm. they're lovely songs, esp geek in the pink hee hee hee.

i think i'm gonna continue with my homework after lunch. at least i feel better now after typing everything out : )

QUIZ
1. Religion : christian
2. Church : riverlife
3. Birthday: 160691
4. Place of birth: thompson medic hospital
5. Sign: gemini
6. Male or female: female
7. Occupation: -
8. Residence: my bed
9. Screen name : love, a selfless act
10. Hair colour: black
11. Hair long or short: don't know
12. Eye colour: black
13. Skin colour: i'm a chinese
14. Height: 162
15. Weight: discreet
16. Shoe size: 6
17. Braces: i would like to
18. Glasses: yeah
19. Piercings: yeah
20. Tatoos: haha fake ones
21. Righty or lefty: right
22. First kiss: shirley
23. First bf/gf: fake or real
24. First buddy: don't remember
25. First award: primary 4
26. First sport you joined: track
27. First pet: a rabbit
28. First vacation: when i was very young
29. First concert: i don't remember

Favourite
30. Movie : i like horror movies
31. Tv show(s): i don't really watch tv
32. Colour : anything's fine
33. Band: panic! at the disco, emery
34. Song: geek in the pink!!!
35. Food: anything
36. Drink: anything
37. Candy: love chocs
38. Sport to play: im lazy
39. Sport to watch : nothing
40. Brand of clothing: fine with anything
41. Store: -
42. School program: nothing at all
43. Animal: rabbits
44. Book: anything
45. Magazine: none in particular
46. Cousin : ain't it obvious
47. Person: you
48. Place(s): my bed

Currently

49. Eating: an apple
50. Drinking: milk
51. Typing: this shit
52. Online: yeah
53. Listening to: beyonce's check on it on tv
54. Thinking about: what to say next cos someone just called
55: Wanting to: sleep
56. Watching: mtv
57. Wearing: nick's shorts and extreme shirt

Your future
58. Want kids: no
59. Want to get married: no
60. Careers in mind: none currently

Which is better with the opposite sex

61. Cute or handsome: -
62. Lips or eyes: -
63. Hugs or kisses: -
64. Short or tall: whatever's fine
65. Easygoing or serious: both
66. Romantic or spontaneous: -
67. Fatty or skinny: in between
68. Sensitive or loud: -
69. Hook up or relationship: hur i don't know
70. Sweet or caring: -
71. Troublemaker or hesitant one: -

Have you ever

72. Kissed a stranger: no, only an aquaintence
73. Ran away from home: nope
74. Broken a bone: i think so, when i was 3
75. Broken someone's heart: i hope not
76. Broke up with someone: i don't know
77. Turned someone down: yeah
78. Cried when someone died: no
79. Cried in school: yeah

Do you believe in

80. God: yeah
81. Miracles: yeah
82. Love at first sight: no
83. Ghosts: depends
84. Aliens: no
85. Angels: yeah
86. Heaven: yeah
87. Hell: yeah
88. Yourself: not really
89. Others: sometimes
90. Horoscope: no
91. Staying on a diet: eww never

okay i really am bored. g day

"roboboxx"

Sunday, March 19, 2006 @ 9:45 PM

I won't care |

The unsigned report book lies infront of me.
My heart's accelerrating in its beating.
My hands are near to shaking.
Time to face hell. Goodbye Emeline :'(

I suddenly understand what's important is quality, not quantity.
It hit me, seriously. I guess, I've been too.. materialistic.

-

Last day of the school holidays.
Surprisingly, I feel kinda excited for schl. The only turn off? Undone homework and insane waking up hours.
But ohwell, that's school for you. There'll be wonderful people to see! (Re: Valerie. Are you seeing this Gf?! HAHA)

I'm hooked onto Geek In The Pink! Its damn damn damn damn nice. Whoohoo.
I spent some time at the beach just now. It was relaxing. Dinner with Jeslyn, Pervie(:, Tanny & L @ Downtown. It was hilarious. I finally saw Pervie! And we took a picture.
Cabbed home after that.
Okay, I've got Chem w/b undone, lianbi, A maths assignmet 7, 8, 9. This is so gross.
My bites are itchy. I haven't put my medic and eaten my pills. I've got MC for tmrw, but I'm gg to school for Rachel's sake. Omg I tell you.
My chem w/b is in school(?!?!?!) I'm wonderful.

Look's like its back to copying work. Term2, time to work hard(:

What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there

What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word

Love, a selfless act.
Truely.

Sigh...

"roboboxx"

Geek in the pink |

Now I'm of consenting age to be forgetting you in a cabaret.
Somewhere downtown where a burlesque queen may even ask my name
As she sheds her skin on stage
I'm seated and sweating to a dance song on the club's P.A.
The strip joint veteran sits two away
Smirking between dignified sips of his dignified peach and lime daiquiri

-

I hate it when my friends insult my friends in front of me.
I'm bored. My itch is killing me.

Last night, I deprived Evie of sleep.
This morning, she deprived me of sleep.
She sucks lah, all in all.
My house is very noisy.

NO SHE DOESNT! i love her like how hamsters love food, how fat boys love cake. oh i love her so much. God save me from this undying love. (Obviously, not ME)

XBOX!!!!!!!!!
RAINBOX 6!!!!!!
EMELINE!!!!!
The Love of My life. :-DDDDDD (Obviously, not ME too)

I think dreams are cool. God, I'm so bored.
Okay, PUBLISH!

-

We used to love one another, live for each other
Lie undercover
So, are you friend or foe
Cos I used to know.

"roboboxx"

Saturday, March 18, 2006 @ 11:58 PM

Slight hesitation |

HELLO! I'm blogging. This is so cool. Ah hee hee hee. Clique chalet was fab, of course. Xbox was great, cycling was great with Chai cos we talked alot, sleeping with Eve and Ho was great, the food and bbq was great, Dali and Rachel (from another chalet)'s company was great, everything was wonderful :):)
Headed to Zouk which was great. 'Cept for the queues and taxi fares. We formed the longest grinding line, HAHAHA. Beach with quite a number of people after that.
Headed home, then out again with Shufen and Valerie. Chinatown then town. Billybombers milkshake's an absolute love. Home then out again to Vicky's place. Laughed over Survivor and everyone (L, T, V, M) was telling me really stupid things abt CV and chest hair. Wth LOL.

Today, errrrrr I went for cell. And left early for the clinic with Evie. I GOT SOME DISEASE! Readers, start going shopping for black clothes for my funeral. We got some cds after that, and I'm at home now. I'm tired but I've gotta watch my movies with her. My msn jammed, ultra cool. Oh and Valerie got her first skirt! WHOOHOO. And I recieved a message that scared me. But things are okay now, thankfully.

It scares me to think,
that you could find takers other than me
and better than me.

But you're head is elsewhere,
and I'm talking enough for both of us.
When will you see it's not (it's not) so easy for me
you're careless, and whispered, insulting, and bruising.

Decipher what love is.
Is it that hard to love?

-

You can be so persuasive
When you say it's
More than a day trip
And convince me
I'm condescending
When I ask, "Will this be ending?"
How quickly lust can pretend it's love

"roboboxx"

Friday, March 17, 2006 @ 12:47 PM

Hopeless love |

The same line's been playing in my mind.
Stop running away

I don't know why either.
Chalet was okay, I caught up with Ju, Dali, heart to heart talks on the hammock with Rachel. Spent time with the clique, xbox was hell fun with Ho and Chai. Everyone just made my day :) And I spent time with Eve too!
Romp @ Zouk was fun. I met countless people lah omg. Met Nick there and told him smthg hehehe. Dance dance dance, the queues were horrid. Cabbed back t the chalet, and walked to the beach. Sat down, talked abt things with Rachel. Then Su joined us. Yak yak yak, Vic Ju Eve Dali L and T were there too. Went to Macs for breakfast at 0400am then back to the chalet. Sat outside, played games with all of 'em. Headed to bed at arnd 0600am? Was patting Eve to sleep then I gave up and slept with her in the end. Woke up to find L, T and S sleeping in the chalet too omg. Home with Ry, tired as a moose. And I'm gg Chinatown to meet Val & Shufen soon.

You demand to be chased for your love
My desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long
But you don't care at all
There's nothing I can do to draw you close to me

Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you
But I'm still hoping that
I'll be with you somehow, somehow.

You still can't forget her.

"roboboxx"

Hopeless love |

The same line's been playing in my mind.
Stop running away

I don't know why either.
Chalet was okay, I caught up with Ju, Dali, heart to heart talks on the hammock with Rachel. Spent time with the clique, xbox was hell fun with Ho and Chai. Everyone just made my day :) And I spent time with Eve too!
Romp @ Zouk was fun. I met countless people lah omg. Met Nick there and told him smthg hehehe. Dance dance dance, the queues were horrid. Cabbed back t the chalet, and walked to the beach. Sat down, talked abt things with Rachel. Then Su joined us. Yak yak yak, Vic Ju Eve Dali L and T were there too. Went to Macs for breakfast at 0400am then back to the chalet. Sat outside, played games with all of 'em. Headed to bed at arnd 0600am? Was patting Eve to sleep then I gave up and slept with her in the end. Woke up to find L, T and S sleeping in the chalet too omg. Home with Ry, tired as a moose. And I'm gg Chinatown to meet Val & Shufen soon.

You demand to be chased for your love
My desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long
But you don't care at all
There's nothing I can do to draw you close to me

Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you
But I'm still hoping that
I'll be with you somehow, somehow.

You still can't forget her.

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, March 15, 2006 @ 2:31 PM

Yesterday's Letter |

I'm going off for chalet soon! :D YAY.
My stomach hurts again and I slept at 0630am.

The Besties slept over and I found out that,
I'm a plaster -.- Gross shit.
Taught 'em the Eme's way of sleeping. Heeheehee.

I'm so bored. Su woke up saying she wanted her bed and she left the house just like that. Wth?
Where's my dadddddddddddddddddd???????????????????

Tell all my friends I'm dead
I'm cheating on you
This time its for good
Tell all my friends I'm dead
It won't be long,
till you forget my name.

Note: Dreams are but, dreams. Don't take it too seriously. Its NOT, and NEVER will be a sign. Take heed. Esp to that idiot who dreamt that I.... yeah.

But then, I dreamt I quarrelled with Eve over Candice. Wth. Msged her once I got up and she said nthg like that would happen. Omg I can't wait to see her yay.

Clique chalet yeeha :)

We both know
We can't change it
But we both know
We'll just have to face it

Chaque fois que tu t'en vas
You just bring me down
Je pretends que tout va bienso
I'm counting my tears
Till I get over you

We both know that,
I'm not over you

"roboboxx"

Goodbye my lubber |

I don't know what to blog about.
I only know,
My stomach hurts damn badly.

I didn't watch Dorm in the end. Wts. I ate donuts that injure my stomach.
I hate 7-11. I'm gonna burn them down tomorrow.
Go collect the ashes and burn them somemore, peeps! WHOOHOOOOHOOO YEEEHHHHAAAAAA!!!! Power to the people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello, I don't know what to say either.
I'm bored and I'm scared of horror films.
I'm a wimp but who cares.
HAHA.

Goodbye.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow baby. I'M SO HOLLOW.
Cos just now, my lungs my heart my ribcage everything fell out of my asshole.
So I velly belly hollow and empty. Sad HOR :(

Okay this is such a random post.
Today, I.. did my homework.
Finished up Lit and an Eng compre :):) Yeeha.
My stomach still hurts.
Just kill me. End my pain, my misery, my hurt, my agony, my all! -STABS.

Clique chalet! :D Lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove.
Visit: http://matt_.blogspot.com.
Change of blogskin. (O M G)

`In

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, March 14, 2006 @ 2:55 PM

Filthy lies |

I think my blog is fing ugly. Was trying to be a cheena ahlian celebrating Chinese New Year. Omg, it sucks. Anw, I talked to Jon Lie over the phone just now! :):):):) Omg. He's ultra adorable. He asked me abt cars(!!) I think I'm melting.

I'm watching Dorm later. YAY! Finally a horror movie after so long. But for now, its homework. Hmm. Was jus reading Ry's blog. Oh yes, the generation now is so full of hypocrisy. I can't deny that I'm one myself, sometimes. As I think of what RachelC said in her msg the other day, yea. Rah things aside. Homework for now.

"roboboxx"

Celebrate all night |

I had breakfast with my mom and sissy this morn. Buffet man, my dad bought so much food. Well, woke up to the laughter of my mom, sis & maid. So dragged myself out to join them. I found out smthg ridiculous.

My maid wants to go back to Indo to cut trees rather than work for us. (?!??!?!?!?!?) Wts.

I think, she's insane. My mom's so dumb, she thinks a lesbian is a butch's gf and that a butch is not a lesbian. And she thinks that I was admiring Candice Ho cos she was pretty, 2 years back and that I didn't like her in that way. Oh god, she's so crazy. Moohaha.
I'm gg to do my homework now.

:)

"roboboxx"

Dying to tell me |

I was just going through Friendster and I happened to chance upon (okay maybe not chance upon but go purposely) onto a friend's profile. I looked through her pictures and spotted a certain picture she put up. It made me realise, how much things have changed and how we weren't how we were in the past anymore. She was someone, almost like my best friend to me. And I miss you, truely.
And Wednesday, I swear We're gonna bring the 11 of us back to like it was last year :) We're gonna rock downtown yeeha.

Ok I bet you guys know who I'm talking abt. Its so obvious.
I guess I'm gg to be. G'night.

You're not my favourite mistake
You're just a simple mistake
I thought I knew who you were
But let's just watch out

"roboboxx"

Till I get over you |

/Edit

Yet, again. says:
aLrItExXxXx... mI sHo siAnzz lEhXxx. zZzZzZzz.
Yet, again. says:
tOk 2 mI lEhXxXxxXxxXXXxxx
Me says:
oKeZzZz.... wAnNaAa go0o0o t@kEe nE0pRinTzZz nEhZz?Z?/???
Me says:
sIaNzzZ lahX.
Me says:
i dUnCh wAnX
Yet, again. says:
(Wah, We're fucking gross. HAHAHA)
Me says:
bUt hOrZz... eU tElL meEee yTdyYy eU wAn lEhZzZz
Yet, again. says:
nEbEr lOrHx,!
Me says:
gOrTt lOrHhZzZz..........
Yet, again. says:
yEw dUmB aRhx. mI nO wAnX toOk nEoZZZ wIb yEw.
Me says:
nO lOrHzZz

O m g.

-

Ok first things first, HAPPY FIRST AND SECOND MONTH to 3 of the very special people in my life :)

One's sleeping, one's eating donuts from England (!!) and one, doesn't seem very happy.
Haha what a 1st/2nd month for me. Oh nvm, there'll be a better day! Yeeha. Oh go check out Candy's blog. Its damn pretty. Yellow yellow dirty fellow, green green always win, red red never dead, blue blue whoohoo! What the shit hahaha.

Omg someone just asked Evie to ask me to add him. Omg I think he's gonna scold me for over-teasing Evie. Save me, save me! HAHAHA. Shit I'm crazy/cranky cos I'm hungry and tired and not showered. O m g.

I think All American Rejects sounds like Amber Pacific. And so, I like them both. And Valerie is very sweet. She's gonna try and save me some England donuts. Yum yum yummy.

When you walk, don't leave a note
Just put your hands on the back door
When you talk, it's just a joke
Just know, I can't take it anymore

(Down) there you go always
(See if I care) fading
(Down) don't you know where I'll be?'
Cause I'm here, on my own

Kiss yrself goodbye. -SMUAAACCKKKSSS Amigos.

"roboboxx"

Monday, March 13, 2006 @ 9:31 PM

No ones hands are strong enough, to fix what happened here. |

Evie just left. We left very funny tags on someone's blog. Heehee. Worked out with our super spassy vigorous body-jerking ass-shaking dances. Left my brains a 'lil outta place ;) But it was great. Hahaha.
I cycled to Serangoon station earlier in the evening t pass Vicko the cash for Romp. I looked like some siao people I tell you. Evie was lagging behind in rollerblades, it was damn funny. I did some A Maths work as she watched L word in the afternoon.

Clique chalet coming soon!! And a wimp just pierced her ear. Err, congrates(?)

I MISS ABIGAIL LOH CHUAN MIN, its been so long since I last called her by her chinese name.

I found telling you the truth the hardest thing to get out
I know it wasn't you that made me feel this way
Will it ever change
Or are we stuck here on our own.

And give it one more try
I don't know if I would stay
I feel so much better now
And baby begging me
Will leave you so empty inside
So you shouldn't even try
I know every last regret inside of me is my own
The way I hold them close has made me be this way
I will never change
I know I'm stuck here on my own, on my own

"roboboxx"

Till the day they burn my body |

/Edit
Evie's finally here. :DDD
She keeps on talking abt _____. Whoohoo.

Past few days been tiring, don't really remember what happened though.
Currently watching Troy, in front of the teevee w my old old laptop. Its ancient, eeyer.

On Sat, my dad didn't allow me t go out till really late cos I was stupid & didn't get good grades. So in the end, I headed to the new NL @ Bugis. It's really big and nice. L was stuck in the toilet for an hour, shitting & listening to her iPod Nano. (WTS?!) Had some food at Hans whilst finishing up my SS and some Chem.
Evie came. Sat arnd, decided t head t town. Waited at some bus stop, went high and all. Then err, the bus never came. So we cabbed t town. Cine, Taka, phototaking @ Zara. Met Val, Anna & Cal on the way. Gave 'em big bear hugs and a wet smooch for Val. (hehehe)
Home sweet home after that. Fell asleep only at 0730hrs. (Omg)

Yesterday, FCBC-ed with the most unexpected people. Leezoo & Tanny, with Evie too. Smthg happened on the train, go read Tanny's blog. Moohaha. Service was okay, saw a number of PL lites & my partner! Well, Eve didn't turn up. After tt, headed t town. Sat down, people watched. Then the 4 of us got bored and did really stupid things. (Re: Tanny's blog, again) Met up w Rachel Lim. LJ for fries then me, her, Evie & Leezoo headed t Billy Bombers for dinner. Had some cherry cola shit and the 4 of us were singing along t emo songs. Aft tt, RL cabbed the Joelle's place and the rest of us went home.

Am currently waiting for Evie's arrival. Was supposed t get my h/w done but rah look at me now. Only completed E Maths, Chem and Socials. Am I pathetic? LOL.
Tmrw will be fun cos a friend and I would be pretended t be newly weds the whole day and I'll be cooking all 3 meals. Me me me! Clique chalet starts on Wed :) Whoohoo. Have been missing 'em velly much eh.

Troy is interesting and Rachelchng(!!) is you're seeing this, lend me L word season3 after you got it okay! And I've missed you anw :)

"roboboxx"

Saturday, March 11, 2006 @ 12:08 AM

Travel space |

/Edit
I feel so freaking angsty. 01 I'm not looking forward t a long day tmrw. I wish I could stay under the covers and do my hw and hide like a retard. 02 My mom wants to see my report card tmrw. I will confirm die and be banned frm gg shopping on Sunday. 03 My damn arms hurt like shit & I don't know why. 04 Whatever I don't care.

-

I am extremely tired so I don't even know why I'm here but whatever.
Today:

I swam 3 laps (whoohoo yeeha accomplishment okay)
Missed Eve very very very very much :(
Lay in the middle of the road w Ry and got emo
I laughed like shit cos she got stuck behind the teacher's cupboard
I went spassy after E maths lesson
I got back my report card & got very upset
Went t Vicky's place t slack & watch L word
Hugged Tanny's humongous head, hahaha

Hollywood Died by Yellowcard is nice. Thanks Val! Anw, I love my girlfriends alot. And CC gave me a very sweeeeeeeeeeeeet note. Kiss kiss! Thank you everyone for encouragement. RL, me & Joelle made a pact t study hard. Yoohoo.

I think I'm gonna hit the sheets after getting a cup of water. My arms hurt and my eyes are shutting. Tmrw's gonna be a long, tiring day. I'm annoyed rah.

I'm just not gonna try anymore. It's not gonna be like before. I've given up, i'm sorry.

"roboboxx"

Thursday, March 09, 2006 @ 10:59 PM

Diamonds are a girl's best friend |

-SMUUUUAAACCCKKKKSSSSS!

Eme's camp's gonna be a blast. And so is chalet.
I feel happy now.
My number 1 baby! :D

And I visited Vicky just now. She's crazy & she showed us this sexy video of Terminator3. And we massaged Tanny's ass.

Bye world. My grades suck.

"roboboxx"

Why am I so fucked up?
I'm sorry I've let you down, Mom.

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, March 07, 2006 @ 6:17 PM

/Edit
Candice is over at my place doing maths in the living room. She's tearing cos shes stressed. It's 2308hrs alr. Omg. Go Candice! I love you :)

-

My mom invited a pastor over to do house blessing.
W t h. Whao, man.
I'm waiting for him to prophesize that I'm gay.

HAHA.

"roboboxx"

Monday, March 06, 2006 @ 10:41 PM

Someday you will be loved |

Don't you find, that its different? From a year ago, or even maybe 2? Cos, I do.

-

Now, when I hear a bang from 3B2's classroom or any noise of violence, I'm flying over immediately. Confirmed.
T'day, dad picked me from schl @ 1050am. Dumb classroom was locked so I left schl w/o my bag. Best, man. Anyhow, visited the doctor who was an asshole. He sucked and my dad even scolded him once. Home home home, talked t RachelL on the phone. She and I were laughing half the time, I swear. She sent me some really.. funny messages. A friend came over t visit, who slept on MY bed, like she was dead, and I was the maid. (Okay redundant, but it rymthes)
Watched finished Dolphin Bay shit! :D YAYYYYYYYY.

Dinner and off t Chai's place. Guess what, I went over to watch her cut paper. Like wth man. Shes sucha retard. Well slacked arnd, saw Eve when I left. Rushed off to dance class. Ride home was per usual, singing & spassing. Ah hee hee hee. Schl tmrw, need t call Rachel now & reply Pris pris's msg! Ahhhhh. BYE!

Move along, move along..

"roboboxx"

Sunday, March 05, 2006 @ 1:46 PM

I don't love you |

Omg. I'm in shock. Blank _____________________________________

/Edit
Being sick makes me feel like a princess :) Chng baby brought my fav flower, chocolate, yogurt and oranges over. Yummm. I love Chng! Spent some time w her while she complained abt the mess in my room. It was damn damn messy. Slept from 1330hrs to 5plus when she came and woke me up. My sister was being extra nice too. She bought Macs home and shared her nuggets and apple pie with me. Hee hee. Eve's messages make me happy.

Schl tmrw. I should be gg as I feel better now. Macbeth play, here I come.
School starts for the JC kids alr. All the best & have fun man! & don't be scared.

-

Look how they fight.
When actually beneath all those sensibilty and maturity, there's still, a childish side.

-

Hello, I am down with fever. And so is Rachel Lim. She sent me a really sweet message this morn. Hmm. I don't think I can go out with Chng but I want to. I am so.. sad cos my throat hurts. My maid wants sponge my head. Okay, she just passed me the cloth and I'm balancing it on my forehead alr. Haha. I look so stupid.

Last night, a friend read Enid Blyton to me as a bedtime story. The Magic Jug and Tuppeny. Hee hee hee. I found it very funny. Ate strawberries and panadol and chatted on the phone till 3?

Okay, I'm gg for lunch and homework. Take care peeps :)

"roboboxx"

Saturday, March 04, 2006 @ 10:05 PM

Sing yr song |

My dad reads my pts. I'm dead. He shouted at me today :(

I woke up sick t'day. Down with a very annoying fever and sore throat. Couldn't make it out for service and also had t visit poor Ahma. She just went for her 2nd eye op. Evie came over t visit. Shanny could make it but Kang couldn't. So it was just me & Evie.

We made fondue! And cookies & cream milkshake. It was fab :) Just that I burnt my thumb. Ate while watching Dolphin Bay. Night approached, we just layed on the bed and talked. Till we came up with an outrageous idea. Since me and her could not go for Romp@Zouk, we're gonna have our own clubbing session in my room! Omg, it was hilarious. We dressed up (we looked like sluts, oh my), took pictures and videos of ourselves. Hiphop was blasted and we were kicking shit off my bed. Had many laughing fits. Had alot of fun with her. She just left! Pictures will be uploaded, 'cept the ones in our clubbing outfit cos its damn scanty and skimpy.

Our fondue, our milkshake, me and her tasting it, me and her on top (no bottom heehee), the dress i designed.
Pretty pretty, i love Evie.

"roboboxx"

Friday, March 03, 2006 @ 11:04 PM

All the love |

/Edit @ 0251hrs
I just realised.. I don't know a single chord on the guitar. Wth.
I don't wanna know,
Shi qu ni, you duo tong.

Okay Eme, too much of Dolphin whale shark prawn bay. LOL.
I'm gonna spend time with Rachel C on Sunday. She's a happy girl now. Makes me glad t see her so happy.

-

:):):):):):):) Hello happy Eme.
I've brought a guitar home t'day. Joelle's.
I'm gonna strum it t my toys. Happily.

-

I had alot of fun today! I love the 7flowers. Ah hee hee hee. Towned with RachelL Val Candice Chai and Yuxuan after schl. Lunch in BillyBombers was splendid. Milkshake's good and spinich is realllll good. Had alot of good laughs. Headed t window shop and Candice Val and Yuxuan left for home. So me and my dearest Rachel were left.

God, we went crazy. Shopping spreeee! Walked t Far East. Visited more than a million shops, got a shirt and some earrings. Saw many sexy underwear. Walked like hell. We were damn tired. We planned our next shopping spree next week. I love her! We took this really cool cab home. And there was a tv with mikes and karaoke. Omg cool. Sang "The Hardest Thing" and all. Ha. Rachel makes me so happy :) Hee hee. We've found so many cool shops w cheap clothes t'day, yay!

Home. Too tired t head t Vicky's place. Here's some photos of today:

Justina, Alicia, me. They're really sweet.

As you can see, how crazy me & this babe is.

Silly girl. She's real adorable.

Retarded her with the pretty pony :)

Dali's pink haven. LOL.

They're really sweet. Gimme!

Yr royal princess. Oh my gawddd. Hehe.

We've got real funky shades.

Eme, Yuxuan, Rachel, Val and a cut Candice @ BillyBombers!

Love.

"roboboxx"

Thursday, March 02, 2006 @ 10:34 PM

What if one day I said:

"I'm sorry but I've had enough of you, my toy."

What's gonna happen then?

Haha. Random question. Talked to Valerie for a very long time. I love her :) She's very funny.

I never dreamt it'd be this way
I lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you, say that I love you
Will someone please tell me I'm okay

I wasn't prepared for what's to come
A life made of memories gone so young
And now I'm regretting all I've done
But in your heart know that I'm with you all along

I'm sorry I'm just not good enough for you.
And yea, the very worst part of you is definately, Me.

-

I think I'm the worst coward on earth.
When I'm scared, when I don't know what to say, I run, I hide.
I don't face it like how I tell people t be strong and go for it.
I don't practice what I preach. I suck, world.
Suck me into yr big black hole in outer spaceeeee. Yeehah.

"roboboxx"

/Edit
I just checked my performance tracking and told my mommy.

Me: Mom I'm damn sad. I've got A1 for Chemistry.
Mom: Very good, very good.
Me: But I failed my Physics. And my A Maths.
Mom: -touches my face. Very sad, very sad. -gives the disappointed look.

Ohmygaaaawwwwddddd :(

/Edit
Okay, now I'm feeling very frustrated and angsty. Ah save me baby mudskipper. Where are you :(
Still in the shop i supposed. I still think I'm really stupid leh.

I hope Vicky takes her time t contact me. I'm very lazy t leave my house. HAHA.

-

I'm very sad today.
My sister gave me a kik-kat t cheer me up.
:)
She knows how I'm feeling.
I hope my baby mudskipper will be my new best friend. Yaye.

Bye bye world. You suck.

"roboboxx"

Psst... |

I... miss You.
-Giggles.
(Gay alert!!!)

I will play CS with You.
I will give in to You.
I will make milo for You whenever You want Me to.

BUT.

I will NOT allow You to be the breadwinner.
(CAUSE I AM THE MAN!)
I will NOT take care of kids.
I will NOT take out the garbage.

(Whoops. I forgot. We've alr gotten a divorce)

I am so bored now and,
I feel sick, literally.
And...
It's all because of You.
(You know what You did!!!)

You know, I can ramble all day and not stop.
But,
All good things have to come to an end.

So,
G'night, lovely dreams.

P/S: I'll be back.

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, March 01, 2006 @ 10:27 PM

Unholy confessions |

Okay I definately feel much better now. Sorry for such an angsty post.
Dinner with the two was hilarious. Met up with them after 2 long years and we just kept talking about everything. They remembered things I did two years ago for this particular someone. How I cried and called one of them and all. Oh my god. I swear I don't even remember doing all this shit. HAHAHA.
Damn embarrarssing. Found out that this guy, Eric, cut my name on his hand?! Like wth. I had no idea, seriously. Found out alot, alot of things. Teased Brendon abt his particular someone from 2 years ago. It's been so long. Both of them have changed so much. Brendon, so tall and good looking. And Lincoln, he smokes. Like, omg. Dinner at Fish & Co @ Parkmall (Omg V day!) with them was nice. They're good company, really. Really nice t talk t and everything.

Left for home arnd 9. Dropped by Candice's place t give her a quick motivational hug.
Rachel's words brought me light. She's one wonderful babe and I really thank God for her.

I wanna play CS soon. Chew chew chew! Make some time leh. The other time was cos we were both too lazy & ended up lying by yr pool. LOL.
I think I was rather dead after schl whilst having lunc w Candice Chai, Julia, Abby & Minghwee. Sorry!

Anyway, Lit now. Tata. =)

"roboboxx"

Lost a chance t say that I miss you |

For you I'll take one breath
And leave you with the memories you'll forget
For you I'd wade my life away
Just to be with you and to never feel this way

It's been so long ever since I've felt like this. Like an asshole.
Never have I ever felt so stupid in my life. I mean, come to think of it. Who is as dumb as me to get F9s for both E and A Maths? God, I must have been very, very stupid. And for failing Physics to? I'm better off dead.
It's not like I want to fail. It's not like I didn't study my ass off. It's not like I didn't have tuition. It's not like I want to let my parents down. It's not like I'm not paying attention in class. It's not like I haven't tried my best.

So. Why? What is wrong w me?
My head is hurting really, really badly.

And someone just had to say some things to me t'day tt made me not very happy. Okay maybe it's my fault. After all, I've got a choice whether to feel miserable or not. So yeah, my fault. Blame me.

Plus, getting lectured infront of the whole school in the morn during silent reading is very annoying. And people coming t tell you, "Eh, you got scolded ah?" or "Eh, what happened?". I swear, I could kill Ferng. She's an asshole.

To add on, it's not very nice seeing a bloody bitch talk back t yr good friend and make her cry and very angry. It's really not very nice. Bitch, burn burn burn in my oven. You deserve t die for the way you twist yr bloody words and accuse people w/o evidence.
And it really sucks to see so many people arnd you crying/feeling upset.

The annoymous note on my table didn't make me feel any better. It was damn irritating. I hope whoever tt culprit is, will just die or get killed by Miss Gan.

The weather pushed me t my limits. I feel very angry. And my terrible muscle pull in both legs hurts like crap. I can barely walk properly. Perhaps tmrw I'll wake up not being able t walk and get t skip schl. And trng. Ha but wait. I'm getting mudskippers with Veegay. So maybe not.

A daily dosage of Eme's mood swings. My mom wants t get me a damn lousy Maths tutor.
Anyway, don't bother saying anything t me right now. Yr words will just be upon deaf ears. I'd not feel any better from hearing words like "cheer up", "it'll be okay", "you'll do better next time." Seriously, it won't help.

-

I miss the days in 2B2'05 where everyone was so close and it was easier t let yr emotions out. I miss 2B2, the days when Eve was there.

"roboboxx"

Tuesday, February 28, 2006 @ 5:36 PM

Indifferent |

400 & 100m heats t'day. Waited f a damn cab under the scorching sun w Julia & Meiyang for damn long, man. I pray and hope and wish and beg tt I do not get in for finals. But I doubt I will as I didn't run my best. But my 100m race had only 4 runners so I don't know man. Home with Vic, kept teasing her. Hahaha.

My 400ms ah, what brought me down was my mentality. Last 100m when I was supposed t sprint, my mind was turning in wheels, "so tired, so damn tired." I suck man.
E Maths and A Maths were a big blow t me in schl today. Failed both rather badly. Wanted to submit my bodeh t the pontianaks.
50% of the class failed f the Maths. Me and Lou and RLim are the F9-ers for Add Maths. Best man, best.

I am damn damn hungry. I'll plant a big fat wet kiss on anyone who would deliver me ~~real good~~ food. My stupid sissy wants t order Macs. I'm chatting w her next door. Ha...

Msged Brendon the whole night. 2 long yrs I tell you! Discussed abt the Tammy incident & all tt shit. And Lincoln was teasing me abt ------. Omg, TWO YEARS PLEASE.
I'll be seeing 'em tmrw. =) Yeee-pee.

I need t go and shit. Will blog abt the gay book I borrowed soon. Tata!

-

Him: I like you.

Him: I've never looked at a girl the way I looked at you. I've never even thought of liking you. I never wanted to admit, I even forced myself not to admit. Do you know, how much courage I took to admit this truth? The only reason why I'm controlling yr life, is because you've alr started controlling mine.

(She starts crying)

Her: How come I don't even know, if you're lying t me. One minute, you look so truthful. Do you even know if you're saying the truth, or a lie?

(He looks shocked)

Him: Everything I say is the truth. I've never been so serious.

Her: Really? But that's not how I feel.

(She walks away)

Short scene from the Dolphin Bay gay show. I translated it from Chinese t Eng. So it may sound pretty.. funny. But the guy's really hot, so I don't give a shit. Whoohoo.

"roboboxx"

Monday, February 27, 2006 @ 11:02 PM

Shaking that sexaye thing |

Dance class was tiring. I seriously had 0 energy.
Baby turn around and let me see that sexaye body go bump bump bump
Random song lyric, i like.

Spasm all the way home w Ry. My, my. It's been so long since we last did that. It was very hilarious. LOL. I've got alot of things t say but this ain't private so I can't say much. So annoying. Rah. On Wednesday night, I'd be meeting up w a few buds whom I haven't seen in a couple of years. How exciting! =) Wonder if they've changed. Lincoln, Li Ying and Brendon for dinner. Wow wee.

Cleeeeeeeeeeeek chalet is very exciting leh! Heeheehee.
I think I'm mood swinging. I'm being very rude t people online and I'm ignoring people's msges. Okay, my dad annoys me and I'm very sleepy. I shall finish up my Tamil Tigers shit, my A Maths file & notebook then it'll be hello bed!

G'night. =)

-

Many times, John had wanted t say those 3 words t Sally. But what, what held him back? Was it b'cos he wasn't sure of how he was really feeling and didn't want those 3 words t be, just words? Or was it b'cos, he was still afraid of loving? Sally didn't know, she was confused. She loved John. She wanted t know what John was thinking but yet, is John willing t open his heart t Sally? Or is he still afraid of being hurt like he had always been?

Stay tuned, t find out.

"roboboxx"

Fresh '83 |

Thank you Nicholas Kang. W/o you, I would never know how lovely hip-hop can be. And thank you for yr iPod last Saturday. I would have blown at Shanny if I didn't have it. Haha.
Last Saturday's SEEN outing was.. different. We headed t Kang's place & watched the Drama Fest video from 2 years ago. And it definately brought back countless memories abt how things were between the two of Us. And the barrier tt stopped us from being tgth 2 years ago, barely means anything t me now. But ohwell, it's the past. It's over.
His superhot brother, Christophere Kang sent us home at arnd close t 0100hrs. Even Shanny was oogling over him ;)

Headed t Kovan w Evie the next morn. Had lunch @ Pizza Hut, did my Geog & Add Maths. Evie had t go home so I headed t Macs alone t do my work. Gorilla joined me, thankfully or I would have died of boredom. So headed home & watched At the Dolphin Bay till midnight. Slept really late and I almost died in schl this morn. Tsk tsk.

I borrowed two books from school t'day. Two very gay books called "Making Friends" and "Live yr Life" or smthg like tt. Was reading it out t the gang during lunch. LOL. It's really good leh! Will type out some parts later on. Vicko Tanny L Yanyi and Clare are coming over. Brokeback Mountain time! =D

I'm currently very sleepy & I think Joelle's a very funny person. Ha. Random but, yea. She came and sat beside me and told my partner, "I miss my Emeline dear. I want t sit w her." I almost puked but I was half asleep.
PC lesson's hottest topic today: SEX. Best man, best.

And:

Clique Chalet @ Costa Sands Downtown!
15th-17th of March.
BBQ on the 15th nigh & Romp @ Zouk on the 16th night.
Abt 20bucks per person.
Every clique member must make it okay? It's gonna be a blast. =)

And maybe Rachel Lim's having a chalet frm the 12th-14th. Omg so freaking exciting! March hols, here I come!
And Evebaby: Cheer up! I love love love you. And don't feel discouraged. It's only been one test, there's so many ahead.
Shufen too! All smiles lovelies.

Ta.

"roboboxx"

Thursday, February 23, 2006 @ 11:16 AM

Her own way |

I'm so sleepy. Came home from school not long ago with Rui Zi. She's down w fever and I'm.. not feeling very well. Was coughing like mad during A Maths test. And speaking of A Maths test, it was such a let down. The first few questions were easy peasy, and the last one came as a shocker. And it was a freaking 12 mark ques! Rerh.

So left the schl during PE period. Cabb-ed home as Mom was too busy t fetch me. Came home, dug through the encyclopedia for monsoon asia, nthg. Went t Dad's room t read phamplets and talk abt IT fair and this coming hol. He's gonna get the 3 xbox games I requested and then I'm gg to rent my xbox games out for money! Whoohoo.

Well, got t head t Heartland soon t buy the stupid atlas cos non of my family members has it. The gorilla is such a sleepyhead, so I have t go alone. Or w my maid. And omg, my maid is gg home once her contract is over in April or so. This is so fun! Independent Eme. Okay dream on man, dream on. The house is gonna be a war site, confirmed.

Will be heading t VS to support the badminton peeps. All the best, man. Beat TK and go crazy. I'd better get moving. I'm gg to get the book The Five People You Meet In Heaven too. I'm very excited. And currently, I am very bored. I should go check out the Pure Geog notes I got last night on Monsoon Asia. Or perhaps, watch At the Dolphin Bay :D That show is love love love.
Guess what, I'm gg t study Lit and Geog. LIT LEH. Believe it. -Smirks.

And aww Veegay loves me.

-

She's my psycho girl
She's my psycho girl friend

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, February 22, 2006 @ 5:01 PM

The truth |

Same old mundane day, once again. Dragged myself up, schooled, had test, lunched w lovely people, cabbed home. It gets really boring, especially when the lesson seems t drag on forever. To Clare, English is Bitching lesson while for me? English is Let-Joelle-Touch-Me lesson. Best man. Her fav word: I love you. But yea, she doesn't mean it. Getting told off by teachers, arguing with teachers, spite them. Laughing w friends, eating, bitching, gossiping. Studying, sleeping, making noise.

That's yr typical day at school. Doesn't it get very boring? Just like a cycle. The same old carousal everyday. Oh not t forget, that bloody hot sun tt just kills everyone slowly. Wonderful, most wonderful. And having people t remember the day I broke up with Her instead of me remembering it myself. Ain't I pathetic? Ha.

Perhaps, I'm just having my daily moodswings. Or perhaps, life really is too colourless. The thought of having t pratice A Maths later on, irks me.

Btw, one smile Candice Ho gives me is enough to make my day. Seriously. Though I know she might not read this due t being so caught up w work and comp, I still love love love her :)

-

Love is, a Sunday morning with the blanket wrapped around your waist.
Love is, the way your lips seems to curve when you say my name.
Love is, and when I'm stressing like the world's turnin' upside down.
Girl it all makes sense when you're around.
Love is, kisses in a bean bag chair the two of us with no one there
Love is, the moment that I climb the stairs to hold you in my arms after we made love.
Love is, waking up to see your face, or kissing in the morning rain.

(( Love Is; -Backstreet Boys ))

No no no. That is not what love is. To find out what love is, first you've gotta have trust in yrself, and the other party.

"roboboxx"

Monday, February 20, 2006 @ 5:24 PM

Bring me down |

Yet another day has gone by. Not a word from you and I do, miss you so much. But no, not once am I gonna let my pride get me down.
Life is so mundane. The same thing day by day. The same rollercoaster emotions. The same faces, feelings, weather, place, lessons, voices. Feeling high, feeling low. The same, the same.
Sometimes, I really want you back so much. Its different, not having you here.
Not feeling you, hearing your voice, reading your messages. Whenever I reach for my phone to send a message to you or dial your number, I save myself in the nick of time & stop myself.
My, am I pathethic. I just want you to be there, like you were. Whenever I needed someone to rant, to complain.

Girl, you drive me crazy.

"roboboxx"

Sunday, February 19, 2006 @ 11:33 PM

Try it on |

Yet, again. It's been so long since I last felt this way. Torn between staying on, and letting go. What should I do? After a week, I don't wanna realise that I'm over you. Cos it'll just mean, I didn't love you all that much. I don't wanna know that. It'll just be hurting you and hurting me. I don't want to have wasted so much time on you and bringing your hopes so high.
We ARE taking a huge risk in this one week apart thing, and I really hope, it'll turn out okay in the end and that we'd both be happy.

I don't know what the outcome's gonna be but I have the feeling, it's gonna hurt one of us. Almost, I wanted to tell you to stop giving up on her. She's much better than me. She's got the great legs, look & all. She can make you happy in a way I can't and you've liked her for so long. So many tears you've wasted on her, so much time, so much heartache. It'll be a pity just for you to let go, ain't it? But I don't wanna seem like I'm pushing you away at the same time cos I really do, love you.

Gawwwdddd. What should I do, seriously.

The very worst part of you, is me.

"roboboxx"

Wonder what it's like |

Things to do:

~~Go for my run~~
Get my A Maths done
~~Get Joelle's Snicker bar which I ate last week~~
Watch my Korean dramas
Reply Amandal's postbard
Study more Physics
Pack my shit
Photocopy 40 copies of Miss Liang's shit
Plan birthday board

Things I've done:

Reserve my shorts :DDD (I'm getting it next week! YAY)
Studied some Physics
Had milkshake from Billy Bombers and Macs
Download songs
Watched Leofold and Kate, lovely movie
Learnt something about life
Planned on going shopping

-

Isn't it so very annoying when someone comes and tell you, "I don't think you love me cos if you did, you won't be doing this or that." I think it really pisses me off. It shows how little trust that particular person has in you. Rah.
The past 2 days, I've been thinking over and over again about the things Candice Chai told me. And I've made up my mind. Choose my friends wisely, trust those whom are trustworthy. After what I've gone through, what I've heard, I'm actually.. scared. Oh god.

Off for my run! Ta.

She has a week..

"roboboxx"

Saturday, February 18, 2006 @ 3:15 AM

I'd do anything to make it up to you |

Its 0314hrs. I just hung up with Candice Chai. A 3 plus hour phone call. Wow, her. Best right. I mean, I never expected myself to have such a deep conversation with her. And our conversation, was seriously like verbal diarrhoea. Everything inside us poured out. And time flies when we talk to each other though we've never done it before and she says she feels comfortable talking to me! :D Hee hee hee. It was a good talk. We've come to realised people's flaws and insensitivity and I'm learnt to be more wary of certain people arnd me. Thank you Candice.

I'm hungry leh. Evie fell asleep so fast. I'm supposed to call her back. We need to discuss abt tmrw. Since I might be gg for the ACJC funfair. Should I? Its damn freaking far. I velly belly tired. I think I should go sleep alr.

And I wanna add, I love Eve. And I really really miss her so much until I welly sad :(

"roboboxx"

Friday, February 17, 2006 @ 8:42 PM

I can't believe its true |

[Edit]
Eh actually come to think of it, I don't give a f on what you're saying. And I don't really care lah huh? Whoohoo yeah baby yeah :)
For now, I'm gonna have the time of my life w my GirlfriendS & Sharity Ele!
[Editted]

School was okay. I don't wanna go into too much detail as it was pretty frustrating at the same time. Test after test after test. Chem Eng Chinese. It was, torturous. Smthg upsetted me and sweet Yuxuan, Abby, Louisa & Rachel Lim were there. And Shufen, thank you for saying those 2 sentences. They're not hurting you, you're hurting yourself. I guess, it really makes sense. Its all up to me, my feelings, my thoughts. I control it, not them. What I think, is what I am.

Vickooo's class after schl. Talk talk talk. Went with her to the first aid thingy. Back to class after that. Talk to Rachel & friends. Had fun with Miss Liang, Mr Lim & the class deco. Miss Liang fetched me and Valerie to Bugis after school. Miss Sandra Ang smacked me in the car cos I called her fat. Ahaha.

Talks over Ramen dinner with Valerie is love :) Good food, good friend. Wonderful really.
Cabbed home talking to the loveliest cousin who's feeling oh so depressed. And Rachel Lim, cheerup!

I just heard abt something that made me feel so angry. Someone's trap just had to be so wide. I'm freaking annoyed. Don't need to show your "concern" in this manner. Well, thank you. Whatever man, seriously.

-

Well, you seem fine and happy right now and that's all that matters. Soon you'll come to realise, you'd be better off without me. Everything ends sooner or later. Us?
Just sooner.

I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved

"roboboxx"

Do you remember |

I'd better do well for my Chemistry tomorrow. I think I'll end up wearing specs again. 3 hours of sleep, once again. Shiok Emeline, shiok. I'm finishing up with Chapter 3 and I'm online. I got myself a new tutor to coach me A & E Maths. It'll better be productive or I swear I will kill her.

Anyhow, I'd better hit the sheets soon. Better remember to bring Shufen's caffeine and Cher's heels. I'll be having dinner with my Gf, Valerie tmrw. Oohlala. I haven't done my A Maths h/w. I am THAT screwed alr. Reading Rites ain't done either.

Okay, I managed to get 2 burdens off my shoulders today. Ah shiok ah. The "shiok" feeling will not last, definately. But whaddeheck. I've learnt, live for the moment.
Chem test, chem test. I will do well.

I belly sleepy but I'm not done studying. I must stop blogging! Oh, I showed my 2003 blog to Tanny and Su. Omg they laughed at me like hell. It was damn funny. Anyhow, I think the both of them are two very wonderful people and yes, I really have to thank them cos I'd be clueless without them :) My slave and my kiddo.

My brains foggy due to lack of sleep and overdosage of Chem. I currently am numb to all types of feelings. So ask me if I'm okay and the answer would be yes.
What have I just done? Perhaps realization will hit me full blast, tmrw.

Night.

"roboboxx"

Thursday, February 16, 2006 @ 10:01 PM

Sure I hope you choke on every word you spoke when you were screaming at me.
And realize how many times I've tried, but that's wishful thinking.
All I want is an apology for what you did and how you treated me.
Get me far away, or at least as far as this car will take me.

I don't know why I'm still hanging on when every sign already points to two words. Letting go.
Maybe it wasn't worth it. Maybe it was a mistake. Maybe it really wasn't meant to be.
And now, I'm not feeling as secure as I used to feel. And I guess, I should prolly talk things out with you besides hiding behind this computer of mine like a freaking coward.

"roboboxx"

Is there anybody out there |

[Edit]
Rachel Lim doesn't want to come my house because Xue Er is online. WTH.
[Editted]

I learnt something just now while watching this particular show. Humans are just like waves. Calm and peaceful at times, stormy and furious at times. Waves gets all stormy and the tides get high whenever wind is strong and a heavy rain is approaching. However, when there are no weather changes or whatsoever, the waves are smooth and fine. Humans are just like that. When nothing provokes them or pushes them, they're fine. But when someone or something comes along and pressurizes them, that's when anger arises.

Okay I'm so gay.

-

School was okay. I was in a daze the entire day. Wanted to go home after Lit test but my mom was too lazy to fetch me. Skipped Physics and PE. Spent time w Rachel Chng and Marisse. Talk talk talk. I went without my specs and contacts, maybe that's why I was so tired and blur. I'm talking to Rachel Lim on the phone who forgot to bring her Chem book home when there's Chem test tmrw. HAHAHA. She belly funny leh. Ta.

Lean on me
When you're not strong
I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
But, you didn't need me. Sadly.

-

Lovely people who always make my days.

"roboboxx"

Kiss and make up |

[Edit @ 0234hrs]
Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straightjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was over,

But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you would be,
That face is tearing holes in me again

Trust you is just one defense off a list of others,
you don't make sense
Beg me time and time againto take you back now,
but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was over

But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you would be
That face is tearing holes in me again,
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when that memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear it falls away

Straighjacket Feeling -The All American Rejects.
Heard the song in Rachel's zen today in class. Yummy, it is.

Oh God, its so late. I'm not really done w Lit but I'm gg to bed. Started at 2000hrs but I'm still at it. Of course, there were distractions. Like fighting with Tanny about whatever shit, spassing about Chong See Hui being Lady Osama, planning to skip - with Evie to go out w SEEN, complaing to Shufen & Valerie, listening to Rachel Lim rant, arguing with Su over grandma/kiddo shit. Ahaha. But well, I felt better. Vicky the sexy's wonderful. I love love love her. I wanna kill her and eat her. Hee hee hee.

Well, I'd better hit the sheets soon. I can't wait to give Justina, Alicia, Joelle & Rebecca their V day present. I like seeing people happy. Yay.

After all the things I heard today, how else am I suppose to react? I'm actually.. scared.

Night night lovelies.
[Editted]

Emeline, you've got to learn, not all the time in your life, there's gonna be someone beside you to hold your hand and tell you its gonna be okay & to help you push down whatever hurdle you're facing. There are times, you've gotta face these hurdles alone and learn to jump over it. You can't be too dependent on one. Its time, to learn to be independent and handle this certain part of your life, alone.

And now, I must do smthg about it. And stop being such an effing coward. Ha.
You're not Macbeth Emeline, you're stronger than that. You know it.

"roboboxx"

Wednesday, February 15, 2006 @ 10:34 PM

Only you can save me, oh can't you see |

Eh, best lah. Look at the convo between Shufen & I:

Bitch bastard jerk liar flirt cheat(ME) says:
I think i'll fail tmrw's paper
ALBINO GAY how could you sleep ?you blockhead (HER) says:
you wont
ALBINO GAY how could you sleep ?you blockhead says:
just write some sense
Bitch bastard jerk liar flirt cheat says:
IVE GOT NONE
Bitch bastard jerk liar flirt cheat says:
AHAHAHA
ALBINO GAY how could you sleep ?you blockhead says:
yeah i forgot your emeline
ALBINO GAY how could you sleep ?you blockhead says:
its hard to find sense in you

[Edit]
AHHHHHH HOW TANNY HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
Wtf lah I wanna kill myself.

I belly belly scared already :(
[Editted]

Yeah okay. I'll leave you alone, since you want it that way.
Seriously, whatever man.

-

Shit I sound like a bimbo. Ha. Eh and WTH. I became a maid/slave in a span of 3mins. My dearest cousin has eloped with Tanny Wong, in the woods making babies already. And I'm their SLAVE. Bloody hell. I'm gonna kill you two.

Anyway, Rachel/Boobsy! We've still got each other. And CHEERUP okay. It'll be okay. Love love love!

"roboboxx"

Love is..? |

Happy Valentine's Day.
It was okay. Celebrated Val's birthday. Happy 15th Girlfriend! Watched I Not Stupid 2 for the third time. Had lunch at Fish 'n' Co @ Parkmall. The ice cream was yum. Marisse, L, Tanny, Vicko were there too. Slept over Vick's place the night before. Tanny was there. Went crazy, laughed like hell.

Met with Jenny Su Yuqi after the movie. Trained t Serangoon. Cabbed for prata. Home w L. SS studying (which sucked). L became my maid, wonderful. She served me unsweetened milo.

SS was scewded today. Poor time management. Byebye Sushi Tei treat. (I am belly sad.) Stayed back after school for cell. Everyone left 'cept Rachel Lim and Louisa. Clare came to 3B1 and lo and behold, gossip session. =D It rocked. A mindmap was created and I heard alot of things. Haha. Cabbed home after that. Oh, we studied in school too.

Lit paper tmrw. All the best peeps. And thanks Abigail, Yuxuan, Shufen, Amandal, Victoria, Rebecca, Alicia, Justina, Eileen, Candice Chai, Vanessa, Jolyn, someone who gave me a candle and someone who gave me snickers for the V day gifts.
Alicia was damn cute. She gave me this big box of coffee sweets, a packet of warheads and a very sweet letter which reads "You're so hot, you fry my brains and melt my heart." The sweets were to keep me awake, seriously. Thanks babe, you're so cute.

-

For the story on the previous post, the ending is unsured of as no one can predict the future right? So stay tuned. Would Sally break up with John, or not?

Lit time. Tata.

"roboboxx"

No more sad songs |

Sally and John had been a couple for a month. However, Sally knew that John hadn't gotten over Girl A, a girl that John used to like before Sally was in his life. Though she knew, she did nothing about it and continued loving John in this r/s, dismissing the liking for Girl A as something he would get over in a matter for time.

Little did Sally know, John was falling for Girl A all the time they've been messaging. As Girl A and John were still friends. Everyday, he messaged her, everyday she replied. Little did John know that deep down, Sally was feeling this huge sense of insecurity but she just didn't mention it to anyone, due to her huge pride and ego. Day by day, thoughts of a breakup crossed her mind but never did she want to say anything as she didn't want to hurt him. Already, he was so scared of loving Sally cos he didn't want to be let down, to have his heartbroken. Too many times, has it happened to him and he was afraid of loving once again. Therefore, she promised herself to only allow him to hurt her, and never her to him. Noble as it may seem, it tormented her.

Right now, Sally's confused. She doesn't know what to do. Torn between hurting herself & hurting him, she concentrates on her Literature exam.

Okay what the hell Emeline.

-

Readers: Please don't read too deep into the story because it is just, a story.

"roboboxx"

Monday, February 13, 2006 @ 5:12 PM

Am I over us? |

Two hundred miles away from home.
Two hundred miles beneath this lake is where my heart belongs.
But you don't care at all
You wouldn't even smile if I were screaming as the water filled my lungs, oh my lungs.

You demand to be chased for your love.
My desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long.
But you don't care at all.
There's nothing I can do to draw you close to me.

Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you.
But I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow, somehow.

Please be home tonight.
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right.
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel,
Every time you're here.

What would it take for me to be with you?
I swear I'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed, please be impressed.
I'd go so far to please you but I bet you wouldn't care at all, oh at all.

Hopeless love please leave me.
This broken heart is far too weak to run for you this long.
Why don't you care at all?
I'm dying for a place in your heart.

Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you.
But I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow, somehow.

Please be home tonight.
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right.
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel,
Every time you're here.

Hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?
This broken heart is too weak to hold your weight.
And now I regret the day we met.
And help me forget your name.

Hopeless Love - Daphne Loves Derby

"roboboxx"

To be the last one who will sing you to sleep |

Happy V day.
I recieved a blue gebera today. I'm very happy.
Cos geberas look like sunflowers. Very pretty, I love.
Thank you Isabella dearie.
Thank you Siangying, Eve, Maryanne, Ry, Rachel Chng, Candice Ho, Candice Chai, Abigail, Charis, Joelle, Rebecca, Marisse, Priscilla Luo, Victoria (B1), Calista, Sherrie, Jessica for the presents, big or small.
Thanks everyone else for hugs or kisses. Greatly appreciated, greatly.

Eve's letter made me tear. After reading hers, I read Chng's & I teared more. Haha. Okay, I'm rushing out to meet Yuxuan, Shufen, Candice & Valerie. To study. Tmrw's gonna be a fun day.

Good day lovelies & thank you Cherlene, for the wonderful talk.

"roboboxx"

Yo.

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